Meghan, My Chaos

Chapter 25

Chapter 25: Beach

Meghan Ferren's POV

1:47 PM

"Omg, Meghan ang sexy mo!!!" Naiiyak na sabi sa akin ni Sydney at natawa ako sakanya.

"Magbihis ka narin. I bet you look better than me." Sabi ko pero busy siyang titigan parin ako. I just got changed into my bikini at parang nanay kung tingnan ako ni Sydney sa sobrang tuwa.

"You're so gorgeous, nakakakilig!!!" She squealed at naalala ko yung iba kong mga 'kaibigan' na kasama ko sa mga parties. They don't compliment me. They just look at me from head to toe at sa susunod na kita namin, they're already copying my style. Insecure bitches. I'm glad I have someone like Sydney.

"So are you, Sydney. Magbihis ka na, paexcite ka eh! I wanna see yours too!" Sabi ko at tumango siya at nagbihis na sa isang stall ng restroom na nandito sa labas, near the beach.

I'm wearing a red wrap around bikini that's tied in the back of my neck. I love it. Favorite color ko kasi ang red and this style is so sexy. I can't wait to show it to Jaden.

And no matter how much I hate Adrien, I kind of hope he can see me wearing this.

"Meghan?" Pagtawag sa akin ni Sydney galing sa isang stall.

"Okay na? Let me see!" Excited kong sabi at umiling siya. Nakasilip lang yung ulo niyo ngayon sa labas ng pinto ng stall.

"Nahihiya ako, I've never worn a bikini my whole life." Sabi niya at lumapit ako sakanya.

"Don't worry. You're gorgeous, Sydney. Even if you don't think you are." Sabi ko at nginitian siya. "Sayang naman yung magandang katawan mo kung hindi mo ipapakita sa mundo diba?"

She smiled at dahan dahang binuksan yung pinto. I stared at her and looked at her in awe.

She's gorgeous. She looks so innocent. She's in a simple high waist yellow bikini. It's not too revealing, and she looks adorable in it. Sobrang puti niya and the color yellow suites her.

"Sydney, you're literally flawless." Sabi ko at bigla niya akong niyakap.

"Salamat, Meghan." She whispered at niyakap ko din siya.

"I should take pictures of you. Ipost mo sa Instagram and that guy you like would surely drool over you." Sabi ko na ikinatawa niya.

"Should I? That's gonna be fun!!" She squealed at natawa ako sakanya. Bumitaw siya sa yakap at nagayos ng buhok niya sa salamin.

"You should, but you have to be strong. 'Wag magiging marupok if he chases you. You don't deserve him." Sabi ko at tumango siya sa akin.

"Let's go?" Aya niya sa akin. Kinuha ko na yung bag ko.

"Let's go." Sabi ko at nilagay namin yung cover up namin for our bikini. Mine's a laced dress that's just down my butt. It's in the color black. Para namang coat yung kay Sydney. It's long and white.

"Sobrang see through ng sayo!" Gulat na sabi niya at tumawa ako. "I wish I can flaunt my body like that."

"I've never really given that much fuck into my body. It's just skin and shit. Don't worry about who'll see it. Lahat naman tayo may katawan." Sabi ko at ngumiti siya.

"Okay, I'll try to be that confident!" Sabi niya, cheering herself up at hinila ko na siya palabas.

"Jaden said he'll meet us somewhere infront of the cottage." Sabi ko habang naglalakad na kami.

Nakita kong may mga nagtinginan saming mga lalaki habang naglalakad kami papunta sa beach. I was putting on my sunglasses nang biglang kumapit sa akin si Sydney.

"Siguro dapat hindi agad tayo nagbihis. Sa may beach nalang ganon." Sabi niya at tumawa ako.

"Relax. They're watching because they think you're gorgeous." Bulong ko sakanya habang naglalakad.

"You think so?"

"I know so." Sagot ko at ngumiti siya. "You look really good, Sydney. 'Wag kang magalala." She smiled at sinuot yung beach hat niya.

Naglakad lang kami, walking past our cottage and watching people stare at us.

"Do you like it?" I asked Sydney. Tumingin siya sa akin na nagtataka. "The attention. Do you like how almost everyone seems to stare at us?"

"Ewan ko..." Sagot niya at pinagmasdan yung mga tao. "It feels good that they think I'm worth looking at, but I don't think I like it." Natanaw ko na si Jaden na nagaayos ng mala-picnic na set up sa beach.

"Why not?"

"I think we should be fair. Alam mo yun, like we should appreciate everyone equally, and not give special treatments like giving us this much attention. They're all beautiful too, in their own way." Sabi niya at napangiti ako.

"You really are a good person. I wish I was nice like you." Sabi ko at tumakbo na papunta kay Jaden. He's wearing floral blue shorts. I've always loved blue on him.

"Jaden!! Nagdala ako ng wine!" Sabi ko at tumawa siya. Binaba ko yung bag ko at umupo sa beach mat na nilatag niya sa buhangin.

"And I brought foods." Sabi niya sa akin before giving me a kiss. I smiled at him after biting his lower lip. Umupo si Sydney sa tabi ko at binuksan ko na yung wine. "You look stunning."

He's seen me in a lot of bikinis and he still looks at me like it's the first time. Ang sarap sa feeling.

"You look gorgeous too, Sydney." Bati niya kay Sydney at tumawa naman siya.

"Let's drink!!" Aya ni Sydney sa amin and I agreed.

"Alright, I'll go ask for wine glasses." Sabi ni Jaden at kiniss ako sa pisngi. "You look so sexy, you turn me on." Bulong niya at umalis na. Napangiti nalang ako at umiwas ng tingin kay Sydney. He's making me blush.

"What are you like?" Biglang tanong ni Sydney at napatingin ako sakanya.

"Anong ibig mong sabihin?" Tanong ko. Humiga ako sa mat at pinagmasdan yung langit. It looks so blue right now. Madalas umuulan sa mga ganitong buwan. Buti nalang at maaraw ngayon.

"You told me kanina that you wish you were nice like me." Sabi niya at humiga din sa tabi ko at pumikit. The sun isn't too hot right now, saktong sakto lang kahit maaga aga pa.

"I'm not a good person, Sydney. That's why I like you. Nice people fascinates me." Sabi ko at pumikit din.

"I think you're a really nice person. You helped me out the night we met and you even brought me all the way here."

"I ruin things, Sydney." Kwento ko sakanya at napabuntong hininga. "I ruin everything I touch and I don't even realize it. Lahat nang napapalapit sakin, nasasaktan ko lang."

"Maybe not everyone." Sabi niya at napadilat ako. Tumingin lang ako sa langit, watching the clouds move above me. Naalala ko bigla yung family ko, and the people I've used. Just like what I did to Declan.

"Nakita mo naman si Jaden. All I gave him was pain." Sabi ko at bumangon siya at tiningnan ako.

"I don't think so. Nabibigyan mo siya ng happiness and priceless memories! Jaden loves you and it's normal to be hurt when you love someone." Sabi ni Sydney sa akin at ngumiti ako sakanya. "You just have to give him a chance. Try to love him back the way he does."

"You think I can do that?" Tanong ko sakanya at hinawakan niya yung kamay ko.

"Hindi ko alam, but it'll make Jaden the happiest."

I really want to make it up to him. I don't wanna hurt him anymore.