BROKEN - to be healed by her (manan ff)✔️

35: Sorting out!

" cabir..main yeh nhi keh rahi ki tum galat ho aur voh saahi..bilkul bhi nhi..par...apne past se jude ek aaise insaan ko dekhke jo shyaad..shayaad..apki life main ho rahe har problem ke liye responsible ho..none can stay sane..same happened to him..aur..aur iss bar toh hum bhi nhi the uske saath..i saw his state cabir...even though unconscious..it was like he had lost all the will to live...usmain jeene ki chah hi nhi baachi hai..."

" for whatever little i know through yuvraj...i get shivers down my spine..if this is just a percent of what he's went through toh usne kitna kuch apne andar rakhha hoga yeh socke mere rongte khade ho jaate hai...hum jitna bhi chahe na hum apna pain kabhi kisiko puri tarah bata nhi sakte na samjha sakte hai...tum aur main humare liye shyaad ye kehna aasan hoga ki usse aaisa nhi karna chahiye par tumhi socho na...u mean so much to him..and i have seen it in his eyes today..what would he be going through when he couldn't stop himself even after knowing he will hurt you..."

" voh apne past ko bhule ne ki koshish kar raha hai...jo nhi ho sakte...uska past humesha uski life ka ek important part rahega...and he's trying to run away from it..and khete hai na jitna app kisi cheez se bhago utna hi voh aapko katne ko daudti hai...vahi uske saath bhi ho raha hai..he needs to make peace with his past...agar humne voh kar liya na toh tum dekhna we'll soon be able to get him out of this..get him into his real self..."

" baat karlo usse cabir...he needs you right now...i am sure there are millions of things he might be dying to tell you...i saw how lost he was for a moment when you left the room....i know i probably shouldn't be telling you this considering you know him way better than i do...but..." i said blurting everything that was bugging me and trying not to offend cabir in any manner..i was searching proper words to speak when he said...

" hey..hey..nandini it's okay you don't need to get so worked up you can tell me anything related to manik..or for that matter anywhere you think i am going wrong...and about him...I'll talk to him i guess i should have handled it in a better way than i did" he said huffing tiredly and slightly throwing his head back..

" don't be so harsh on yourself it's fine...now go he's literally jumping on his seats with anxiety" i said chuckling and secretly also imagining it not being a metaphor and that made my chuckle a little more loud than it should be...

" but yeah akhri baar hai voh bhi cuz u are telling me..isske baad agar us kamine ne aaisa kuch bhi kiya na maine muh tod dena hai uska" he said irritatingly..i found it cute though..

" saath main milke todenge" i said chuckling a lill to which he game me a smile before turning around, he took a a few steps and suddenly turned around, while i stood there..

" also...i don't think main manik ko tumse aachi tarah janta hu" he said winking at me and i suddenly got conscious looking anywhere except him as i felt a warm rush of blood on my cheeks..wait was i blushing??

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Cabir's pov:

I walked past the hallway and entered in his room stealthily and saw hum sitting with his eyes closed..he seemed anything but calm..i figured i was good at sneaking in but i was proved wrong as he fluttered his eyes open soon enough..

" cabir...i....i...am..so..r..ry..please..meri baat sun le" he said his eyes showed relief on finding me here but at the same time they were anxious of my reaction..

I walked ahead closer to him and once i was close enough and had perfect angle to do what i desperately wanted too..i punched him hard..hard enough to dislocate his jaw for the time being...he groaned loudly..

" kamine...shukar mana sirf ek punch mara hai mera bas chalta na toh tere chehre ka naksha bigad deta samjha" i said huffing angrily..

" sorry...na yaar..tujhe jitna maarna hai maar le..i won't say anything..akhir galti bhi toh itni badi ki hai" he said lowering his lashes..