Dedicated to: SprinkleJellyDonuts (isn't the cover the most gorgeous thing ever?!?!?)
TRIGGER WARNING: self harm
The floor was cold against my knees and palms, digging in through my clothing. I couldn't breathe, the little breath that I was exerting was heaving out in short, raspy spasms. The ringing in my ears was louder now, and the world was still blurry, but I could make out a shape quickly moving to kneel beside me.
I felt arms wrap around my quaking body, picking me up, a hand beneath my knees and the other behind my back. There was a certain desperation in the touch of the hands that clung onto me. There was shouting- loud and violent and angry, and finally the person set off running, racing out of the cafeteria. I pressed myself to the person's chest, my body still shaking, the ringing clear in my ears.
Lemongrass.
I could smell lemongrass.
From his smell, from the way I felt my skin heat up and ignite under his touch, I knew it was Harper.
I wanted to fall into his touch, to stay in his arms forever- but at the same time I wanted to just leap out his arms and round-house kick him in his face.
I settled for staying rigid in his arms.
Finally, I felt a door being opened, and Harper set me down on the sink of the girl's bathroom so I was sitting, my legs hanging off the edge.
Wait.
The girl's bathroom?
That can't be.
I opened my eyes, the ringing fading, the shaking ceasing, the tears slowing down on my cheeks- Harper standing in front of me, a worried look on his face. His hands were on my shoulders, gently caressing them under his fingers.
"Are you okay?" He asked frantically.
I stared at him in awe, floods of emotion surging through my body.
Why is he helping me?
He shouldn't be helping me.
I don't want him to help me.
No, I do.
No, you have to stay away from him, idiot!
I didn't say anything. I held my breath as Harper edged forward, his hands electric on me, gently pressing his forehead against mine. I couldn't help but relax into his touch.
"Are you okay, Noelle?" He asked softly. I stared into his eyes- so mesmerising, so close. His gaze is tense on mine- trying to seek something from me.
I had to close my eyes, clenching my mouth shut.
I can't do this.
"Please stop, Harper." I said, quietly. "Please stay away from me. You promised to stop being in my life."
"Noelle- you knew I didn't mean that." He sighed, his voice tight and cracking slightly. "I need you."
Need me my butt.
"No- you don't." I pushed Harper away from me slightly. A hurt look filled in his eyes, but I chose to ignore it, my heart aching a little. "Stop trying to help me. I really don't need this in my life. Please get back to your- "
"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING- GET THE HELL OUT!" A voice screamed.
Oh no, Harper. Have fun getting out of this one.
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Falling Too Far
Teen FictionA girl with her heart on her sleeve and boy with a reputation of breaking them. A/N: I started writing with this when I was 13. I love it a lot because I used it as a platform to talk about issues that mean a lot to me and I feel don't get enough at...