A Barrier Meant To Be Broken

Uncharted Territory

Beneath me, a rumble echoed throughout the building.

Butterflies flew in my stomach.

Misaligned, my core was shaken.

Three floors off the ground and hanging on the ledge, my hands grasped for anything.

Realization hit, when the voice from below could be heard at a distance.

Shock had stopped my heart.

Cognitive thinking spurred into action, trying to compute this new experience.

Flying question marks and exclamation points filled my head.

Luckily, a friend was near and he cleared up my confusion.

"It's an earthquake." he said and suddenly I felt the instability underneath the surface.

Sound, my soul was not.

Quivering quickly took over me as I realized, I didn't know what to do.

Tornadoes, hurricanes, drought...

All the seasons in one day,

Even a snow storm is under my belt of experiences.

But none of them, was this.

Fight. Flight. Or Freeze.

Fight what? Nature?

Flight to where? Was I fast enough?

Freeze. Stop. Think.

But by then, I'd be too late.

Assurance came from my friend, but it did not sooth me as the building swayed.

For once I was at a lost, unable to react to the situation.

No panic rose inside of me.

However, no solution created itself.

Powerless, a feeling I had experienced in different forms.

Emotion lack from being physical distant.

Though that situation was different, I still felt it all the same.

Spiritually, physically, and mentally I would not have escaped if the situation became a crisis.

Normally, I favor new experiences.

Before, I pridefully gloated about my fearlessness.

Now that I'm mature I've come to know the human trait of fear and why people need to feel it.

Despite knowing that fear is necessary, I still crave for an answer. I crave a solution.

Simply not knowing is acceptable.

Arise, the questions shall.

Mother of nature, hear me out.

Such beauty comes with your destruction.

Though I plead to you,

If this is my path...

Then take me quick and don't have second thoughts.

The less I feel in death, the quicker I can breathe again.

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3.3.19

My first aftershock experience.