** Pippa's POV **
I never felt pain like it.
Ive had my fair share of pain, but this... I cant even explain this.
I let my family down, I never stood a chance did I? Everything always stacks against me, havent I been punished enough?
The question rolled off my tongue before I even had time to process the thought.
"Did I do this? Did I starve my baby or worse, did I stress so much that my baby couldnt -"
"Pippa, baby no" Harry wiped at the tears I didnt know had fallen and the pain etched across his face told me how hurt he was.
"Pippa, you have to remember that carrying three babies is tough on any womans body. Its always a risk in the first few weeks. Its pretty common in pregnancies with three or more babies for this to happen."
"For what to happen?" Harry pushed, he gripped my hand tightly and I wiped at my constant flow of tears.
"Its called vanishing twin syndrome. What happens is the embryo vanishes, the fetal tissue could have been absorbed by one of the other babies with it being the first trimester and your other two babies are happy and healthy. I cant exactly determine what happened but just know your other two munchkins are safe and there was nothing that could prevent this Pippa, Im so sorry. I wish I could tell you more but thats as best as I can explain. Im sorry for your loss. Ill give you two a minute"
Elisha squeezed my hand and gave me a weak smile before she left the room.
Thats the first time I ever seen Harry cry and I just knew that I let him down. I felt sick to my stomach.
It was a good half hour before Elisha came in and after sitting in silence wiping eachothers tears. I had so many questions.
"Why didnt I bleed?" I blurted out before the door even clicked shut.
"Every case is different Pippa, they are not all detectable. Some people go through labour before its even recognised. When you go past your first trimester its usually something we have to monitor as it can have effects on the other baby or babies."
"How do you know the babies are okay from just a scan? Dont you need to do more tests?" I asked, panic settling in.
"Of course, we can run a few more tests if you would feel more comfortable but strong heartbeats and plenty of movement usually tells us a lot, they are weighing correctly and everything looks good to me but for peace of mind we will 100% do more" Elisha gave me a reassuring smile and got to work checking both the babies and myself a second time.
When she was finished I was feeling sick and so sleepy. I felt my eyelids getting heavy and my body was sore from lack of sleep.
"Lets get you settled back into a room Pippa. I could discharge you but I am going to keep you in for observation tonight if thats okay?"
"Can I stay?" Harry asked as he stood up beside the bed.
"Of course, ill fetch you a pillow and blanket when we get Pippa settled for the night. Ill just get you the chair"
"No need, ill carry her" Harry picked me up bridal style, being as gentle as he could and not allowing anyone to argue.
"Okay then, follow me" Elisha chuckled as she led us down the hallway. The stares we got were laughable but I had no energy to laugh.
We walked for what felt like hours but when I was placed on a rock hard bed I knew I was able to sleep, finally.
"This is you Pippa, I will come by again before I finish up in the morning. Ill discharge you if im happy with results of your bloods. Please drink plenty of fluids and if you need anything just shout at Audrey on the front desk, she will get me or whatever you need. Ill get someone to drop you in some blankets and a pillow Harry. Sleep well and again, im so sorry. I wish there was something more I could do"
"Thank doc, you've been great" Harry nodded at her with approval
"Thank you Elisha" I gave her my best smile before she exited the room.
After a night of very little sleep and a lot of tears I finally got the all clear and Harry took me home.
As I snuggled up in bed he lay beside me.
"Pippa, I think something needs to be done with that doctor, I know hes not to blame for our loss but the way he treated you..."
"I agree, but for once can it be handled legitamitely. I dont want anymore blood shed Harry, not right now. You would only be proving him right if you go after him for blood. Use your head and strong mind to take what matters most to him, his job. The man is proud as hell, imagine losing your job from a complaint made by the president of an MC over the neglect he showed the mother of his child. It would shine the MC in a new light for once too"
"True. When did you get so wise?" He joked as he pulled me against him. He smelt like home.
"So, that means I cant shoot him then eh?" I laughed as he tilted my head up placing a tender kiss on my lips as his hand resting on my growing bump.
"Maybe ill speak to Elisha, ask her who I should contact to make that bastard pay" Harry kissed my forehead as I leaned into him.
"The sooner the better. Georgie seen it all too."
Harry let out a loud sigh "speaking of, we should probably tell the family what happened"
"Can we just lay here for a little while?"
"As long as you need baby"
***
A few days had passed and everyone was walking on eggshells around me, they felt sorry for me and it was driving me mad.
I overheard so much talk about the Hawks and possible sightings and I was glad Harry had a distraction but since the picture had been released, we were no closer to tracing who sent it.
Harry had the boys grill Georgie over it all but I knew it wasnt her. She would never do it, we were ride or die, I trusted her with my life.
The picture had been wiped from anywhere it could pop up, Miles was a wizard on the computer and he did some high tech shit to make sure my naked body wasnt all over the internet. Im sure whoever leaked it has other plans.
I could hear Harry's boots against the wooden floor and my mood suddenly lit up. I felt his rough hands against my arms as he rubbed them up and down.
"You're coming with me" he whispered in my ear and I yelped as he lifted me off my seat.
"Where?" I asked as I clung to him.
"We are going to teach you how to drive, you need wheels if you are carrying babies and I thought we could have celebratory sex in the backseat"
"Ohh car sex, yes please" I nodded as I kissed along his neck, tracing my tongue along his tattooes.
***
Ive been driving a week and I shit you not, lightening mcqueen has nothing on me.
Im a pro, I love being behind the wheel. I only stalled the car four times, ive not once had a near death experience so I think all in all, im pretty great!
I would also like to confirm that the celebratory sex was a great success and Josie will be getting a bill for a valet... I dont even feel sorry about it.
Ive done it four times since.
I had a great lesson with Harry and we were trying different areas in town, more so stopping and starting, parralel parking - which is an absolute bitch by the way and a small bit of reversing.
Harry was so happy with me that we were on our way to book my driving test. We had spent at least two hours every day preparing me for it so with a few proper driving lessons I should be a pro racer in no time.
I know Harry did this to take our minds off things and I can honestly say its been the best distraction cause the minute I stop is when I lose all self control, where my mind runs at a mile a minute and I feel my failure settle in.
I wonder will the pain ever stop?
"Woaah baby, easy on the accelerator" Harry put his hands up, his voice sounding panicked.
"Oh sorry, I was daydreaming"
"Thats what every passenger wants to hear babe" he joked and I laughed as I shook my head at his dry humour.
"When you get your test, Ill get you a car. We can go to the dealership now and you can have a look" he spoke with such ease, like buying me a car was as easy as buying a cucumber from the farmers market.
"If I got a job, I could buy myself a car" he didnt answer me he just stared out the mirror, his brows knitting together.
"Take the next left babe" he spoke warily, his eyes laser focused on the mirror. I turned on my indicator and switched lanes so I could turn left up ahead.
When I turned left I noticed a black Volkswagon Golf followed by a red Mercedez Benz behind us.
"Okay, dont indicate and turn right up here" Harry said as he dialled a number on his phone.
When I turned right the Volkswagon Golf cut in almost causing a collision as they followed us.
"Hunter, I need Miles to get access to street cameras on Elm Street coming up onto York's Passageway, I need details on license plate DTX5279 and an ID on the driver."
"Got it" is all Hunter said before he hung up and I could feel my palms sweating as I gripped the steering wheel hard.
"Baby..." Harry touched my leg giving it a gentle squeeze.
"We are being followed and I need you to lose them"
* Authors Note *
Who was expecting that? 🤔
Will Pippa prove her driving skills or fail miserably? Find out in the next chapter 😉
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