A week has gone by since I was brought here, since Rick came and threatened me. This one week has been the worst of my life. I have lost weight, sleep and at this point hope of getting out of here.
I thought the police would show up, surely my parents would have told them that I was missing then why haven't I been rescued yet?
I just sit on the bed all day just staring at the walls, I can feel myself going crazy slowly and all at once. I haven't heard my voice in so long. My mind and body getting ready for the moment Rick would be back and won't get an answer from me. I spend half of the day wondering what would he do? Will he kill me instantly or torture me? So I can feel pain like these days dragging by.
My only companion in this despair is Abel. We don't talk and he never leaves but he doesn't hurt me, doesn't invade my privacy. He just sits by the wall and watches my every move like a hawk, ready to attack if I do something wrong. But I am thankful for him to leave me alone.
In the light I try not to think anything, just let the day pass by but at night is when it hits. Everything especially the people behind. I think of my dad, how he cannot survive a day without me, its hard to manage the twins alone then there's Millie, the house and his work. There would also be the regret and guilt for allowing me to go to the party, the fear of never seeing me again and constant thought that he isn't a good enough father.
I think about my mother, would she be still sane? She is already so alone and even though we didn't see each other everyday she would be devastated right now. I hope she eats properly, sleeps at night, doesn't look herself in. I hope Henry is there for her, helping her pass by the day.
How would the twins and Millie be? They would be missing me and I know how they'll express it. Millie will cry while the twins would want to go out and find me. I hope dad keeps an eye on them, he doesn't deserve to lose another child.
I wonder about Ally. She needs me to listen to her pointless stories, to choose the shoes that matches with her dress. Would she and Drake still be together? If not then how will she survive a heartbreak without me? Its impossible for her. I hope their still together and I hope Drake is taking care of her and I hope Mason is alright and he is there for Ally and Ally is there for him. Leaving Mason alone to grieve has never been a good idea. I hope they take losing a friend as a way to find their own friendship and get it back.
And Carter? How would he be? Would he have noticed my absence? Does he know its because of him that I am here? A part of me wants to hate him, blame him for all of this, I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him. But I know that its not his fault, he never would have wanted this to happen and it was my curiosity that made me enter his world.
Would he be missing me the way I am missing him? Does he think about me? Or has he moved on with his life? Forgotten about me, left me on the way. And why does my heart still beat faster whenever I think about him.
All these thoughts make me want to lose my mind. All these questions that won't get an answer to, all these people that I would never get to see. This all hits me at night and most of the time I forget to breath.
"You need to give him the answer today" said Abel.
"I don't have the answer, I don't know where the drugs are, how many more times do I have to say that?" I shot back.
"Listen, I don't want you to have any false hope" he said "If you don't give Rick the answer he wants he is going to kill you"
I felt a shiver run down my body, Abel's voice playing in a loop inside my head. He is going to kill me, he is going to kill me, he is going to kill me.
"Or he might keep you for himself"
I looked at Abel as he said that and a thought sprung in my head, I hope he kills me, there is no point trying or hoping, I will never get out of here, no one is coming to save me. I exhaled a breath I didn't know I was holding. I didn't reply Abel back, scared of what I might say.
After a while I heard Abel's voice again, passing through the cloudiness in my mind.
"Its still strange how a girl like you could be with a guy like Carter, you don't seem his type."
"Why?" I asked. Why does he think me and Carter are something that can never happen.
"you're the kind of girl guys settle for and Carter isn't like that or maybe he is, maybe he wants to leave all of this behind and start anew with you. Ah if only it was this easy" said Abel with a laugh.
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I will consider it luck. Rick didn't show up after a week, he send a message to Abel saying their boss had called him and he will be back in a week. I don't know why Abel told me that. Maybe because he wants me to rejoice my last week as an alive human or maybe because he wants me to give them the answer this time.
"What do you people do?" I found myself asking Abel today.
I know he isn't the kind of person who likes to have a conversation especially with me but this question has been eating me up alive and I might get an answer to it.
"Didn't Carter tell you?" He said raising his left eyebrow.
"No, I told you me and Carter are nothing, he doesn't tell me anything" I replied wishing he would believe me.
He didn't responded back, sitting with his back against the wall he was cleaning his knife. I wonder how many people this knife had killed, how many people's blood it has had on it and if I'm the next one.
"Is it really dangerous?" I said staring at the knife.
He stopped cleaning and looked up at me. His gaze fixing mine, trying to figure me out.
"If we get caught by police we're dead, if we get caught by our opponent worse than death. Do you call that dangerous?" He replied with a smile.
"How did Carter got caught up in all this?"
"It wasn't exactly him, it was his friend Drake who got caught up, badly" he replied.
"And Kaiden?"
"Kaiden? He started all this a long time ago. Him and me we started together." Said Abel, memories running wild in his eyes.
"Were you and him friends?" I asked carefully.
"He's a traitor, a clever manipulative traitor" spat Abel.
I didn't question him anymore.
"None of us is a good person, so stop finding it in us"
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The door burst open and Rick walked in. To say he looked angry was an understatement. Abel scrambled to his feet and so did I.
"Where are the drugs?" Asked Rick directly. So opposed to the last time.
"I...I....I don't know.." I said with so much courage that for a moment I thought I might faint due to its after affects.
"I am not going to ask you a second time" said Rick taking out his knife.
I felt my tears run down my face, the seventeen years of my life running in front of my eyes.
Me sleeping in between dad and mom, the day twins were born, the first time I met Ally James, Millie running into my arms as she laughed, Mason and me doing our maths homework, Claud and the rest of my friends telling stories in the cafeteria. The first moment my eyes locked Carter William, the second moment our eyes found each other again, the ice cream, rainn that one hug.
"ANSWER ME" Shouted Rick stepping forward.
I lost my voice, I looked at Abel and saw the pity in his eyes for me.
In the blur of a moment, I felt the knife rip through my flesh. There was blood coming out of my right arm. I took in a deep breath, feeling the pain becoming unbearable.
"WHERE ARE THE DRUGS?"
"I don't know" I whispered as he attacked my left arm now.
I didn't remember collapsing on the ground, my vision becoming blurry. As tried to focus on breathing instead of the pain I heard shouts in the background. My eyes were closed and I didn't have the strength to open them.
I felt some rush to the window.
"Carter's here" said a voice, it was Abel.
Carter?
I tried to open my eyes and saw Rick standing in front of me, his gun out and pointing at me.
"I wish I had more fun with you sweet Eva" he said and there was a shot.
I didn't felt it, the bullet getting inside of me, I didn't felt myself lying down on the floor. I just heard the shoutings, there were more shots fired and I just remember a distant voice, a familiar, beautiful voice call out my name.
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Hi hi hi how are you my people? I am so sorry for such a long update I was just busy in a few things. Hope you like this one. Would Eva be rescued?? Or would she die?? But in any case remember this, the nest chapter is going to be an emotional whirlwind cause I am having a hard a time writing it.
Until the next update.
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