"Um welcome" I said as Tommy entered my house.
I invited him over because why not?
"Very quiet in here" He said as he looked around.
"Yeah"
I took him to my bedroom to show him my set up.
"Oh my god is that a Dream youtooz" He said as he picked up the youtooz.
He picked up mine. He made them kiss and set them back down. I just nervously laughed.
"So what do you want to do?"
"I don't know, enlighten me gogy" (Tommy)
"Ew don't say that, um well I don't know"
"What do you do for fun?" (Tommy)
"Mainly talk to...Dream"
"Of course you do, you know you guys aren't dating so you could see other people and not be just an accessory to Dream" Tommy said as he sat in my chair.
"It's not like I can see people" I said as I sat on my bed.
"What do you mean?" (Tommy)
"I have this huge persona online and a lot of people know me through that, I want someone to like me for me, not for my money, for the publicity, or to get closer to my friends and expose them and what not" I said as I sighed.
"True"
"See Tommy that's why you should have lived you life without the whole streaming and youtube thing, you will never be none for Tommy but as TommyInIt the youtuber and streamer. Once you start dating you are going to have a rough time"
"If I never started streaming and playing on the smp, I wouldn't have met all my friends, there is good that comes out of it" Tommy said as he turned on my computer.
"Being a sort of influencer at a young age would be something that would be great and terrible at the same time" I said as I laughed.
"The internet can be mean, for godsake I had some trouble with my emotions but I mean who hasn't. I can tell you all about my experiences since we have the time" Tommy said as he turned off the computer and sat next to me.
"Sure, tell me about it"
Time Skip
"Bye George!" Tommy said as he left my house.
"Bye Tommy" I said as I shut the door.
I sighed and walked to my sofa. I sat down and thought about what he said. I can see other people. I am not dating Dream, streaming isn't something I will do for life. If I don't put myself out there now, I will die alone. Okay maybe that is over doing it. I got on my phone and checked the time. It was almost time for dinner. I will just order some takeout. I opened Twitter and browsed around. I stopped on an ad for Starbucks. I began to think of the boy from the cafe. Why did I seem intrigued by him? Why did I feel like that? I can't be gay. I am straight. Right? I turned off my phone. This is so stupid. I am questioning my sexuality now. Just great George. I check the time. 2 minutes have passed. I put my phone is my pocket and took a deep breath. I stood up and walked to my kitchen. Maybe a snack will get my mind off things. I grabbed a banana off the fruit bowl and headed to my room. I sat at my desk and sighed. Suddenly my phone began to ring. I grabbed my phone to see that it was Dream. He wanted to facetime? I answered the call. His camera was off.
"GEORGEEEE" he said excitedly.
"Hey Dream.." I said as I positioned my camera.
It kept falling. Dream hung up. I saw a text from discord. I turned on my monitor and got on discord. Dream called me from there.
"Better?"
"I mean I guess" I said as I peeled my banana.
"So did you have fun" Dream said as I heard him lay down.
"Yeah"
I turned off my camera.
"Turn it back on"
"What why? You don't have yours on"
"But I want to see you"
I turned my camera on. I took a bite of my banana and just took a deep breathe.
"What's wrong?"
"Dream have you ever felt like there is something in your life just missing" I said as I took another bite of my banana more aggressively.
"Yeah I have actually"
"That's how I feel right now, Tommy opened my eyes to a problem I never knew existed" I said as I took another bite and chewed faster.
"George..."
"Which is something I don't get, he is so young but yet understands a lot of my problems. He is a kid who should be living his life and right now he is but with some consequences. Everything is under surveillance. My life is boring. I do the same thing everytime. I am alone. ITS NOT FAIR" I said as I took another bite of my banana.
I was getting angry. I started to talk and chew.
"MY WHOLE LIFE IS ON VIDEO, I WONDER IF I SHOULD HAVE JUST NEVER STARTED STEAMING. THERE IS SO MANY THINGS I CAN'T DO. THIS IS JUST SO FU-" I said as I suddenly stopped.
I grabbed a trash bag and spit out the banana. I bit myself.
"Fuck" I whispered.
I bit myself hard. I was bleeding. I liked away the blood.
"Are you okay?!" Dream said in a panicked tone.
"Yeah, I just bit myself" I said as I licked the wound in my mouth.
"George just breathe" Dream said as he relaxed.
"Did you understand what I said" I said as I threw the rest of the banana away.
"Yeah, have you tried to be what you call normal" Dream asked.
"Well yeah but I get recognized nearly everywhere" I said as I laid back in my chair.
"Dream, I have a question?"
"What is it?"
"Is it nice to be faceless? I mean you get all the perks of being a youtuber and streamer and no one knows who you are" I said as I looked at the camera.
"Well, it's not that great, I can't really go out with the people I know who are well known, and sometimes you have to hide yourself.....from the ones.....you love most" he said as his voice got quieter but was somehow louder.
He was closer to the screen I think.
"Dream we need to meet up" I said as I smiled.
Dream was silent. There was the sound of ruffling.
"Yeah we do" Dream said as he chuckled.
"I want to see you" I said as I sighed.
"Oh really"
"Yeah, and I want to see you in person to just take you all in" I said as I laid back in my chair
"Take me all in?" Dream said as he laughed.
"No no no not like that, I mean like see you in person, your height and features" I said embarrassed.
"I mean sure, pretty sure you can take me all in, both ways" Dream said as he softly chuckled.
I hid my face in my hands.
"Oh my god" I said muffled.
"Admit I am pretty smooth with it" Dream said as I heard him turn.
I looked up at the camera.
"Are you in bed right now?" I said as I laughed.
"Yeah"
"Any plans tomorrow?"
"Not really"
"I expected you to have fun since you live with your bestfriend" I said as I laughed.
"Well only one of them, the other is in the UK" Dream said as he sighed.
"One day I will come and visit you guys"
"You always say that"
"I mean it"
"Okay one day"
"One....day"