Us Happened

Daddy

Between the lines by Sara Bareilles

Mika

"Ma, paano kung di ko mapanindigan? I mean. Kaya ko lang makipaglaro sa mga bata pero di ko alam..." I am panicking. Nakabili na kami ni Mama ng pregnancy test. I told her my gut feeling is telling me na buntis ako. Hindi naman kasi ako nalalate eh.

"Calm down Potch. Kahit naman ako nung nabuntis ako sayo, hindi ko alam kung kaya ko bang pangatawanan ang pagiging nanay pero inisip ko, God won't give it to us kung hindi tayo worthy to receive it or kung hindi pa tayo handa. Babies are angels sent from His Kingdom to us. " Mama talking sense into me. Alam ko naman yun, pero we just got married. Tapos Kiefer is at the top of his career, tapos ako I haven't even left National Team tapos may contract pa ko with PSL. Tapos... I got drunk last night, paano kung makaaffect sa baby yun?

"Here you go. I'll be waiting here, kapag two lines it's positive. I'm gonna be a Lola, kapag hindi we're still gonna go to my obgyne, to have you checked. Okay? Relax ka lang Potch." Mama tapped my shoulder as I went inside our restroom. Eto na.

"Positive o hindi, hindi kami mawawala. Madadagdagan pa nga di ba?" Mom said before I went inside the comfort room.

I did what the instructions told me, eto na ata ang pinakamatagal na 5 minutes ng buhay ko.

Ang daming pumasok sa isip ko, what if hindi pa din ready si Kiefer. Shit bakit ba kasi namin pinanood si Christian Grey, paano kapag may baby scare din si Kiefer? Tapos magaaway kami? Tapos iiwan niya ako? Or paano kapag may abnormality siya kasi naginom ako? Makakaaffect ba yun? Or paano yung contract ko? Mafoforfeit ba yun? Makakasuhan ba ako? Am I gonna be a good mother? Paano kapag during my pregnancy may mali akong magawa?

Oh my gosh!!!

I'm freaking out again. I dialed Kiefer's number, alam ko may practice siya but I wanna hear his voice.

Kiefer

"Woot! Si Kiefer oh, mukhang naghappy happy last night ah!" My teammate Kevin shouted teasing me pagtanggal ko ng shirt ko.

"Kaya pala mejo late tayo Bro." Gabo added. I just smirked at him, shaking my head.

"Tangina Kiefer, never knew Mika can do that. Hot!" I saw red when I heard that. Hindi ko nagustuhan the way he said it. Eto yung iniiwasan ko. I felt my body tensed.

"Oh. Bilisan na natin, game na!" Segue ni Kuya Marc at inakbayan ako.

"Relax lang." Bulong niya sakin bago lumabas. Sinuot ko ang jersey ko at sapatos para sa laro. Kuya Marc is like a big brother to me, simula nang ikasal kami ni Mika lagi siyang andyan to give advices, or simple reflection lang.

Drills and warm up started.

They would occasionally tease me still about my lovebites pero hindi ko na naririnig ang pangalan ni Mika, which is good. Lahat ng laro at biro kaya kong sakyan wag lang idadamay asawa ko.

During break I heard my phone ringing, I checked who's calling and frown when I saw my wife's name.

"Bakit kaya napatawag to?" I admit I'm kinda worried, di naman basta basta tumatawag to lalo na kapag magpractice, magtetext lang.

"Babe, you okay?" I said as soon as I answered the call. She was quiet in the other line which made me even more uneasy.

"Hey, what's wrong?" I think Kuya Marc and my other teammates must've heard me and saw my reaction they were all staring at me.

"Wala. Uhm, I just wanna hear your voice." I heaved relief when she told me nothing's wrong but worried is still etched on my face.

"You sure?" I asked again and she said yes. I'm trying to convince myself that its nothing, baka nga may topak lang ang isang to.