I have been in my room for 5 minutes and still no sign of my friends. I get up and go to my bookshelf and look through the CDs I have. I pick Trust and Believe by Keyshia Cole. I stick it in my stereo and fall face first on my bed.
Right as my face hit the bed my door flies open to reveal my friends. I just stare as they walk in
The song Love came on and I squealed. I actually fucking squealed. It shocked everyone so the room went quiet. Everyone looked at me and I started singing.
"Now go on, what am I gonna do
I'm so so empty
My heart, my soul can't go on
Go on baby without you,
Rainy days fade away
When you come around
Say you're here to stay
With me, boy
I don't want you to leave me
I need you
Oh, love
Never knew what I was missing
But I knew once we start kissin'
I found, love
Never knew what I was missing
But I knew once we start kissin'
I found you" I ended. I opened my eyes. I hadn't realized I closed them. I looked at my friends. They stared at me in awe. It was kinda creepy to be honest.
"Can you guys stop staring at me like that? It's creepy. "I said as got up and headed to the door. " Besides I want to start baking. "I synced my phone to the kitchen speaker and put on the song Trust and Believe by Keyshia Cole . In the next three minutes we had ingredients for cookies, brownies, cake, doughnuts, cupcakes,muffins and blueberry pie.
" Ok let's get started. "I said. Everyone got to work.
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The song cold by maroon 5 came on. Every one was singing and danceing. Having fun.
I was singing and didn't realize my mom was standing by the door. I don't think anyone did either. Once the song was over I turned around and actually seen my mom smiling. I was shocked. She rarely ever smiles anymore. Everyone started to sing No vacancy by one republic not realizing that I'm just staring at my mom. Her eyes are scanning the room and when they meet mine her smile widens. This makes me smile. Then she starts singing. And I'm beyond shocked. I haven't heard her sing. Like at all. In my 17 years of life I have never heard her sing. And she is amazing. Way better than me. Everyone freezes and stares at my mom. She stops singing and I say the first thing that comes to mind.
"Holy shit!! That was fucking amazing!!! " I nearly scream.
"Calm down. Ali. Have you ever wondered why you can sing? " She asks.
"Uhh because I'm amazing like that." I flip my hair and my friends laugh.
My mom chuckles"no seriously. "
"No.no I haven't. "
"It's just genetics or something like that. " She smiles. "It's nice to see you happy especially with what's coming up in a few months. "My smile dropped. I was trying so hard to get my mind off of that.
" I wasn't trying to think about that. "
"What are we talking about? I'm lost. " Zeke says
"And no one wants to find you. " Blake says. I crack a smile.
"She talking about her abuelas anniversary. "
"What anniversary? I wanna come. " Zeke says. I face palm.
"Her anniversary of her death you dipshit." I snapped. He just blinked. I didn't bother to hear anyone's reply. Today was just ruined. Well my mood was. I stormed up the stairs and into my room. I flopped on my bed and clutched at the stuffed bunny rabbit my abuela gave me before she died. I was trying so hard to forget that day she died. It was the worst day of my life. She never made it to my birthday that year. And the worst part she never made it to her own. She died 17 days after my sisters birthday. My sister just turned six and was so happy she could spend it with her abuelita. My abuelita was so confident she would last until my birthday but she didn't. I'm not mad at her for not making it but sad that she said she would but she knew she was dying. She gave me false hope. I didn't realize I was crying until I saw Blake walk in. He sat next to me and started wipeing my tears.
"Don't cry Al. Zeke is just a clueless dumbass. "
"I wasn't crying about that. I was crying because I really don't want that day to come. And its not really that day its her birthday not her death day. It just always feels like the day she died when it is really her birthday. It shouldn't feel like that but it does."
"Look at me Al. We are your friends. We want to help you get through this but you have to let us in. Locking yourself in you room alone won't help. And also, your mom gave me her spare key to your room. "
"She can't do that. Wait she had a spare this whole time. " He nodded. So locking my door was stupid since she could get in.
"Ok you can keep the key but you can't come in here unless I tell you to. "
"Ok. Now get up we came to have fun. "
"Who are you and what happened to my best friend? " I asked. He chuckled.
"I just don't like seeing my friends cry okay it makes me a softie. But don't tell anyone I admitted that or your dead. "
"Too late. " I said holding up my phone which was recording what he was saying.
"Hey give me that. " I heard him say as I was running down the stairs. This is how I like to feel. I like feeling happy. Just how I like it.