LOVING SEBASTIAN GREENE (Published under Sizzle)

Chapter 24.2.3

CHAPTER 24.2.3

SEBASTIAN

I've been thinking a lot lately. After all the things that happened, I couldn't take the risk of losing Adison again.

I am planning to marry her.

Yes, I wanted to marry her, but I'm doubtful kung tatanggapin niya lalo pa ngayong alam niya kung gaano kagulo ang buhay ko. Jeez, I never thought that this is going to be hard. I am sure about myself, pero siya? I don't know. Natatakot akong i-reject niya ako, but I knew I have to try.

Gusto ko sana ang mas romantic na setting for a proposal, pero nagdadalawang-isip pa rin ako dahil baka mapilitan lang siyang sumagot ng Oo dahil sa effort na ginawa ko. I wanted her to say Yes dahil iyon ang gusto niya at hindi dahil na-overwhelmed siya sa effort.

Nasa restroom siya at para akong tanga na kinakabahan dito sa bed.

Jeez, do I need to do this now?

But I fucking wanted this.

I wanted to spend my entire life with her.

I can't imagine myself being with other woman aside from her.

She's the air that I breathe. She's my all. She's perfect for me.

But I am too scared to be rejected again. What if she's not ready?

Damn it, Sebastian! How would you know if you won't give it a try! Fuck!

Hindi naman nagtagal ay lumabas na siya sa restroom wearing a satin sleepwear. She's simply stunning. I am in awe for her even if we're not having sex.

I love her. That's just it.

"Uminom ka na ba ng gamot mo?" tanong pa niya.

"Yes, Ma'am." Tumango ako while enjoying a beautiful view of her.

"Maputla ka pa rin tingnan. My poor Baby..." aniya sabay ngumuso. Lumapit siya sa akin and she gave me a chaste kiss on my lips bago maupo sa gilid ng bed at nagpahid ng lotion sa kanyang mga braso at hita.

"Baby, I've been thinking... What if-"

Shit. Spit it out!

"What if?" Kunot-noo pa siyang bumaling sa akin habang abala pa rin sa pagpapahid ng lotion.

"Uhm..."

This is hard... Fuck!

"Sebastian?"

"W-what if we get... married..."

I swallowed hard. I nervously scanned her face for some reaction and literally holding my breath.

"M-married?" She stuttered looking totally shocked.

"Yes..." I nodded. That is not the reaction that I am looking for. "I want to marry you, Adison..."

"Jeez, Sebastian... We've only known each other for months?" naguguluhan pang sabi niya habang parang naghahagilap ng mga salita. She's starting to explain things. That's definitely a no... "At hindi man lang pa ako nakakatapos sa pag-aaral... You know—"

"I understand," mabilis namang sagot ko kahit na para akong sinuntok nang sobrang lakas sa mukha.

"Look—"

I didn't let her finish.

"You don't have to explain. I understand. I just want to tell the world you're mine and I am yours."