"Waahh~" Changsub exclaimed when he finally saw Sungjae sitting on one of the sofas inside their hotel room on Seoul, "You should've told us that you'll go first, we waited for you Sungjae-ah," Said Changsub who's disappointment is visible on his face and voice. "And what's that? Have you been drinking since you got here?" He pointed the empty bottles of liquor placed above the table.
Sungjae is not even talking and continuously chugging on the bottle he's holding. After that encounter with Joy, he hadn't realize that he's already driving back to Seoul, unable to tell his Manager and Hyungs about it. His head is too occupied of the fact that he saw her again.
He was indeed bewildered upon seeing Joy again, he never thought of her, so what more to see her? It was a mix of emotions.
There's this fury inside him that came out again. He thought it was already gone, like buried deep inside him for over years now but suddenly, at the sight of her, it came running back like a mad horse kicking senses inside him that the woman who ruined him is infront of him.
Flashbacks of everything that happened before came back to his mind and it's virulent. Sungjae tried all sorts of actions just to not think of those memories and then suddenly, the root of it shows up.
He loathes her. He hates her face, he hates her smile, he hates her guts. He couldn't believe that she had the determination to talk to her like that. Have she already forgotten her unlawfulness?
He wanted to laugh at how annoyingly funny Joy has become. She stood infront of him, proud like she never did anything wrong and told him to never come back again. Like the hell he wanted to go back right? Sungjae will do anything to not see her again, and if that means he should be blind, damn he'd be more willing to do so.
"Yah, aren't you even going to apologize?" Eunkwang's voice made Sungjae snap out of his trance. It's rare for Eunkwang to be mad but seeing his utterance, Eunkwang is dead serious right now. All of his hyungs are now standing to his front, watching him like he's some kind of an interesting movie.
He sighed deeply, putting down the half-full bottle before looking at them, "I'm really sorry about that," Sungjae's voice is full of sincerity in it. He knows it's his fault and that's why he's doing what should be done.
The faces of his Hyungs changes from annoyed to worried. Sungjae has already been staying away from liquors. He created a lot of ungracious memories under the influence of such drinks. "Are you okay?" Minhyuk asked, making his way to sit next to Sungjae.
"I'm not," He said. Maybe it's the effect of the intoxicant that's making him tell everything he wanted to say without thinking about it twice. "I saw that woman again," He informed.
"Who?" Ilhoon query, sitting on the floor and getting himself a bottle.
"Park Sooyoung," Every syllable of the name have an intense tone as being said by Sungjae. His members can feel the agony in the way he say Joy's name.
They all had a questioning looks on their faces, sending each other a knowing glances. "How?" Eunkwang sat on Sungjae's other side, also getting himself a drink. After a while all of them got their own places with a bottle on their hands while waiting for Sungjae to tell his story.
"Well I wanted to see Areum, remember her? The little girl on the fanmeet?" Sungjae started, earning a nod on his members, "So I went to her Mother's coffee shop and ordered for something while hopefully looking around to see Areum. That woman," Sungjae can't even say Joy's name, "She suddenly came out from the kitchen,"
"She's working there?" Peniel removed the lid of his drink and then drinking on it.
"I guess so, she's in the kitchen so I think she's a baker there or somethingㅡ" Sungjae stopped in the middle of his sentence before realizing something.
"What about Areum? Did you see her?" Changsub questions while looking at his youngest member.
"Iㅡ I did," He replied, still processing the information he suddenly remembered.
With Areum's cheerful smile,
"Oh! My eomma made that!"
No way.
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Sungjae is woken up by his head throbbing like crazy. He looked over his open window to see that it is still dark outside.
He tried to sleep again but the drowsiness already fades away. It seems like he's going to be up early.
He can't exactly remember the time when his drinking session with his older brothers ended. All he could remember is that he's still the last one to leave the table. Drowning through his own thoughts.
He got out of his room and saw the mess they left last night. He started cleaning them and he could barely stop himself from thinking about Joy again.
It was given that he is piqued upon Joy's sudden show up. But he cannot also ignore that fact that something inside him lit up by the sight of her.
Even him doesn't know why he is feeling that way, he wanted to stop it because he is already done through the pathetic phase of his life because of her. But it's not like feelings are robots that once you told them to stop feeling good about seeing Joy, they will easily follow.
Feelings are inflexible. They are a group of hard-headed hormones who wouldn't hands-down oblige Sungjae's order.
And Sungjae is not happy about it. He's supposed to feel complete detest for Joy but this tingling feeling of longing is coming in the picture.
"Ugh!" Sungjae frustratedly stomp his feet while stirring his cup of coffee. Later today, they will have their last fanmeeting in Korea and then the day after tomorrow, they will fly to Canada.
At exactly 2pm, the venue where the fanmeet will took place is already packed.
"You okay?" Hyunsik noticed that Sungjae has been dozing off since the ride to the venue and now inside their waiting room.
"I'm fine, just a little sleepy," Sungjae replied before yawning, closing his eyes again.
The fanmeet ended and Sungjae went straight to his room and slept without even changing his clothes.
A continuous vibrate from Sungjae's phone took him out from his deep slumber.
With his eyes still closed, he grabbed the phone and answered it, "Hello?"
"'Hello'?!" Sohyun yelled from the other line, "Where are you?! I've been calling you nonstop!"
He furrows when he felt the anger on her voice, "What do you mean?"
"What?! Oppa! You're already 30 minutes late for the dinner! My dad's getting impatient!"
Sungjae's eyes stretched open upon realizing that he completely forgot about the dinner with Sohyun's family.
Shit.
Sohyun let out a worried sigh, "Just come here quickly!"
"I'm on my way," He hurriedly went out of his room, grabbed his car key with only his phone and wallet with him.
After joining them in various dinner parties, he have come to realize that Sohyun's parents hates it when the food waits for its consumers. And considering that it was a long drive to their house, it only means he's dragging more time.
Ugh. Fuck.
He couldn't help but curse himself for forgetting about it. If he only hadn't drank the night before, everything would've been going alright.
If only he did not let himself get swayed with the shocker that is Park Sooyoung...
Another 30 minutes passed and he's already at the Kim's mansion. His eyes widened at the number of cars parked at the Mansion's spacious garage. And it also seems like many people are in there because of the glamorous designs around the place.
He was escorted by a maid who kept looking at him like he's out of his mind.
Sungjae finally understood when they reached the dining room and everyone is wearing formal gowns and suit while he's wearing his stained pants and baggy shirt.
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