A Barrier Meant To Be Broken

Configuring Us

It's odd to think we haven't seen each other since 2015.

Despite our physical distance, you insist in keeping me at arm's length has prepared me for today...

Prepared me for my eight thousand mile voyage.

Talking about what we are is useless once it was discussed first legitament time.

'Legitament' meaning we both fully understood.

In the past we've lied, we told each other 'we know'.

Until I imposed that I was one hundred percent willing to lay everything on the table, you didn't succumb to me.

That day is crystal clear to me and always will be.

Around us, written all over the walls with memories. Some are distorted due to our personal prejudice. However, at this point it didn't matter.

Earlier, I had consulted My Sun. She asked me, "Will you leave me for her?"

The answer came quick and simple, without a second thought, "No."

That walk through the corridor was dark.

The lights had gone out some time ago, but my eyes adjusted.

Besides, I knew my way to our chamber of memories by heart.

A lustrous glow emitted from the key,

I unlocked the door.

Then stood silently, careful not to trigger anything.

With your door cracked open, you looked at me-weary, on edge.

Another trick, it must be.

Don't fall for him, the pattern's all the same.

If he even express a hint of toxicity, close the door.

One of your autumn eyes met my golden brown ones.

At that moment you know that these thoughts were insecurities.

Setting my jacket on the chair, I took a seat.

This action mystified you.

He knows. You thoughts announced and your hear races.

But. You push your thoughts away and stepped inside.

However, you left the door open unlike myself.

Sitting across the table, you eyed me, curiosity

Small conversation was exchanged and I confirmed that the doubt in you, was strong.

Although, I knew you'd act like this. I have always known.

Had I verbalized that observation, I would have triggered something...

Which is why I didn't.

After the confirmation, I began to explain why I had called you here.

Ironic- that we both 'knew'. We both were telepathic to each other's thoughts, habits, and emotions.

What phrase I chose to begin my explanation caught you by surprise.

"I'm tired." I verbalize.

Silence sunk in between us.

No words left your lips.

With an inhale, I continued.

Hours passed and I finished my explanation.

For once the silence between us, didn't mock us.

Looking over at me, your lips moved as if trying to process every word I had said.

Mentally, you scanned every breath I took.

Each word that I spoke, the structure of it all.

As you did this I thought of My Sun and how I learned from here.

Communication.

Trust.

And honest.

Three words that kept us together. That you and I thought we had.

At that moment, you knew.

Suddenly, all the tension was gone.

Paranoia, angst, the taps were all disarmed.

All at once, the room seemed naked.

Our slate clean.

Seven years of bullets emptied on the floor.

Utter silence.

We listened to it, and it took all my will power to not smile.

Libation, I had done it.

Flashing before us were the past seven years.

Both of us did not expect that VHS to play the first two.

Once the tape was done, you spoke.

My ears adjusted to you, my eyes watched your body language.

This time, however, I didn't try to analyze any of it.

I listened and at the end there was another silence.

Again, you were surprised by my action.

A handshake, I purposed.

Usually, this is a tradition for people who were becoming acquaintances.

Pause. You started, then took my hand.

Your eyes suddenly noted my bare arms.

The symbolism almost slapped you in the face.

Instead of saying 'I love you' I chose a different phrase.

"I will always care about you." I said.

Cravings appeared in your eyes as you replied.

"I will always care about you too." You said.

We smiled, we laughed.

The lightness in the room was surreal.

Could this be?

Us?

When I got home, My Sun greeted me.

Her warmth welcomed me home.

Trust.

Honesty.

And Communication.

We had achieve it.

Together.

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Inspired by "When We Are Together." By Daninfinity22. Written in 'To All My Stars'.

A barrier I have broken.

2.20.19