You *Kellic*

[27] Ghosts of Kellin

*Kellin pov*

I get out of bed, tomorrow is Friday and I dont want to spend the weekend alone again and I dont want to invite Jack or Oliver over. Jack is like a party animal even when hes alone and I dont need that in my house after all I'm alone and it'd be all on me to clean it up. Oliver still isnt my favorite person because he was right, he was right about my plan but yet he ruined it and it all lead me to this point. After I get ready for my day I get into my car and drive to school.. I park my car perfectly then I make my way inside. I go inside my class and I stop, Vic looking down at his hands that are on his desk I take in a deep breath before walking closer and tapping his shoulder.

"Vic" I say softly and he lifts his head up and looks over at me and then looks away

"Please stop ignoring me" I add and he still doesnt answer

"Well, how about this, after school, if you want to give me a chance and let me tell you everything you want to know, meet me at your spot, I know you dont want me to call it mine and thats okay its all yours, but I'll be there waiting if you want to give me a chance" I say before walking away to my desk. I really hope he gives me a chance.

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Durning gym Vic didnt even look at me, he didnt want to look at anyone, I watched as he ignored everything, his head down only looking at the grass below him. I chose to leave him alone after gym and now I'm here in his spot hoping he will come, I've been sitting here for ten minutes and I'm going to stay longer.

*Vic Pov*

I feel so weak, so useless. I walked into class. Ignored Kellin, heard him say something about meeting him to find out whatever I wanted and I thought about the offer. It was too good to be true. I then left and like Jesse promised, We met again, around my eye under all this makeup its a dark purple color. It hurts like hell. I wouldn't talk to anyone at lunch and no one even questioned me they let me be. I dont think they really noticed, Mike and Tony too busy being all lovely dovey, Jaime leaving half way throughout lunch because he had to take a test or something. The rest of the day, I didn't want to look at anyone, I kept thinking people would see right through the makeup and see how purple my eye is and how ugly I must look. I couldn't take the chance. I didnt want anyone to see me or my secret. I couldnt even change my shirt in gym because I was scared of what I would see. What someone else would see.

Before gym I decided I would give Kellin a small chance because I have nothing better to do and now here I am walking towards where Kellin said he would be. I sigh before walking closer and looking a head to see Kellin. I walk closer to him and I sit down next to him and it takes him a few moments before he looks at me. I look down scared he will see right through me, after all he is Kellin. He can see through almost anyone, well thats what people have said all these years. Everything I ever thought about Kellin is all messed up now, Which is another reason why I'm here.

"You came" Kellin says softy

"Why did you pick me? What happened?" I ask and from the corner of my eye I see him moving slightly.

"Justin started telling me I needed a boyfriend, and well, I didnt want to hear him say that over and over so I looked around to the nearest table,yours. I looked at Mike and I thought, nope, he leads Tony on, he can get any girl he wants and I thought about Jaime and realized, wow he hates my guts" He says with a small laugh.

"I already knew Tony had feelings for Mike that was so clear to see so he was an obvious no, Then the last person to look at was you, you interested me, it was how smart you were, and it was the fact that you always seem okay, it could be clear that something happened, but you just seemed so happy, I didnt realize it was Jack who caused you to be that way, you dont even have to tell me what he did to you" Kellin says softly

"He just, he said things and he just liked taking my stuff, he never phsically hurt me" I say softly under my breath.

"why didnt you come to me about it?" Kellin asks

"because you're Kellin and you would've laughed in my face, loser Vic coming up to you like a baby to tell your no good friend to stop annoying him. You would've let Jack continue anyways" I say loudly

"You arent a loser" Kellin says

"you say that now but think about how it would've been like a year ago, you didnt know me, I was too scared to even talk to you, I thought, wow hes fucking hot, but he might think im a loser and that I should die and his friends could hurt me over and over and he wouldnt know" I look over at Kellin and I see a tear go down his face but hes quick to wipe it and look away

"I'm sorry of what you must think of me and how I never really talked to you, I always saw you but I" He starts but then stops himself

"dont apologize, you wouldnt talk to me because I wasnt popular, I know, and ya you arent the best person in my mind right now, tell me how it was like from start to finish on being my fake boyfriend" I say not really knowing if I'm ready for an answer. This could be closure or just the beginning of me giving Kellin a chance if he wants one.

"The first time I talked to you was just so I could make a plan to meet with you and to start my plan, later that day I realized we had a band in common, Green day and I thought, maybe I could actually be friends with you, throughout the whole dating thing in the beginning I have to admit, the kisses meant nothing, I didnt feel anything, but at some point through this all, the hugs were something I needed, the affection, I never had someone care about me like you did, and thats what got to me when you found out and this was over, I found out that I needed someone to like me, I needed someone to smile at me, I needed someone give me hugs and help me when I was down, I was sick and you cared for me, one time when I was five, I was sick, guess who helped me? No one, mom gave me medicine and by that I mean she put the bottle down and that little plastic cup next to it and she kissed my head and left for work, dad was gone already. I was five, I didnt know how much medicine I needed to take, I drank maybe more than I needed, I could've over dosed or gotten worse, that happened alot until I actully learned how much I needed, that was like ten years later, yes I was 15, I caught on late and I learned how to fend on my own, but my whole life, I never had someone look after me like you did" Kellin says and he looks at me

"I know deep down you want to give me a chance and maybe you'll learn alot more than me, Vic go on a date with me.....Please,I dont care that our friendship is moving 'too fast' and you most likely dont want to be my friend but please Vic, give me a real chance " He adds

I think about it for a moment.

"fine, only one date" I say and he gives me a slight smile

"Thank you" he says softly.