I groaned one more time as it flashed back to my mind.
The sound that resonated when he slammed the door shut.
The way he harshly grabbed the bag that fell on the floor.
The way his eyes expressed pure shock with a glint of sadness.
The hint of disappointment from his voice.
The way my guilt ate me whole right when I realized what just happened.
Yet I didn't chase after him.
I can feel myself being dragged down by my guilt.I don't like this feeling.I was so happy with the warmth I shared with the guy I like that I forgot that someone would get hurt.
I wanted to tell him how sorry I am, maybe give him a friendly-hug while doing so.But I chose to give him some space for now.
He's one of my best-friend and I don't want to ruin our friendship just because of that.I see him as a friend, nothing more and nothing less.
I want him to understand that by the end of the day, there are plenty other girls out there for him.I'll help him find her, but I can't be her.
I'm going crazy.My mind is rambling whether to be giddy or be guilty.
I grabbed my baby, and comb it's fur,"Oh Winter baby, what should I do now?", I asked, as if he'll answer.
This is so frustrating.
Should I ask one of the neos for help?My brothers' would definitely be asleep by now.
You
Anybody awake?
Nakamoto.YT
Why are you still awake
Kim.DY
Yeah it's literally 2am go to sleep
You
My mind doesnt wanna rest
Park.JS
You guys I watched a drama while ago
It was very dramatic
You
Yah Jisung go to sleep
Nakamoto.YT
Says the youngest😏
Park.JS
I have an idea what Jae's problem is
You
You better shut up Park
Park.JS
Oh the plot twist of the drama you guys
You
I need a smart person to help out
I'm very frustrated atm
Kim.DY
For the sake of my sleep I'll help
Nakamoto.YT
She said she needs someone smart
It clearly aint you
Lee.DH
Shots fired
You
I'll switch to our DM then
So what happened
My friend has a problem and idk how
to help soo
Like-it's really frustrating me rn
Oh yes you are a dumbass wbk
Lemme guess
It's bout the lil triangle huh
My friend's having problem and she's askin
me but I cant btw
Yeah sure your 'friend'
So my friend and the guy she liked had
this mini 'moment' then they were like SO
HAPPY right?And then guy #2, which apparently is
a friend of hers (and likes her too) came
And he like..SAW THEIR HANDS ARE
INTERTWINED THEN THE GIRL WAS LIKE SHE'S
SHOCKED THEN THE GUY #2 LEFT
What a drama🍵
So what's your friend's name
She prefers to be unnamed
Well ig I'll name her 'Sky' then
What?Why?
Oh just thought the story was so damn
familiar to somebody I know🥰
Welp couldnt be me right
What a fucking liar
So what do you think she should do?
Her story's frustrating right?
I dont see why you, Lee Hyunjae, Valerie Cruz
will stay awake frustrated for somebody's
fucked up business
Unless it's you👀
It aint me.Just helping a friend out
I'm THE Kim Doyoung and you think I
wouldnt know your fucking bullshit
I'm a fucking genius Jae, I aint easily fooled
JUST TELL ME SOME ADVICE
CUCUMBER BOY🥺
Cucumber i-
Fine but not unless you admit its you
Yes it is me.Happy?
I FUCKING KNEW IT🤩
Wow that was really dramatic huh
Heck yeah
I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO
Just talk to the mr.walkout say you're sorry
and hope that y'all wouldnt be fucking
awkward by tomorrow😙
I feel guilty man
Like his voice??It was so sad??💔
I'm a horrible person wbk
You're a person dumbass.
You can't control your fucked up feelings
Now accept my call cause I wanna hear
it directly from you..
Cucumber is calling..
Who's mr.walkout by the way
I sighed..How am I supposed to say this without cracking my voice?
A great friend that I might lose all
because of this..
My precious Daegal..
ARE YOU REALLY??
Hold on I think I'm hyperventilating
YOU MEAN-
YOU CHOSE SUNGCHAN??
LIKE 'THE' JUNG SUNGCHAN!?
Did you fucking hit your damn head or something?
Man sure hope so
I'm curious though..
Why not Chenle?I mean..he's nice too,
cares for you like a whole motherfucking
bf material??
Not to mention that he's literally been there
for you through I don't know..
EVERYTHING?
He let out a chuckle, as I hear shuffling from the background.
I'll be honest..I used to like Chenle
But..I just..Got over it I guess?
And now.. I just see him as my friend now
We'll talk bout this tomorrow.
Get the fuck to sleep
I smacked my face using my pillow, again.
I CAN'T
I hurt somebody in order to be happy
I'm fn selfish
..I'm gonna pretend you didn't try to curse
As you said, he's your friend, one of the greatest,
he'll understand it soon Jae.
Stop putting all the fucking blame to yourself
It'd be worse if you lead him on to think you
like him back for longer then it'll end up the
other way
Well I guess so
I mean..That's better right?
Fuckin yes
Now go the fuck to sleep I need
some rest too
Thank you for dealing with me and
my dumbass
Anything for you Sky
Besides, no one has enough brain cells
to deal with you anyways
You wanna know why I chose Chanchan?
Was waiting for you to do so
Prepare to cringe haha
I've been far from my family for a while,
then Sora..I'm happy you guys are
there for me too
But I just..felt complete when I'm
with him??
Bye I'm cringing
You're fucking whipped aegi
But aww thats cute though
And I've been with him since.. the start
I honestly can't explain it more
I didnt know Sungchan actually had
that side
Well yeah..
But I swear Sky, we gotta sleep now
We chuckled.I then turned the speaker on, before saying,
Yeah whatever cucumber byee
YOU FUCKING TAKE THAT BACK
I pressed the end button, throwing it to the other side of the bed.
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Morning came as I sat on one of the benches, watching the others record for their MV.Due to Chan's wish I'm now spending my free time in at the 90's love unit's set.
I watch as they exit the ice rink, one by one, laughing as Sungchan nearly stumbled while doing so.
How adorable.
"How did I do?", I showed him a thumbs-up in response, leaning back to the chair as he wipe off his sweat.
He also brought his cousin, who apparently is MCND's youngest member, Taeyang.We're about the same age, and she's half Filipino.We've briefly talked while waiting for them to finish, and she's nice.
Seeing her makes me think that, wow man, good-looks must run within their genes.
"You two got along well huh?", I nodded, as I encircle my arm around Taeyang's, "I prefer her more than you now Chanchan"
While waiting for the others to finish setting up the table, I decided to just take Taeyang on my room to wait.
Out of nowhere she suddenly blurted,"So eonnie..May something ba..between you and Sungchan-oppa?", my eyes widened upon hearing her remark.
She sheepishly waved it off, saying that she's just joking.
[T:So eonnie..Is there something..between you and Sungchan-oppa?]
I laughed it off, before replying with,"Oh I hope so Taeyangie haha"
Due to me feeling bad abt last chapter, I've decided to just, why not make a chapter of a, "what if she chose Sungchan?"..Sad to say, this is just a ver.2, and the story will continue on to Chenle being the main lead💚
this chapter has been proofread and undergone minor editing.
-author