Everything You Wanted Me To Be.

Chapter 87

Jaces POV
I'm stood here with Grace, I feel so out of it tonight. That guy that wouldn't let her go is lucky I didn't kill him. I'm still tempted to go back and finish the job. I look at her. She's stronger than I'll ever know.
"I'm sorry baby." She smiles and kisses me, I'm surprised. I know she doesn't agree with me doing drugs. Fuck neither do I. I kiss her back gently. I walk back to the desk and tuck the gun into my back and sigh.
"It's okay Jace." I look up to her I know I probably look like shit. I smile at her. I need to not go to that dark place now. I feel this fucking burden on my shoulders I mean Christ I sent my father to meet his maker today. I wish it didn't come to that. I'm painfully aware I need to not change the person Grace is too, I was shocked she shot him yesterday. I wasn't sure if that was because he tried to kill me, or if it's because he questioned the kind of mother Grace was going to be. The thought of her being a mother fills me with warmth. I know she will be amazing.

I walk over to her and put my hand on her cheek. "We need to rejoin everyone." She nods and kisses my palm. She's so fucking cute.
"I love you." She says. She knows all the right things to say. I take her hand and wrap it around her. I unlock the door and we walk back into the other Dons and businessmen. I always think it's odd rivals come on your first night. I guess they are trying to find out who their rival is. I suspect it looks like I have trouble in my house, despite that not being the case. I glance to Charles who looks like he's arguing with Isla. I let Graces hand go and approach them. I put my hand on Charles and pull him to one side.
"Not here."
"Sorry Jace." I nod and he returns to Isla and kisses her. I roll my eyes they are like children I swear. I return to Grace whose chatting with a guy called Alejandro, he seems quite taken with her. I think Alejandro is a representative from the Italian mafia who we transport cocaine with if Grace can impress him that's good for me.
"Alejandro."
"Jace."
"I see you've met my wife."
"Yes she is quite something isn't she my friend. A true asset to an empire like yours."
"She's the real boss." I joke and Alejandro laughs.
"Jace I've been impressed with what I've seen tonight, I see you can fight aswell which is always good when a man does not rely on a gun for power. Your wife also bares your burden as you do. That is a gift that is rare in our line of work. Protect her at all costs. I will relay positively to Italy. Thank you for the invitation." I nod and Alejandro leaves. I turn to Grace whose clearly proud with her work. She should be. I return to the leather booth and sit I motion for Grace to sit on my lap and she does. She wraps her arm around my neck and my hand finds her tiny swollen tummy. I nod at the barmaid who will no doubt return with drinks for us both. I notice someone who I don't believe to be a friend to us approaching me.
"Jace."
"Hello Nathanial, what brings you here this evening."
"I come in peace capomandamento." Interesting use of wording there I raise a brow.
"Go on."
"No motive, I've been sent to relay that there is no fude now Terry is no longer in control. We would welcome business with yourselves when you feel appropriate."
"You just wave the white flag?"
"No, we believe we have no animosity any longer. Our fued was not with you."
"I appreciate the olive branch." He bows his head and leaves.

