Broken As A Reminder

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I promised you all that I wouldn't do it again.

With your signatures you signed, entrusting my words.

I told you that I was determined to sacrifice what was deemed necessary to graduate, to stand beside you all and walk across the stage.

You believed me.

And I did.


But there was something else that you agreed to.

You all trusted me, and I failed you.

I failed you, not me.

Because I can stand in front of you and show you that I'm worth more than a passing spirit,

I've proven to all of you that I'm not a small memory in your lives.


Yet I broke it. I broke that other half of the promise.

You all knew about my self harm

The scars were there on my wrist--on my arms

And I tried to tell myself that it was only a temporary fix.


Today, those scars are long healed

After the first time I broke that promise...

After the blood was already spilled

Even though it was the last time I broke the promise

I still broke it.


If all of you would hear me say these words

You would tell me that I kept it in the end

But as the ring is broken today

The thought will always remain in me that I failed you all. 

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Written: Nov 23rd-29th?

Originally named: A Broken Promise.

The Promise: I told my friends that they should sign my ring to remind me that I made an impact in their life. That I shouldn't self harm because they believe in me so I should believe in me. I lost faith in myself and gave into self harm. Today, I am glad to say that though I am. 

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