Only His Touch || SakuAtsu

Ch28 || Once for the last time

Sakusa's POV

Tsum-Tsum.

"O-Omi-Omi?" 

  I missed his voice. I missed that nickname. I missed him.

"Omi-Omi y-you're crying?" He says.

I put my finger under my eye.

Oh. I guess I am.

I wipe my tears away with my palms. I can't feel anymore coming out. I guess I feel better now?

"What took you so long? It's our last night..." I say, trying to forcing a smile, though I feel my lip trembling uncontrollably, still in a frown.

I then feel another tear leak out of my eye.

"Omi-Omi? Hey... Hey are you okay?" He asks.

I smile, a sorta genuine one.

"Your face kinda looks how it did when you accidentally touched my shoulder that day we met." I say. 

I miss that day.

I can't help but let all the tears spill out. I can feel hot streaks of tears pour down my cheeks.

Then I feel a pair of arms wrap around me. I hug him back.

"Tsum-Tsum? Why did you wait so long? I missed you so much, I... I just..." I say. My voice is cracking a lot.

"I'm sorry. Please I'm sorry please just calm down please. Please please please please please please please please." Tsum-Tsum says gently.

Why is he apologizing? He did nothing wrong.

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I'm not sure how much longer we hug for, but I felt comforted again. Eventually we moved to lay onto the bed. I lay on my back and my knees slightly curled up. Tsum-Tsum lays on my lap and I run my fingers through his hair. I stopped crying and I think he was crying a bit too when we hugged, but if he was then he's also stopped.

 It's more peaceful now.

"Omi-Omi?

I look over at him.

"Yeah?" 

"Two things. One, I wanna say I'm proud of you. You played well." He says. "Thanks." I respond. 

He doesn't say anything after that.

 "Two?" I ask.

Tsum-Tsum doesn't speak again for a moment, and I start to imagine if I said "two?" aloud.

"After tonight... I don't think we're gonna talk again. I don't want to explain why but it's not your fault. I just wanted to tell you first. You can't change my mind on this."

I feel something in my stomach.

Not the feeling that feels like little butterflies fluttering around in my stomach, not a feeling that hurt slightly but made me want to discover more, like why it was there and why I seemed to enjoy the feeling. This time it hurt. It just hurt. I just felt empty and hurt.

I want to say something to stop him, but I can't think of the words to choose from.

"If it is really our last night, can we cuddle? Please?"

He smiles. "I would like that, yeah."

We shift around a bit and we hold each other in each other's arms. My face is right next to his and our foreheads are touching. I feel so happy being like this with him again. I missed it.

~~~Timeskip 45 mins~~~

"Tsum-Tsum? Are you awake?" I whisper. 

I wait several minutes. 

Nothing. 

I smile and feel my eyes fill with tears again.

"I love you. I love you so much Tsum-Tsum. I want to tell you even if you don't hear me. I love you. I love you so so so so much."

I hold onto him tighter, but not tight enough to disturb his slumber, and I cry into his shoulder once again. 

Once for the last time.

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Making myself sob again I see- anyways, I hope y'all are feeling okay after this😝✌️

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