Meghan, My Chaos

Chapter 23

Chapter 23: Everyday

Meghan Ferren's POV

11:09 AM

"Come here baby, I'll take a picture of you." Tawag sa akin ni Jaden at lumapit naman agad ako sakanya. He made me stand infront of the pool and took a couple of shots. I posed for each one at napangiti siya habang tinitingnan 'yon.

"Why are you smiling?" Tanong ko habang lumalapit sakanya.

"The way you smile... It's perfect." Sabi niya habang parehas naming tinitingnan yung picture. Jaden's good at taking pictures. He's been my photographer ever since, kahit saan kami pumunta.

"Wow!! Papicture din!" Sabi ni Sydney na biglang sumulpot sa tabi namin.

Natawa si Jaden at pinicturan din si Sydney. I took out my phone and looked at the pictures I took of the beach and the views noong papunta palang kami. Naglakad lakad lang kami paikot sa resort and into the beach paglabas namin ng hotel room. It's a bit tiring, but it's worth it kasi sobrang ganda ng beach dito.

"Want some drinks?" Aya ko sakanila dahil sa sobrang init.

"Sure! My treat." Sabi ni Sydney at binato yung wallet niya sa akin.

I kissed Jaden on the cheek before leaving the pool area. Nagpatuloy lang sila sa pagpipicture habang papunta ako sa malapit na store.

I entered it and saw a lot of souvenirs and swimwears for sale. Naglakad ako papunta sa ref nila at kumuha ng tatlong bote ng Andy Cola.

I went to the counter at kumuha ng maliit na chocolate na nakalagay sa gilid.

"296 po." Sabi nung nasa counter. May pumila sa likod kong lalaki, I glanced at him and he looks hot. Mukhang may lahi, maybe Italian? He's shirtless and a bit wet. Galing siguro sa beach.

I took out my wallet. Wala akong balak gamitin yung pera ni Sydney. Nagbabayad na ako nang bigla siyang magsalita.

"You're pretty." Bulong niya. Lumingon ako at napangiti. He's hot as hell. From the looks of his body, it looks like he's into working out.

"Really? Do I attract you?" I asked at napakagat siya sa labi niya.

"Yes. A lot." I was about to step closer nang maalala ko si Jaden. Shit, right. Hindi nga pala ako single.

"That's a pity. I'm already taken." Sabi ko at kumindat. I grabbed the plastic bag with the things I bought at naglakad na paalis.

"Come find me if you change your mind!" Pahabol na sigaw niya bago ako makalabas ng store.

I should be good to Jaden. I told him I'll give him a chance. I should try being loyal.

Naglakad na ako pabalik sa resort, passing by the beach. Kahit na sobrang init, ang daming tao na nasa beach, most of them are swimming. Meron ding mga nagsusurf sa malayo.

"Thank you!!" Sabi ni Sydney at tumakbo papunta sa akin. Sumunod si Jaden sakanya.

"What do you wanna do for later? We'll celebrate your birthday." Sabi ni Jaden habang inaabot ko yung mga bote sakanila.

"I don't know, grill something by the beach and have a cute picnic?" Suggest ko at excited na tumango si Sydney.

"Or we could go on a boat." Suggest naman ni Jaden and I smiled.

"That's too much, okay na sa akin yung normal na kain lang." I said at umiling siya.

"I told you, I wanna be a good boyfriend." Sabi niya at kiniss ako sa noo.

"Hay, ayoko na maging single." Sabi ni Sydney na ikinatawa naming dalawa.

"There are a lot of hot guys in here, Sydney." Sabi ko at napabuntong hininga siya.

"I told you, I like someone else. At ayaw niya sa mga kagaya ko, he says I'm too innocent." Sabi niya habang umuupo.

"Can you open these for us?" Bulong ko kay Jaden at inabot sakanya yung mga bote. Tumango siya at umupo ako sa tabi ni Sydney. "Sydney, he's not the right guy for you, I swear."

"I really like him, Meghan. Kaya kong baguhin sarili ko para sakanya." Sabi niya at inabutan kami ni Jaden nung binuksan niyang Andy Cola.

"Don't change for someone, Sydney. I know how you feel, but when the right person comes, magugulat ka nalang kasi hindi mo poproblemahin yung mga pagbago sa sarili mo." I said at uminom kami.

"Really?" Tanong niya at napatingin sa akin. I smiled at tinapik yung likod niya.

"Yes. The right person will make you love yourself more. Ipapafeel niya na you're special and you deserve all the love in the world. At maniniwala ka sakanya, making you love yourself for who you are." Sabi ko at napansin kong nakatitig sa akin si Jaden.

"Have you felt it?" Biglang tanong ni Sydney at natahimik ako.

Ramdam ko parin yung titig ni Jaden sa akin. He's waiting for my answer. He wants to know if he makes me feel like that. And I don't want to lie.

"No." Sabi ko, hindi makatingin kay Jaden. Natahimik kami and I checked my watch. Nakita kong 11:30 na pala

"We should get something for lunch." Sabi ko at tumayo naman bigla si Sydney.

"I'll go and order! Do you wanna eat at our cottage?" Tanong niya at tumango ako.

"That would be nice." Sabi ko at tumayo narin.

"Okay, mauna na kayo! Hintayin niyo nalang ako dun!" She said at inabot ko sakanya yung wallet niya. She waved at naglakad na paalis.

"Let's go?" Aya ni Jaden at tumango ako. He grabbed my hand at naglakad na kami paalis doon. Umiinom inom ako as we walk.

Tahimik lang kami habang naglalakad sa beach. Our feet sinks in the sand as we walk. Napapikit ako at nilanghap yung hangin at pinakinggan yung tunog ng mga alon. It feels so peaceful to be here.

The last time I walked in the beach, I was also with Jaden. We were freshmen in college, magkaibang schools. Kaya noong Christmas break, pinilit namin yung dad ko na magbakasyon because we really missed each other.

"What are you thinking?" Tanong ni Jaden at napangiti ako.

"Naalala ko lang nung pumunta tayo sa Fiji. Castaway island." Sabi ko at nakitang napangiti rin siya nang maalala yun.

"It's my favorite trip, out of all the places we've been to." Sabi niya at tumango ako, agreeing to what he said. "Nagaaral na ako dito and we're an 8-hour drive apart. I missed hanging out with you everyday."

"And in that trip, we were together everyday for almost two weeks." Sabi ko at ngumiti siya.

"I was so happy that time, kung alam mo lang." He said at sumikip yung paghawak niya sa kamay ko.

"Me too. I can't believe that was almost three years ago."

Natahimik kami at tanaw ko ba yung cottage. Tumitingin tingin ako sa beach, watching some kids run around, carrying small buckets for the sand.

"I want to be with you everyday." Bigla niyang sabi at naramdaman kong sumikip yung dibdib ko. "Ayun yung paulit ulit na gumugulo sa isip ko whenever I can't see you."

Napaiwas ako ng tingin at uminom nalang, because I can't tell him that I feel the same.

"Ayun parin yung gumugulo sa isip ko up until now. I want us, everyday, for the rest of my life." Sabi niya at hindi ako umimik. Natahimik kaming dalawa at maya maya, nakarating na sa cottage.

I hope he didn't love me this much.