21 May 2017
01:57
What is sleep at this point? Everything's running through my mind at 100kmp. Everything hurts. Everything is so... different now.
When I walked out of that coffee shop with my eyes on the verge of tears, it felt like that night. The night I lost her. I'm so afraid I'm going to lose Cal because of this.
With everything going on with Chris and I right now, Cal just seems so distant and like he doesn't care. I'm sure he wants to try and help, but I don't want him getting hurt. What if everything going on hurts Cal? What if I hurt Cal?
I just wish this whole thing would end. If everything would just... disappear. I'm scared of the future and I hate my past.
I rolled over onto my side and sat up. After stumbling out of bed and slipping on a shirt over my head. Slowly opening my door, I slipped out of my room and into the hallway. Cal was fast asleep on the couch in the open room.
I grabbed my keycard and phone and headed out of the flat. Six flights of stairs later, i reached the rooftop. Swiping my card, the lock buzzed and a green light flickered, allowing my entrance.
It was warm out, but a soft breeze was blowing. I could think up here. I could breathe up here. I was myself here.
Carefully positioning myself on the edge of the cement roof, I looked out over the city. My feet dangling over the traffic below. It was beautiful.
There I was. Alone. Thinking. What am I supposed to do?
ESTÁS LEYENDO
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