Living with my brothers

Chapter 46

I get out of the pool and grab my towel as I lay down on the chair waiting to dry.

Giles walks over and sits down next to me laying back down where he was.

I stay outside for 2 hours tanning until I get too hot and head inside and grab a drink.

I open the fridge and grab a bottle of water before taking it upstairs with me.

I open my door and walk in laying down on my bed smiling at the roof.

Maybe it won't be so bad if I tell him I want him to stay.

Three days go by and I've been doing nothing but lay on my bed and think about Giles and my brother and if it's fair to ask him to stay here.

Tomorrow is my twin brothers funeral and I'm not ready at all to know he's gone forever breaks my heart.

How am I supposed to do this without him he's been in my life for 21 years and now I'm never gonna see him again.

"Please come back to me." I say sobbing on my bed when my brother walks in

"How you holding up." Nick asks walking over to my bed and sitting down next to me.

"I'm trying to be okay but it's hard." I say sighing

"I know it is kiddo it's not easy losing someone you love let alone your twin brother." He says

"If I just stayed quiet he would never have come." I say angrily

"It's not your fault it's Taylor's." He says

"It's mine stop telling me it isn't." I say angrily

"Calm down." He says

"He was my twin you can't expect me not to be upset at the fact I did this I made him chase me and he got killed because of me." I say crying

"I have to live with that for the rest of my life." I say angrily

"I not only killed my brother but I got my friend killed and his brother hates me." I say sighing

"He will come around." Nick says

"He shouldn't have to he's right." I say

"Your not the only one who lost him Avery god damn it he was my baby brother." He says angrily

As I look at him angrily I realise he's right I have 6 brothers who lost him as well and I've been so selfish.

"I'm so sorry." I say sighing

Nick kisses my forehead walking out and shutting my door and I just sob into my pillow.

"Why does it hurt so much." I ask

Mum and dad got here yesterday and dad said mum hasn't stopped crying.

I hear a knock on my door and it slowly opens as my dad walks in.

"Hey kiddo." He says smiling

"Hey dad." I say sighing

He walks over and sits down next to me and I hug him tightly.

"Why does it hurt so much." I ask

"Because you loved him." My dad says

I sob into his chest and I can't help but think if I didn't yell his name he would have never came for me and got shot.

They still haven't found Taylor anywhere the cops said it's like he just disappeared.

I get up and head towards the shower.