Snowed In For Christmas || Post Malone

Nine

I felt my breath catch in my throat when I stepped inside the warm studio, my hand coming up to slowly push the hood from my head letting the small clusters of powdery snow float to the ground. The downstairs was everything that he said it would be, and I couldn't help but feel even more guilty for keeping my pregnancy a secret from him...even if we weren't together at the time.

It had everything that I would need to entertain our kids while he was upstairs working. A cozy sitting area with a sectional couch positioned perfectly in front of a stone fireplace, a large TV hanging over the mantle and a fluffy white throw rug on the floor. The windows on either side of the fireplace gave the room an inviting glow that was even more beautiful with the snow falling outside. I couldn't help but smile as I slowly ran my hand over the back of the suede couch before walking over towards the small kitchen.

It wasn't much bigger than a kitchen in a small studio apartment in the city. Basically one long counter that was home to a sink, a stove top and a microwave, a stainless steel refrigerator standing at the end. I walked towards the island smiling at the four stools, my throat starting to close and my eyes starting to tear up as I imagined the excitement that was floating through him when he was creating this space for me and our kids.

"We were so close Austy" I said quietly, a small smile tugging on my lips as I rested my hand on my stomach giving it a small rub with my thumb, a single tear falling down my cheek as I quickly brought up my hand to wipe it away not wanting to have Austin ask any questions about why I was crying.

I gave myself a small chuckle before heading towards the spiral staircase, smiling even wider when I reached the top to see him sitting on the edge of a worn black leather couch, his guitar resting on his thigh and his headphones resting perfectly over his ears as he started strumming out the most amazing soft song I had ever heard. I stopped at the top of the staircase leaning my right hip against it with my arms folded over my chest as I watched him with a wide smile. I have never heard the song before and it didn't sound like anything that would be included on his album but it was beautiful, it was soft, and it was so filled with emotion and I couldn't help but wonder if maybe it was something he often played when he thought about me.

I looked down at the ground scuffing my foot a little against the light colored hardwood letting out a sigh. It wasn't a secret that being apart from me had caused him some tremendous heartbreak, you could tell by the way he had lost a significant amount of weight, and seeing it still lingering in him despite how happy he was when we were together was something that broke my heart even more. It was almost like he was afraid that after the snow subsided he feared that I was going to leave and he would never see me again, but that was the last thing I wanted.

I sighed pushing myself from the railing as I headed over towards him, smiling when he still didn't realize that I was there. I walked up behind him slowly moving my hands over his shoulders until they were loosely draped around his neck as I pressed a soft opened mouthed kiss against the eagle's wing and bison horn that met just below his ear. I smiled against his skin when I heard his guitar stop playing while he stayed in his spot letting me explore the warm skin of his neck that I loved so much. I took my time leaving soft kisses against his skin, the tip of my tongue gently grazing his skin with each press of my lips as I made my way towards the collar of his shirt and back up again stopping just below his ear.

I reached up pulling the headphones from his head, dropping them gently on the soft cushions of the couch, a small groan falling from his lips as I slowly nibbled on his soft earlobe, his head falling against mine while I started to gently suck the skin before pressing tiny kisses against it.

"Hey baby" I whispered softly into his ear, a wider smile coming across my lips as I saw small goosebumps start to appear for only a second before they disappeared again.