Enter Thy Mind

A Toast

I try my best but I can never win

Not against the perfect you

You take those pills that make you thin

You judge me the way you do

But all you see is my reflection

I hide in a safe place hidden away

I'm scared of you poisoning rejection

I keep my mouth shut with so much to say

I try everything to make you see me

You keep screaming while I'll shout

I can only do one thing, it's to believe

One day you'll see what I'm about

You push me when I'm on the edge

Then laugh as you watch me fall

You ridicule everything I've ever said

I'm just a toy for you, a rag doll

You taught me not to do those things

Yet you do them multiple times everyday

I'm just a broken puppet on withered strings

I paint on a mask and act like I'm Otay

I watch you rot while you force me to stay

You are hurting yourself with you pain killing drugs

But finally I saw an opening and got away

You found out and showered me with kisses and hugs

But was it a cover to make me stay put

To convince me to dwell in your misery

Otherwise you never gave me a second look

But now I need to move on from the history

You held onto me as your plan fell through

You tricked and fought to say I love you

But there is only so much I can do

Here's to you Dad, *Raises Glass* I love you too