made for; jack avery《COMPLETED》

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"A-autumn" I stutter. She looks up to me with glossy eyes. "I'm sorry.. I got carried away.." I couldn't help but smile she was so freaking cute.

"Listen t-theres something I need to get off of my chest.." She nods slowly gesturing me to carry on.  " a-autumn you remember a few years ago when I was cheated on?" She nods. "How you were there for me and when you were cheated on how I was there for you?" She nods again. "That day. That day I didn't only realise that not everything is what it seems. I learned that its hard to fall in love and not get hurt. Its a dangerous thing. Its scary. B-but you were there. You held me and kissed my cheek reassuring me that everything will be alright. I didn't believe you at the time. But as time went on everything only got better. I remember when your mom passed how you thought the same thing.. And I know sometimes it hurts for you to talk about her.. I know it still hurts but you lived threw it. I was so worried about you. You were my best friend. You still are. I can't think of life without you. You're like my other half" I smile and she giggles. Her mom use to tell us that. When we younger and I knew it would lighten the mood. " but during the last two years. T-theres been this feeling and i hate to say that it was a haunting feeling because its not bad but it is. A feeling that no matter what I did. It didn't go away. I tried so hard to forget. To just make them disappear but I failed miserably. Its hard to be in love with someone and watch them text and talk to other men. Its hard to be in love with your best friend and pretend you're not. Its hard to keep the feelings locked and not express them. Its hard to watch someone amazing, beautiful, sweet, astonishing I can go on, to sit around feeling as if she'd never be good enough even though she's everything I've ever wanted" tears begin to slip from her eyes " its hard to love someone and not know if they even feel the same way. Because one day they will be in someone else's arms. They will be happy and you're standing there hurt because you were scared to make a stupid move. I don't want to wait any more. I don't want to hide the feelings anymore. I don't want to be scared. Even though I still am" I let out a nervous laugh. "Autumn.. I'm in love with you a-and I hope. I hope that you at least feel something towards me because I don't want to embarrass myself" she stared eyes glossy. Was she scared too? "Autumn...?"

Autumn p.o.v.

"Autumn...?" I shook my head so many thoughts rambled thru my head all shot to my mouth but it wouldn't open. I was scared. He nodded slowly "so I embarrassed myself.. sorry autumn" he turned around to leave but my arms quickly shot up from my sides grabbing his arm. "Don't" I finally managed to say.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breathe trying to clear my head but it didn't work. "Jack.." I opened my eyes. My hands were still grabbing hold of his arm. I look up into his brown eyes that sent shivers down my spine. "Jack.. You didn't embarrass yourself. W-when we were younger I and the hugest crush on you" my eyes were still tearing up " but I kept those feelings in. As we grew older I got over it knowing you'd never like me like that. I didn't want to hurt myself by having feelings for someone who would never have them back. The night we were goofing around and you pulled me on top of you.. I felt something, my heat beat sped up and thoughts jumped threw my mind I wanted to kiss you but that one thought held me back 'you'll never be good enough for jack avery' it still comes to my mind. Jack I'm not good at expressing my feelings as well as you and you know that. I dont even understand my feelings. But I do know. I do know I love you. I do know when we kissed the first time I felt an abundance of emotion. I do know that I need you in my life like limelight" we both laugh. "But I'm serious jack.." Another tear slips from my eye "I love you"

He slowly wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me in. I shoved my head between his neck and shoulder. I take deep breaths trying to reconcile what just happened. I'm in love with jack avery. Jack Avery is in love with me.

When we finally pulled away jack looked at me searching my face for something. "Autumn.." I give him a light smile "jack" my voice as low as a whisper. "Will you be my girlfriend?" I laugh then said "no" his face falls.

"Jack.. I'm kidding. Yes" he releases the breath he was holding and mumbles "thank god" we hug once again but this time he picks me and brings me to my bed.

He lays his head on my shoulder / boob as I play with his hair. I hear his breathing slow and that's when I know he's asleep. I grab my phone from the nightstand and take a picture of him on my chest. I put the date on it. 12/24/17 with a red heart. I save it to my camera roll and sent it too Jack. I wanted to remember not only our date but this moment. Because with him being famous and constantly on tour there won't be much moments like this.

I sigh. Now its only gonna get harder from here. It was hard enough being just friends and him always being gone. Now we both have things to worry about. But I love him. And he loves me. And hopefully we don't hurt each other. Because neither of need to be hurt or deserve to be hurt.

But when it comes to love everyone has to make sacrifices they might not wanna make.