Luna

Chapter Thirty

Dear all,

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Maj

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She Was Gone

Lucas

I see Lilly sitting in the far corner of the room. Away from me.

I call unto her, but to no avail.

Emotions unintentionally take over my heart as my mind is filled with my darkest memory.

Because I also called unto her then. I called unto her so many times, but to no avail.

I did everything. But no matter how much I screamed, no matter how much I tried. No matter what I did. She did not listen.

She was gone.

No matter how much I called, she was not coming back.

I waited for her. I waited and waited.

But she was gone. She has left me.

My heart was pierced a million times. My soul was ripped and crushed into million pieces.

No matter how I called her. Nobody listened.

She didn't listen.

She was gone.

No.

What I am thinking.

Stupid. This.. is not the time to think any of it. My mate, she's in front of me.

I forcefully push unwanted thoughts and open my eyes. I see my beautiful mate staring intently at me. Her eyes contain confusion.

She definitely saw it. She definitely had the glimpse of it.

I was very careless. Lilly is a smart girl. She will definitely know that something is wrong with me. I shouldn't let her think of that. She will worry. She will be troubled. And she.. might suffer again.

Nothing was her fault. I couldn't let her be hurt again. I just found her. I shouldn't let anything cause her trouble.

No matter what happens, I cannot let her know. I cannot let her know my suffering. I cannot let her know that pain. She had enough pain.

And she had already suffered more.

So this burden, it is mine alone to carry. My Lilly, I will protect her no matter what.

I can only blame myself for still being so weak at restraining my feelings.

I start spurting nonsense and try to tease her to make my words out of her mind. In fact, even I don't really understand what I am telling her. I am just desperate to make her forget my stupid remark.

I desperately try to mask the pain in my heart.

However, my stupid attempt to hide my feelings instantly crumbles when Lilly covers my eyes with her soft hands.

Her hands are warm and soft. My heart stops beating for a moment as my mind instantly becomes blank.

"Your eyes are deceiving me." I hear her whisper to me. "You are.. hurting." She adds like it's a matter of fact.

I feel my lips tremble at her words. Sure enough, she knows. Sure enough, I cannot hide it from her.

The emotions that I tried so hard to conceal overflowingly come out. The facade that I was trying instantly crumbles with her simple words.

Lilly.

My love.

My mate.

My Luna.

I feel her lips against mine. She is clumsy, but so am I. I feel that she is very nervous, but... so am I.

It feels like I am being kissed for the first time.

She, without any effort at all, opens up all of my pent up pain and emotions like simply opening a box. A box without any seal at all.

And just like that, I involuntarily pour out all of my emotions in the kiss. Her lips feel like sunlight. Warm and welcoming. Giving my soul life.

My heart starts beating fast and loud and I kiss her like I never kissed her before. It's like my mind is not working. It's like my heart reigns on my body.

Lilly.

How I missed you.

I feel my eyes warmed and hot tears come running down the palm of her hand. These overdue tears came out like an unused faucet which is opened after long, long years of being unused.

I know it is stupid to cry, but my eyes work on their own and temporarily forgot to listen to my brain. Since these tears are too warm and too much to be concealed, Lilly will definitely notice. She will definitely want to know why I am crying.

Suddenly, I feel her hands slightly tremble before she uses her fingers to gently wipe the tears on cheeks while continuing to kiss me.

Lilly.

How I longed for you.

I.. was so lonely.

I.. It hurt so much.

I grab her small waist and encircle my arms around it. I hold unto her like I never want to let go. I just want to hold her. I just want to feel her next to me. I might be a little bit more forceful in this embrace but Lilly didn't mind. She just softly holds my face.

I don't know how many minutes has passed when Lilly pulls her lips away to breathe. I still don't want to end the kiss so I give her lips three more pecks before letting her catch her breath unhindered.

I have mostly calmed down after giving away all of my emotions in the kiss. It is only then that I realized our current position.

Lilly is lying on top of me while breathing hard. Her hair is sprawled over my chest and covering her head. Her face is hidden on my neck and her fingers are clutching my shirt. My left arm is encircled around her waist, my left hand is holding her bare sides. My right arm is inside her shirt, my hand is holding her back. I am pressing her hard onto me.

My cheeks probably still have traces of tears that I shamelessly shed earlier.

I am just too embarrassed to move.

I was too emotional earlier. I can't believe I even... cried. Just how will I explain to Lilly the reason why I acted like that. I don't want to pressure her into anything. I want her to.. remember.. on her own.

The wheels of my mind keep on turning as I quietly hold my mate. I just don't know what to say. I am just rendered speechless.

Lilly also acts like dead. She hasn't moved from my top. In fact she hasn't moved at all since our kiss.

That is until we hear a loud whisper outside.

"Alpha? Didn't want to disturb you guys.. but you know.. Beta Tristan has called to confirm that the special training is all set up."

"..."

"And you know.. I didn't want to disturb your moments together.. I mean Ron and me didn't really hear some gasps and moans but I mean.. Yeah I think that--"

That is when my mate who is playing dead jolts up and, with a straightforward manner, walks to the door and slams it open.

The door rams hard into Ethan's nose and he lets out a scream.

Lilly is also startled when she notices that there was someone behind the door and becomes red all over from embarrassment.

I just don't know if she's embarrassed because of the kiss or the fact that she rammed the door to the green pup's nose.