Ocean's Deep

Part 27

"I was eight. Like everyday, I came home from school there she was standing by the door waiting for me. We would have our fun together just the two of us, my father would be too busy for us both. That's why it hit me so hard when the last time I saw her, she was already dragging her suitcase without even bothered to give me a glanced."

"No one knew where she went, some said she died, others said she'd changed her name so people won't find her. All I know was that she abandoned me all alone with her own selfishness and coward action."

Alec could hear Magnus' heartbeat thumping from under his ear a little faster. He knew Magnus is nervous to tell this to him but he was proud of him telling Alec about this. "My father never spoke of her ever since. I grew up, started became very spoiled with my father bought literally anything I wanted to fill the void but he never could. No one ever could fill the void but her." Alec looked up to his face hoping he would feel better but he could see tears forming in Magnus' eyes.

"You're the first person to know about this. You have no idea how it felt to keep it inside of me for years but somehow talking to you is better than to talk to therapist. I hope that when you are ready enough you could share yours with me." He said and Alec nodded. He let his cheek nestled into Magnus warmth body. Slowly his eyes drifted listening to Magnus' steady heartbeat and never he felt this type of comfort before.

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"Mummy." Soft voice echoed in the empty living room startling Maryse from her thoughts. She didn't realized she had stared out for almost an hour by the balcony staring out into the ocean hoping with the tiniest hope left that Alec would be coming back safe and sound.

When she turned around, she saw Max in his pj's hugging his soft toy closed to his chest. She knew the bear isn't enough to give him comfort when Alec is not around but somehow this is the longest he had not encountered Alec. "Yes baby." She opened her arm out for him to close their distance. She raised him up on her lap and they both faced the ocean together.

"When Alec is coming back?" He asked her after a while and she couldn't exactly answer him with anymore lies. "I don't know sweetheart, I really don't know." She said and Max turned to look at his mother. He could see how easily she get to tear up in mention of Alec's name. "He will come back right mummy?" He asked again and Maryse smiled although her eyes already waters.

"I'm sorry baby, I'm really a bad mummy, I don't know where Alec is, I don't know when he is coming back." She sobs wiping away her tears as quickly as she could but failed when Max kept staring at her face. Surprisingly for her, he turned his body to face her and cupped her face with his small palm and she darted her gaze towards Max's eyes.

"You're not bad, you're good mummy. Alec love you. I love you." She breaks as she heard her six year old son tell her things that she kept denying herself at. Max wipes her tears with his palm and hugged him to her chest. "Daddy said we're going home tomorrow but you will stay. Can I stay with you?" He asked and his eyes pleading his mother that could break anyone but Maryse.

"No sweetie you can't. You need to be with Jacey and Izzy okay? I promise I will be home soon and I'll bring Alec with me." She made the false promised too many time this week. She wishes the words is as easy as the burden she carries but it's enough for her son to understand why they had to be separated.

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Morning came sooner than they all thought. By the time they had done everything Maryse was already packing up her families bag and the look on Izzy and Jace's face kills her the most. Isabelle kept repeating to her to let her stay and accompanied her mother so Maryse won't be alone but she won't budge. She knew it's not fair if she let Izzy not Jace and if she lets her, Jace would want to stay too and Max would follow his siblings too.