I wake up exhausted as my eyes try to adjust to the light. My eyes scan the room and I realize that what happened last night was real and not a dream. I look beside me and touch the bed. Nicki is gone.
It only takes me a few moments to put my clothes back on before mustering up the courage to walk out of the room and face Nicki.
She's only wearing a shirt and panties while in the kitchen making breakfast. It smelled amazing, but I couldn't take my eyes off of her.
Nicki half turns and flashes a smile at me before turning back to the stove and flipping the pancake. "Hungry?"
"Uh, no. I better go... Back to my room. I need to start getting ready for the show tonight." I lie. I'm starving but I don't want to spend anymore time here. It's awkward enough taking to her right now so how could I ever have breakfast with the girl I fucked last night?
Nicki looks into my eyes as she hands me a plate. "Here take this then."
I take in a deep breath. "Uh thank you." I leave.
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The panel was awkward today. I'm sure everyone could feel there was a tension and I couldn't help but feel ashamed in myself. Never in my entire life had I fucked someone the second day I met them. Hell, I don't even know how old this girl is. For all I know, I could be going to prison in a few days if anyone found out.
We didn't speak to each other. In fact we said as little as we possibly could.
After the show, everyone met in the break room. Tulisa was off talking to Nicki. They were laughing it up which made me feel a bit jealous. But what really sent me over the edge was Tulisa pawing the necklace Nicki was wearing almost like she just wanted to touch her.
I rolled my eyes and stalked over to where they both were standing. I flashed a smiled at Tulisa before asking if Nicki and I could talk.
I pulled her off to the side. "Look I think we should talk." I looked down.
"About what?" A confused look plastered her face.
"About last night, look I'm not," I looked around before uttering the last word, "lesbian." My eyes met hers.
"I know you said that last night."
"I just think it's best if we don't see each other anymore." I looked into her eyes searching for answers.
"It's not like we were before anyway." I watched as she walked away. I felt a piece of my heart break but I knew it was for the best. What would my fans say if they figured out I had sex with a girl?
Nicki POV
As I walk away I couldn't help but feel a bit heart broken. I know we weren't dating or anything but I had never had such a strong, emotional connection with anyone else. I had also never been used before. And that's how I feel now, like she used me for her own personal amusement. Like I was a toy only to be tossed away when the owner became bored.
I joined Tulisa again and force a smile.
"What was that about? It seemed pretty serious."
"Oh nothing, just business stuff." I glanced towards Demi who was chatting with Simon.
"Oh okay, wanna get out of here?" She grinned at me.
"Uh sure. Where should we go?"
"How about my place?" She bit her lip gently, in a way that would usually excite me before walking out of the room arm in arm with Demi's stare of disbelief haunting me. But hey, she didn't want me so why not let someone else have me?