This boss thing seems pretty easy so far, no one's picking fights and everyone wants to work with me and not against me. Maybe it's because Grace is here and it's not polite to create a scene. A blonde girl offers me a line of coke and I shake my head. Grace leans into me and smiles.
"I'm tired, i think I might go if that's okay?" I smile.
"I'll come with you. Let me say my goodbyes." Grace stands up and I wrap my arm around her. I say goodbye to the inner circle who nod and say good night. I say goodbye to business partners and rivals who all bid us a good evening. Myself and Grace leave the club and get into the cars and set off quickly. I turn to her and smile.
"Grace it's important rivals don't know you're pregnant. The inner circle can know, I know some already do. But rivals need to stay at arms length."
"Why?"
"I don't believe it will, but historically it has put targets on wives backs. It's a way to guarantee all out war to harm an unborn child." She nods at me.
"Like I said, it's unlikely, the only person we have pissed off is dead now." She nods and gives me a small smile.
"They'll find out eventually when I look like a house." I smile at her.
"We can protect you better then. Thank you for this evening."
"How are you feeling?" She knows me so well.
"Not good. It's why I wanted to leave with you. I need to get back on a level where I'm not coming down."
"Why do you do it?"
"I can hardly tell all my guys to and not participate. It will become normal for me to decline but I need their trust right now." She nods at me. I'm praying she understands that I'm not just some fucking junky. The cars pull into the apartment garage and I slide out the car. I walk around to graces door and open it up for her. She climbs out and gives me a smile I take her hand in mine and we walk to the elevator. I hit the button for our floor and unlock the door when we get there. I pull Grace into me and hold her tightly.
"I'm sorry about tonight." I don't like feeling like this and I'm fairly certain it makes Grace feel shit too.
"It's okay really. I just don't like seeing you like this." I nod and walk into the bedroom. Im two things right now, one on a big come down and so not much fun and two I'm extremely horny because my wife is beautiful and I haven't had sex in over a week. I know if I asked her for something else she'd say yes but there's nothing better than her. At this point I may aswell control myself for a few days longer. Grace walks into the bedroom and takes her hair down and throws a pony tail onto the bed. Women are masters of an art and I'm not sure I want to understand it. She takes off her dress and washes her makeup off her face.  I love her no matter what she looks like but there's something that hits different about Grace when she's walking around all natural. I sit up onto my elbows and watch her hunt for a top. I'm pleased when she pulls one of mine out of the dresser. She walks back over to the bed and climbs in.
"What are your plans for tomorrow?" I ask her
"I think I want to work?" I'm surprised at this maybe she wants to get back to normal.
"Sure, I can go over something's at Atlas. You're going to have to cover aspects of my job now so we can do some handover bits. Can I take you out tomorrow?" She nods
"Where?"
"It's a surprise but I promise you'll like it." I have no clue where I'm taking her yet. I'm thinking a walk out of the city maybe. Maybe I can get a chopper to take us somewhere nice. Or get a boat I just want to do something nice for her. SHIT the roses! I leap out of bed and run down the corridor. I open the door and am relieved to see Ben. He works alot I need to pay him more.
"Ben the roses in the Italian can you arrange for them to be delivered here?"
"Of course sir I'll make some calls."
"Thanks. Ben you work alot, do you see your family much?"
"It's my last shift today then I have a few days off."
"I'm pleased to hear that. When you're back we will have a chat about your pay and hours. I don't want you to miss to much of your little ones time."
"That's very kind sir thank you."
"It's Jace. See you when you're back." He nods and I close the door. I walk back into the bedroom and Grace looks concerned.
"What was that?"
"I forgot to get the roses sent here. All in hand now." I smile Grace lays back and gives a hearty laugh.
"I thought something was wrong!"
"It was your roses weren't in the house!" We both laugh and I climb into bed I pull Grace onto my chest as usual and she traces my tattoos, I love when she does that. Although I've recently been itching to get another one. Maybe my neck..we will see.
"Have you thought about any names?"
"For what?" Grace sits up and looks at me oh shit she means the baby, where is my head right now?
"Sorry I'm tired, not really, I don't want to get too excited until 12 weeks. Have you?"
"Yeah a few."
"Are you going to share?" I tease and she smiles up at me.
"I love Alex for a boy."
"Absolutely not."
"Why not?"
"It's just...no Alex Atlas? Do you want to ruin their life?" Grace laughs and I join her.
"Well do you have any suggestions?"
"I like Grayson or Carter, I think both are good names to run a dynasty."
"I love Grayson. They could be Grayson Carter Atlas." She replies and smiles
"I think that's an excellent name." I reply and she nods. Well that was easy.
"What about a girl?"
"Yeah I'm not sure on a girl name, what are your thoughts." I reply
"I love the name Iris with the middle name Lyra."
"I like it, short but sweet and not a stripper name." She laughs. I kiss her forehead.
"You know we will change our mind several times before their born?"
"Probably but for now Grayson or Iris works for me." I reply. We both fall asleep quickly something about the normality of our conversation helps settle the noise in my head.