"No!!! No! Ethan! ETHAN!! Get the-! Fuck off!" I screamed and thrashed violently.
"Grayson baby it's mom!" She yelled at me which caused me to calm down some.
"M-mom?" I asked my voice breaking. She smiled lightly at me as she embraced me in a tight hug. "It's ok baby I'm here." She said while rubbing my back.
"It's not ok mom. It's my fault, it-it's all m-my fault." I sobbed onto her shoulder. I've been having dream ever since After the funeral. It's been a couple of days but the dreams are getting worse and worse.
"Grayson it is not your fault it's no ones fault." "I can't do this mom, I can't live with the fact I killed my brother. If I hadn't had him in the car with me he would be fine right here with me! It's all my fault! My best friend is gone!" I yelled at her while tears still streamed down my face.
I looked into her eyes noticing her eyes were very red and puffy. But I also noticed a small cut on her eyebrow with a small amount of blood dripping down her face.
I slowly put my thumb over it while the blood smeared telling me it was a fresh cut. She winced as I did so. "Did I do that?" I asked my voice cracking even more.
"Gray babe I'm fine don't worr-" "Get away from me!" I yelled at her cutting her off immediately. "Gray." She spoke softly. "No! Mom don't come near me. I'm just going to hurt you just please! Please just go mom." I said as I laid back down turning my back towards her.
She made her way to my bedroom door hearing it open softly. As she walked out I heard her say 'I love you' and walked out. I silently cried to myself hiding part of my face in my pillow. "Why do I always fuck everything up?" I asked my self. I felt my eyes become more heavy.
Not wanting to sleep I shot myself up out of the bed and put some running shoes on and gray sweat pants on. I didn't bother putting a shirt on considering I would have taken it off any way and grabbed my phone and headphones.
Once I got outside I went onto my Spotify and began playing Arctic Monkeys. The melody of Why'd you only call me when your high played through my headphones. I began to run down the street making any kind of twists and turns along the way not caring which way I was going. I just needed to get away from the house and from everyone.
I was about thirty minutes in my run when I realized I came across some open field that led into the forest.
I became curious and made my way over to the field and sat in the grass looking up to the stars. I looked at my phone seeing it was 5:42am. I locked my phone back and continued to let the music to play. My hair was stuck to my forehead from the sweat falling from my body, but at this point I didn't care.
My mind wandered all over the place from my mom, then to Ethan, then her.
I thought about the way she comforted me at the funeral. I treated her like an asshole and she was still there for me.
Why?
I wished I could remember her. Us. Anything. But then again I could care less. I don't care about anything anymore. I chuckled to myself realizing I shouldn't stress over anything.
I got up looking at my phone again seeing it was now 7:14am.
Well fuck.
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General FictionBefore the accident they were the perfect couple. He was charming, smooth, always did whatever he could for the one he loved. She gave him her love and devotion and pushed him to do what he dreamed of. After the accident he changed. After losing his...