-IVYS POV-
I left the hospital and made my way to the car.
I got in and shut the door behind me, and just sat there staring at the steering wheel In front of me, trying to process everything.
"I'm pregnant..." I said out loud in disbelief "I'm fucking pregnant?!"
I looked down at my stomach slowly.
"I can't tell him" I sighed "he can't know"
How would he react? Joker doesn't want kids! He's The Clown Prince Of Crime for crying out loud.
I ran my hand across my stomach slowly.
Now that I knew I was pregnant..I sort of warmed to the idea.
"I wonder if you're a boy or a girl?" I smiled down at my body.
After I had processed everything, the thought of being pregnant didn't scare me. I thought it was a beautiful thing..but Joker was the problem.
"I'll have to leave him" I sighed
I felt tears brim my eyes, but I quickly blinked them away.
I started the car and drove back to the mansion.
While I drove, visions entered my mind.
I imagined a family, our family..
But I knew it would never be so perfect.
I shook the thought out of my mind and concentrated on the road.
"I'd love a little girl" I said to myself with a giggle
I knew I was being too hasty, but began to feel excited- I was going to be a mother.
"Or a little boy, really doesn't matter" I smiled
I wanted to make my child happy and healthy.
Deep down I knew I would be a single parent, I couldn't imagine Joker being a father.
When I pulled up to the mansion, I got out and made my way inside.
"I just want to tell him" I thought "but I can't"
I heard him rustling around in the basement, probably in the kitchen- so I made my way up to the bedroom to lay down. I was exhausted.
The nurse had told me that the vomiting was morning sickness, and that it will come and go.
Also, when I asked her why I felt pain during sex, she said "Your vaginal walls are swollen and more sensitive during pregnancy; the worst during early pregnancy."- so I guess that answered that.
I got into the room, took my shoes off and crawled into bed. I just wanted to sleep.
I heard some footsteps approaching so I rolled over to face the door.
"Hi" I smiled as Joker walked in
He jumped a little bit what made me laugh.
"When did you get here?" He asked as he came over to me.
"About 5 minutes ago" I answered
I knelt down beside the bed and kissed me.
He pulled away and looked into my eyes.
"I have to go out" he said
"Why?" I asked
"Just business, princess"
He stroked the hair off my face and smiled weakly.
I nodded and sighed
"Okay"
It sometimes annoyed me how he never told me about his 'business', but I guess I can't say much- I'm hiding his own child from him.
He got up and put on his red dress shirt, and I watched him button up the bottom button, but not the top.
After, he slipped on a silver blazer, then grabbed his golden gun out of his desk drawer and hid it under the blazer in a secret pocket.
He looked so attractive when he had his red shirt on what showed off his tattoos.
We kissed passionately and said our goodbyes, then he left the mansion.
I laid in the bed alone with my thoughts.
I got a little bit excited every time I thought of the baby, and how it was growing inside of me right now.
I ran my fingers across my stomach and smiled.
I knew the 'baby' was literally only the size of a fingernail, but I still liked the idea of talking to it.
"You're going to be beautiful" I whispered
"You're not going to have a childhood like your mommy had"
I didn't have the best childhood, as I didn't grow up with my mother, just my dad..but he committed suicide after he verbally abused me.
I thought about my sister, I hadn't spoken to her for a long time. Surprisingly, I didn't really miss her, I was too consumed with everything else.
I got up slowly and made my way downstairs to the kitchen and get something to eat.
When I got down into the flashy basement kitchen, I grabbed a bowl and poured some cereal into it, along with some almond milk.
I sat on a stool at the island, and began to eat.
It felt lonely without Joker around, but then again I liked my own space.
Although, the thought of the secret weighed down on me, and this was only the beginning.
What will happen when I begin to show? He will definitely suspect something then.
On the other hand, I thought that all of this was too soon. We should of been more careful.
"I'm not having an abortion" I thought "I'm keeping it, and I'm going to raise it myself.."
I knew I had to leave joker after the baby's birth, or even before. He wouldn't want a child, and he wouldn't want me.
~2 hours later~
Joker had been gone for a while, but I didn't really worry about him- he could clearly take care of himself.
I had taken a shower, and I was now standing naked in front of the mirror examining my body.
"You're gonna' ruin my body lil dude" I joked, looking down at my stomach and holding it slightly.
I also looked at my new tattoo, it was absolutely beautiful.
I looked around for a towel, but there wasn't one.
"For crying out loud" I sighed "i left the towel upstairs"
I opened the door then ran up to jokers room, trying to cover myself as I did- even though no one was around.
"Phew!" I relieved as I picked up he folded towel on the bed
I dried myself quickly, then slipped on my black lace bra and underwear.
They were brand new what Joker had given me, they made me feel so sexy.
I did a little twirl in the middle of the room, and danced around In them like an idiot.
I started singing to myself, and did cute little wiggles. I felt so sexy, but also very childish. I just wanted to dance and sing for some reason.
I think I was just overwhelmed and excited about my pregnancy.
I danced over to the desk and opened the drawer, revealing the tattoo gun.
"Hmm" I giggled
Suddenly I heard the door open, but I didn't turn to look because I knew who it was.
I was still looking down at the tattoo gun in my hand.
"Hey" I grinned, my back still toward the door.
Then, I heard an unfamiliar voice.
"Hmm, I can see why Joker picked you"