Whatever It Takes

Chapter 71

It's no surprise to me I am my own worst enemy..
'Cause every now and then I kick the living shit out of me.
--Michelle Branch




"Sorry I'm late." Meredith mumbled as she slid into a chair at the table Christina and Izzy were sitting at on the veranda.

"Hey Mer." Izzy said softly... "Look I'm sorry to hear about the baby thing."

"Its fine." She replied waving it off "Its... its fine."

"So what are we betting?" Christina asked as she shuffled a deck of cards... "I've got a craniotomy at midnight."

"I've got an aortic graft with a pulmonary bypass tomorrow at noon." Meredith replied "Seven card draw?"

"Deal." Christina said with a smile as she started passing out the cards...

"I've got a cesarean tonight for twins." Izzy replied..

"Real surgeries Izzie!" Christina hissed "We do this every week, scrubbing in on each other's surgeries so that we can still feel the thrill of being in other specialties.. and a cesarean of twins is not going to give me a damn thrill!"

"Yeah, well you have to win the game first." Izzy grumbled "And I have a TTS case tomorrow evening."

"Sold." Christina yelped...

They stared picking up their cards and exchanging them to get their full suit... it came Meredith's turn and they waited for her to do something but she sat there still.. they looked at her to see her spaced out on her cards.. her eyes seemed absent and thinking about something...

"Mer?"

"Hmm.. what... oh.. its my turn?" she asked shaking out of her trance... taking a gulp feeling the embarrassment and flushed cheeks.. or maybe it was just what she was thinking about...

"Are you ok?" Izzy giggled "You look all rosy cheeked and staring at the cards like they have porn on them."

"Yeah." She gasped as she reached down grabbing a card that was on the table and putting on down..

"So what were you thinking about?" Christina asked curiously..

"Nothing." She shrugged... "It was nothing."

"Yeah and we're playing go-fish so spill dark and twisty." Christina spat out.. Meredith rolled her eyes and sighed..

"You know when you go on a diet... and right before you do you eat that last piece of cake just so you can enjoy your last sugar high knowing it will be your last... then the next day you go on the diet putting the sugar highs and the fat behind you but as you're out running trying to focus on being healthy... the cake is all you can think about and how good it was.... God, it was good cake!"

She rambled out feeling her tongue brush across her lower lip unknowingly and looked up to see two baffled faces...

"What are you talking about?" Christina muttered

"If you're on a diet Meredith I'd say we have bigger problems that cake." Izzy said with raised brows

"No." She said rolling her eyes and sighed as she mumbled in a low voice, "Derek and I had break up sex."

"WHAT!?" she heard them both gasp in unison... she felt herself cringe as she exchanged cards again...

"It was nothing.. just one of those.. last time because you know its your last time kind of thing and its not happening again.. except now its all I can think about.. like its awakened some dormant beast inside of me... crap."

"Just looking at him awakens the beast inside of me." Izzy mumbled...

"Uh-huh!" Christina agreed.. Meredith shot them a glare.. "What?"

"You're talking about my husband.. EX!.. Ex husband.. shit!"

"So um.. what about the vet?" Christina asked... Meredith chewed on her lip and shook her head..

"Nothing.. Finn.. he wont know.. because.. it was break up sex, its not going to happen again.. and no body including you two will ever talk about this..ever again!"

"You cant just put something like that on the table and expect us to drop it." Christina frowned...

"Watch me." Meredith muttered as she laid her cards all out on the table "Gin! .. see you ladies in surgery."

She got up from the table grabbing her lab coat as Izzy frowned and Christina's jaw dropped...

"Hey you cant... you cheated!"

"I did not." Meredith frowned...

"Oh you so did.. you distracted us with a bombshell."

"I didn't cheat.. and you're just a sore loser Christina... suck it up and take it like a lady."

Meredith smirked and rushed off back to check on her patients.. Christina crossed her arms and grumbled...

"I cant believe she can have meaningless sex with McDreamy and just skip away like its nothing... and she cheated."

"I bet he's good." Izzy mumbled...

"He looks like he would be good." Christina grumbled...

"Yeah he does!" Izzy giggled... they both shook their heads and mumbled in unison...

"Lucky bitch."