Bygone-G.D

17

A/N: Don't play song yet:)

Today was the day.

The day we had to lay Ethan to rest. The day everyone wanted to avoid.

I haven't spoken to Grayson since the day he was released from the hospital. Lisa has been in touch with me about how he has been, and apparently she has noticed a major change in him as well.

He's been locked in his room since he's been home, avoiding coming out only to get something to drink. Lisa said he hasn't even eaten and when she tries to get him to he flips out on her.

I really don't want to run into him today. I have no choice though. I will be there for Ethan. And as much as I hate to admit it, I'll be there for Grayson too. No matter how much he treated me like shit, I still love him. Hell we have been together for six years, I can't just lose feelings for him in a weeks time.

My thoughts were soon interrupted when I heard my phone alarm go off. I sighed as I reached over to turn it off and climbed out of my warm bed. I wanted to stay in it forever feeling the blankets engulf me into somberness. I grabbed my clothes together getting ready to take a shower until I felt the sudden urge to throw up.

My hand covered my mouth as I darted towards the bathroom and hunched over the toilet to let it go. After a few minutes I sat on my knees with my hands holding onto the toilet seat regaining my strength. I finally stood up and walked to the sink to brush my teeth.

Must be my nerves.

I've been dreading this day for a while and now that it's here it must have taken a toll on me. After I brushed my teeth I got my shower got ready. I stuck with a bright colored dress considering it was what Ethan wanted.

I even texted Lisa and she said she was going to wear bright colors as well. After I slid the dress on I walked over to my vanity and did light makeup, foundation, powder, and mascara. I looked at myself in the mirror and realized how different I looked. My face looked thinner than before and my hair still had the black and white in it from when I had it done, but still had a dull appearance to it.

I threw my hair into a formal updo as I didn't feel like trying to tame it. I looked at my clock and realized I had to leave in fifteen minutes. I threw on my light gray heels and I put my deodorant and perfume on. I grabbed my keys and phone and headed out the door towards my car. Before I drove away I took a huge breath trying to calm myself from thinking about how the day will turn out.

I backed out of my parking spot from the apartment and headed towards the funeral home.

A/N: PLAY SONG:)

As I arrived to the funeral home I couldn't help but realize how beautiful everything was. Everything was elegant and classy. I didn't even feel as if I was in a funeral home, more like a million dollar mansion.

I walked around the room noticing the pictures set around everywhere of Ethan. I felt the tears threatening to come out as I came across my all time favorite picture of Ethan.

I couldn't help but to smile widely at the photo. He always bitched about how weird his smile was and how he hated it. Little did he know though it was my absolute favorite thing about him.

I even remember this day. We were still in high school. Gray and I have been together for a little more than a year at this time and we decided to go take pictures of each other on some open field. We stopped for a few minutes while we rested and as he was resting his head against the post Grayson tried to sit in the post and ended up falling backwards to the ground. Which cause us to laugh and I whipped the camera out and snapped the picture of Ethan.