𝖂eeks went by, each one worst than the one before. The news of James and I's official break up had spread like a wildfire and he had girls all over him, wanting him. Before me there was Lily and everyone knew James was smitten with her and then there was me. But we broke up, so he could live a better life, one when he wouldn't have to deal with a monster every month. I would catch him staring at me with sadness pooling in his hazel eyes, not even paying attention to whatever girl was fawning all over him. The group of us were still broken apart, Hogwarts was more dull than ever, before they had us to lift the spirits of the new attacks and dark times happening but they didn't have that anymore.
I walked on to the astronomy tower at midnight after not being able to sleep, standing beside the figure as they smoked their cigarette over the railing of the tower. I put my hand out gesturing for him to pass me the cigarette.
"I've been told not to give you any, James-"
"Really?" I said flatly, "You're one to listen to other people?"
"Lo-"
"Reg, please" I cut him off, taking the cigarette out of his hands and breathing in all of the chemicals, hoping to de stress and relieve myself of everything I was feeling. I felt his eyes on me the entire time, even though I kept my eyes trained forward on the stars, "Your brother is a twat"
"I'm aware" He nodded, finishing off the cigarette when I passed it back to him throwing it off the edge of the tower, "I'm not excusing what he did because it was completely and utterly wrong and stupid but he did make a mistake and he knows that"
"I know. Rem won't let me talk to him anyway" I mumbled, feeling him wrap his arms around my small frame, holding me tightly.
"You know I hate hugs, I only ever let two people hug me" He muttered into my hair, my heart warming slightly in my chest.
"Aw, do you have a soft spot for me Reg?"
"Don't push it Lo, we aren't friends"
"Of course not, never..." I mumbled, nuzzling my head into the crook of his neck, just enjoying being held by someone other than Remus. "I feel like I don't have many of them anymore.."
"You'll always have me" He whispered, planting a kiss on the top of my head, making me feel slightly better, "Just don't tell anyone I let you smoke or you won't have me"
I laughed softly at his comment, the noise sounding strange from my voice box. I hadn't laughed in a long time, weeks probably. I pulled out of his embrace, a half hearted smile on my face as I scanned over his features.
"How are you with erm...everything?"
"Oh you mean living with pureblood maniacs who keep talking of this dark wizard that is going to be our saviour and kill everyone who isn't worthy of our magical blood? I'm fucking fantastic" He retorted, rolling his eyes. I hummed, tapping my fingers on the railing.
"You don't believe in blood supremacy?"
"I did at one point I think. You have to understand it was drilled into us from the moment we were born, purebloods were superior to everyone else, especially the sacred twenty eight. It was only when I came here I started to question it, I didn't understand what was wrong with blood but I didn't think too much about it. And then I met you, the little werewolf that changed my entire view on blood supremacy, why should you have to die when you are just like me?" He explained, taking breaks in between his words and glancing up to the stars every once and a while before meeting my eyes again.
"I'm not little" I scoffed light heartedly, nudging him gently.
"You're tiny" He chuckled, emphasising craning his neck down to look at me. I stood up on my tippy toes, jumping to his height.
"For your information, Reg, once a month I can be way taller than you"
"That's where you're wrong, Lo, because that isn't you" He responded, moving his hands on to my shoulders, "Look, i'm not saying to fall back into his arms but-"
"Reg, I can't" I shook my head, knowing exactly what he was going to say, that I should talk to James again. "I can't put him through having to deal with me every single month, knowing I could hurt him or even kill him and I wouldn't even feel guilty about it when I did it. That I wouldn't recognise him when i'm the monster I become, I love him but I can't be with him. He deserves way better than me, he deserves someone like....Lily"
"I don't think he wants Evans, I think he wants you. That's what I can tell anyway from his lovey dovey eyes when he stares at you in the great hall at meals"
"Why are you looking at James and me at meal times? Don't you have something better to do?" I snorted, watching his expression keep straight.
"No, I don't. If I invest my time in you I can forget everything else. I know what my future is going to be, you still have a choice. Be with him, Melody. Be with him while you can" He answered, looking at me sincerely through his eyes. I knew exactly what he meant when he said his future, he would be most likely turned into one of his followers, death eaters as they called them.
"Leave, come with me" I pleaded, not wanting him to be around them. He's different, he may be a Slytherin but he's not like the others, he's good.
"I think we both know I have no choice" He whispered quietly, a small smile on his face, "I'll be alright"
"No, you won't-"
"You should go and get some sleep, Lo, have a fresh start tomorrow. Maybe talk to him or Sirius when Remus isn't around" He cut me off, bringing me into his arms again before letting go and urging me off the tower back towards the Gryffindor common room. I spoke the password to the painting, entering the common room and immediately walking into his arms, laying down on his chest as he placed his book down.
"You didn't have to wait up for me" I mumbled, a small smile on my face.
"That's what brothers do" He whispered, my appreciation for him increasing more and more, "I love you, El"
"I love you too, Rem"
Because we would always have something connecting us for eternity. If I had another chance at life and I could choose my family, i'd always choose him as my twin.
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The following morning I woke up from my slumber still on Remus' chest from the previous night before when I came back from being with Regulus on the tower. I hummed, sliding off him and placing the blanket back on top of him before trudging my way up to the girls' dorm to take a shower and get ready for the day.
"Morning Mel, how are you?" Alice questioned when I walked into the dorm, putting her uniform on.
"I'm okay, Alice, I'm okay" I repeated, smiling at her. I'm okay. She smiled back as I walked into the bathroom, turning on the hot water and relaxing as it trickled down me, lathering my vanilla shampoo on to my hair. I hummed a tune whilst getting ready for the day, feeling slightly better then I did previously after last night and opened the door of my dorm, freezing in the doorway.
He looked good.
Perfect as always.
Why was he near the girl's dorms? He stared back at me for a few moments, his lips parting as he scanned over my face. My heartbeat sped up in my chest, gulping. Oh, how much I wanted to crash my lips onto his and jump into his arms, listen to him make his ridiculous theories with his goofy grin and hear his cheesy pick up lines whilst he held me close. We're not together anymore.
"F-From mum" He stuttered, handing me a letter, his other hand reaching up to fix his glasses. I took it into my hands, feeling his skin come into contact with mine, causing me to gaze into his eyes again.
Snap out of it, Melody.
"T-thank you" I mumbled, sliding it in my pocket as we just stood there face to face in silence.
"I-I'm going to go now" He announced, walking away from me without another word, my heart thumping in my ears as I watched him. I sighed softly, shaking my head and scanning over the letter contents,
'Dear Melody,
I've received a concerned and worried letter from Professor Mcgonagall, she's informed me of everything that has happened over the past couple of weeks. Melody, I'm beyond sorry about everything that has happened, with Snape, Sirius and mostly James. I'm heartbroken about it, I know how much you love each other and it's out of your hands. You are both strong and I know you will find your way back to each other eventually, the love you two share is second to none. It's special. Please look after yourself, Mcgonagall said you haven't been eating properly or wearing your uniform most days. We all care about you and we are here whenever we need you and most of all, we love you.
Love,
𝕰𝖚𝖕𝖍𝖊𝖒𝖎𝖆 𝕻𝖔𝖙𝖙𝖊𝖗'
I sniffed from reading the letter, glancing up from the direction James just left out of, wrinkling my face up. No, Melody you will not cry today, you will be happy and you'll be okay. I folded the letter back up, placing it in my bag and headed back down to the common room, wiping under my eyes.
I'm okay.
I'll be okay.
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