Abandon. I didn't want to leave.
Toxic, she was- So I had to leave.
I was there to wipe her tears
To hold her when she needed to be held the most
Depleted. That was my energy. Every day I gave her what I hoped would help.
The lack of energy I had was taking a toll on me.
Defeated. When I shut the door and heard her scream, I closed my eyes and leaned against the door.
She wouldn't open it
And neither would I.
Toxic. She told me, I abandoned her.
In a way, I had, so I didn't deny it.
But was it me abandoning her or taking care of myself?
Selfish. I am selfish for leaving her when I couldn't fix her problem.
I was never enough. She always needed more.
Peace. The state of mind I had when I realized I wasn't selfish.
I did what I had to do to survive.
But I lost a friend.
Or was that what we were?
Center. She had been the center of my life.
And then I shut the door
At first I kept reaching for my keys
Then I realized, I left them at the door.
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A barrier I've bypassed
"She Doesn't Sing" by jeaven. Written in: Walking Travesty
12.16.18
Post 13 of 2019
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A Barrier Meant To Be Broken
PoetryA journal of a young adult with a dream. This book contains poems and collected thoughts of their journey that started April 25th, 2018. At the age twenty-two they find themselves stuck between cultures, and more than two.
