Infinitely Yours (Completed)

Chapter Y

Chapter Y

Kia's POV

Sabi nila, pag mahal mo ang isang tao na hindi naman kayang suklian ang pagmamahal mo, pakakawalan mo. Dun sila sasaya eh. Pero iba ang paniniwala ko. Kung mahal ko talaga ang isang tao, hindi ko hahayaang mawala sya sa buhay ko at gagawin ko ang lahat, mahalin nya lang ako.

Ilang araw na kaming pabalik balik sa hospital. Hindi na ako nagreklamo pa kasi alam kong kahit anong sabihin ko, hindi ako pakikinggan ni Jude.

Sa mag iisang taon na pagkakakilala ko sa kanya, ni isang beses ay hindi nya magawang pakinggan ako, sundin ako. Oo, lagi syang nasa tabi ko. Lagi nya ako binibigyan ng kung anu ano. But I don't want or need material things. All I want is him.

Yeah, I can feel his presence but not his damn love.. but I won't give up.

Tuwing free time at weekends, we would always go to the hospital to visit her at palagi na lang ako makakarinig ng bangayan bago pumasok si Jude sa room kasi hindi talaga sya payagan ni Gino. May time nga na halos suntukin ni Gino si Jude dahil sa galit. He's so damn mad and he's willing to do anything for Xia. I'm fucking jealous. Bakit hindi ganyan si Jude sakin? Bakit hindi nya magawang pahalagaan ako?

I'm his girlfriend and fiancee but he always treats me the other way around. Mas nagcacare pa sya kay Xia. It sucks, bigtime.

After a while, nagsawa na si Gino sa kakabanta kay Jude kaya sa huli, pumayag nadin sya. Pero may time limit lang. 1 oras lang ang binigyan nyang oras para kay Jude which I think is.. enough?

Pinauwi ng mga kaibigan nina Xia si Gino dahil ilang araw na syang hindi nakakauwi sa kanila. It's true. Ilang araw na syang nagbabantay dito at wala namang nangyayare. Hindi padin nagigising si Xia.

"Bili lang kami ng pagkain. Jude.. Kia." pagpapaalam nung isang kaibigan ni Xia samin. I think her name is Zha if I'm not mistaken. Nalaman ko na hindi pala sila in good terms ni Xia. At araw araw, dinededma lang nila ito.

Sumunod yung dalwa pang babae kay Zha. Kami lang ni Jude ang natira dito. He was sitting beside Xia. He was holding her hand and he won't let go. I want to pull him away. I want to take him with me.. but, I can't. And I don't know how.

"Wake up.. please." he was shattering. He's really begging for Xia to wake up. Oh damn.. fuck.

It hurts like hell. Yun bang ako ang babaeng pakakasalan nya pero sa iba nakahawak ang kamay nya.. ang sakit. Sobra.

Jude.. eto ako oh. Ako yung girlfriend mo. Pero bakit sa iba ka nakatingin?

I want him to be happy but I want him to be happy with me and not her! Is that even possible? Oh fuck heart, what did you do to me.

Napagdesisyunan kong umidlip muna para kahit saglit ay mawala yung sakit.

Napamulat ako. Tumingin ako sa paligid. It was quiet. Only to find out na ako lang ang tao dito. Nasaan na si Jude? Nasan sina Gino? Zha? Inikot ko ang buong kwarto pero wala talaga sila. Nang mapagod akong hanapin sila ay lumapit nalang ako kay Xia. Ang daming nakadikit sa kanya na kung anu ano. I can't even describe those things.

I slowly sat beside her. I feel so fucking bad for her. I never expected this would happen. I know I've been jealous since the day I met her. But swear to God, I never wanted her to be like this.

I held her hand. "Xia, I'm sorry." I said sincerely. "I know you won't hear me but I just want to apologize, for everything. I realize that being insecure won't make me stronger. I realize that arguing with you won't make Jude like me back. Damn, I realize a lot of things and I'm so so sorry." I bit my lip. God knows how guilty I am.