"Bitch," muttered Joy's youngest sister once Joy and the other people were already out of sight.
"Yah! Minji-ah! You shouldn't be saying that!" Jinyoung glared at the younger which returned a rather hateful look at her.
"What? Did you not see how rude she was?" The younger felt anger building up inside her chest. It's been years since those things happened. Isn't Joy over-reacting?
And even if their parents did something unforgivable, they're her family for God's sake!
"You know nothing!" Jinyoung shouted which startled the younger. It's rather the first time she saw her sister furious, glaring down at her like that and being the hard-headed youngest sibling she is, Minji glared back.
"Stop fighting," Their mother said in a calm voice but the expression on her face says otherwise. She looked at loss and her face is pale.
"I told you it's not a good idea to even come here!" Jinyoung started babbling. She is hurt. "She will never forgive us! She will never come back! She hates us now! She hates me now!" Tears formed in her eyes and it didn't take long for it to fall down her cheeks just like the agonizing pain she's feeling but, she quickly wiped it. "It's all your fault!"
"Jinyoungㅡ"
The girl ran outside and was startled when Joy, her daughter and the older females were still there, walking slowly while sharing laughs and stories.
Unnie,
Jinyoung didn't realize that she was running towards her older sister's direction who's back is facing her.
She looked so happy.
Joy heard the footsteps getting louder and once she turned around to check who it is, she was welcomed by Jinyoung's tight hug, the younger's arms made it's way straight to Joy's waist while her face quickly buried to her chest.
Joy didn't know how to react.
It is Jinyoung.
Her sister.
"I'm so sorry!" Jinyoung's screams are muffled and her hug is getting tighter like anytime, her older sister will vanish like a bubble. "Unnie, please! I'm so sorry!" It almost sounds like Jinyoung is pleading rather than apologizing. She can feel the misery in her younger sister's voice and Joy felt sorry for her.
Joy's arms are both loose on her sides.
She just couldn't bring herself to hug Jinyoung back.
She's scared.
Joy turned her head to the group of women who's watching her and her younger sister with confused yet understanding eyes. "Please go ahead first. I'll... I'll follow," she breathed.
With the way Joy's face turns red and how her eyes are shaking so she continuously blinks, trying to control the forming liquid there is. The way her lips quivers so she bit it to prevent herself from releasing sounds of sorrow.
They can see how Joy is having such a hard time but they know much to not mingle at times like that. After all, Joy is the kind to talk to them whenever she feels troubled. Areum gave her a confused look but good thing, the little girl is too distracted upon seeing her Grandmas again so when they started walking away from Joy, Areum didn't ask questions.
When they are already out of sight, that's when Joy's attention is fully back on Jinyoung.
The younger is still crying uncontrollably and her hug didn't even remiss. Joy can already feel her shirt dampening. "H-hey, hey," She hesitantly put her hands on Jinyoung's shoulders and tried to make the younger face her but Jinyoung wouldn't even budge.
It's like Jinyoung is scared to even put a distance from herself to Joy.
"I'm so sorry! Please, please forgive me! Iㅡ Please!" Jinyoung's body is shaking and Joy starts to panic.
"It's okay." Joy lied, "It's okay now. Calm down, Jinyoung-ah." She said in a calm voice even though her feelings says it otherwise.
Hearing her Unnie's voice, saying the words she wanted to hear from her helped Jinyoung to calm down a little.
"Hey," Joy took the courage to talk to the younger again, "Look at me,"
Jinyoung broke from the hug the she made sure that the distance between the two of them is where their personal spaces meet. She's even holding a handful of Joy's shirt. It might sound crazy but Jinyoung doesn't want to let go. Apart from the sadness and all, she felt genuine happiness upon seeing the older sister again.
Joy had the opportunity to observe Jinyoung's face and she regretted it right away. Her expression is a mess. With her face red from too much crying, her eyes bloodshot and the tears are scattered everywhere, it was painful to see.
Joy looked away, "Jinyoung-ah, look at you. You've grown so much," Joy started and even let out a forced chuckle, "Why would a grown lady cry like a child? Look, your face is a mess," Joy went to shuffle her hair.
"I said I'm sorry! Don't be like this to me, please," Again, Jinyoung closed their distance and hugged Joy again. Jinyoung doesn't like how Joy acts.
This time, Joy quickly returned the hug and with that, Jinyoung is back to a crying mess again. Maybe Jinyoung never said it to Joy or to anyone but she liked her sister's embrace and she missed it.
"Just take me with you please," Jinyoung pleaded which startled Joy.
"I'm sorry Jinyoung-ah but I can't do that. We can't do that." Joy answered which risen up Jinyoung's worries.
"But why not?! Unnie, didn't you missed me? Please! I don't want to leave you again! I never wanted to! I was wrong! I didn't mean to kick you like that! Unnieㅡ" The younger begin to babble again as she wanted Joy to understand her and not to be mad at her.
"I understand, I understand," Joy hushed the younger and brushed Jinyoung's back then afterwards, broke the hug.
Joy knows Jinyoung.
And with her state like that, she won't be able to make her understand things unless. . .
Unless she hurt Jinyoung.
Joy looked directly at the younger, "But you have to understand me too, Jinyoung-ah," She put both of her hands on each side of the younger's arms.
It pains Joy to do this but she doesn't have a choice.
"I'm trying to build a new life now, Jinyoung. And it's not just for me but also for my daughter. You have to be considerate, I don't want Areum to see or meet people from my past. I don't want her to experience what I experienced. You understand me, right? Iㅡ" Joy had to swallow down the lump on her throat before it even stops her from talking. "I must erase you from my life, Jinyoung,"
She said it.
Pain flashed before Jinyoung's face. The younger broke the eye-contact, "You're lying!" Jinyoung screamed. "What about Dasom then?! Why is she here if you're planning to throw us out of your life?! Aren't you being a little unfair?" Jinyoung is not angry at her sister. She's angry at herself and she's angry for Joy.
Joy wasn't able to answer. She doesn't have the right words and seeing Jinyoung loosing it makes it twice painful to Joy. It was excruciating.
"Please just go back to them. They're waiting for you," Joy said, removing her grip on Jinyoung's arms, "Youㅡ you can't leave them and be with me. They're getting old and they can't rely on Minji yet. They need youㅡ"
Joy was cut off by a raging Jinyoung. "Why?! Why are you still worrying about them? They broke you, Unnie!" She just couldn't understand. "Aftter finding out that you're being ruined, they wrecked you even more when they could've rescue you! Why? Just why!"
The tears that Joy has been holding went down without a stop. She understands what Jinyoung wants to say.
She knows Jinyoung but Jinyoung knows her better.
Joy answered.
"They're still my parents, Jinyoung-ah. Our Eomma and Appa," Joy smiled, "You're a kind one, I know that. Now, go back to them. Please?"
Jinyoung hated it.
But she would hate it more if Joy said a different thing.
Jinyoung didn't even bother to spare a Joy a glance and turned around. She started running to the direction of their car on the parking lot while Joy watches her.
"I didn't even got to tell her how much I've missed her,"
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