"Are you okay?" Colby asked as he handed me a wet cloth. "I wish it would get easier." I said quietly so I could clean up the mess that was on my stomach.
"I know, sweetheart." He said then leaned over and kissed my forehead.
Sex was always so difficult to process since everything that happened. Every time we would have sex it would get a little better but I felt like I was going to cry each time.
In the moment everything felt so good and full of love, but the feeling that I was being used was always sitting in the back of my head.
Colby was so gentle afterwards every time and would take good care of me to prove that I was much more than just a sex doll, but that month and a half in the brothel fucked me up.
"Let's get you a nice shower. That usually helps." Colby said as I nodded and stood up. "We have to clean the table...with bleach." I said as he grinned.
"We can do that after. Come on, sweetheart." He said then took my hand and led the way upstairs.
When we got to our room we both got in the shower. Colby was right when he said that I would feel better if I took a shower.
I hated that it took so much out of me to be intimate with Colby.
It wasn't that I didn't trust or love him, I just had a lot of unresolved issues from my time at the brothel.
"What's going on in that pretty head of yours?" Colby asked and gently massaged some shampoo into my scalp.
"I just hate thinking about it." I said and looked into his eyes. "I know. You've been through a lot though. It's gonna take a long time to process it." He said as I nodded.
"Yeah." I said simply as he leaned down to give me a gentle kiss.
I sighed then stepped back so I could rinse my hair out.
I had to admit that the warm water and feeling of Colby being with me made me feel much more comfortable, which is exactly what I needed.
We spent about an hour in the shower together before we got dressed.
"I was serious about the bleach." I said as we walked back into the kitchen.
"Yeah, I know." He said then grabbed the Clorox wipes that were under the sink and tossed them to me.
"If the kids ever knew they would be so grossed out." I said then started wiping everything down.
"Yeah, that's why I'll only ever fuck you like that when they are at school." He said with a laugh.
"Oh god, I just don't even want to think about them walking in on us." I said and closed my eyes.
"Juniper's innocent eyes would melt." Colby said as I shook my head. "We need to stop talking about this or I'll throw up." I said with a laugh.
"What do you want to do before we pick them up from school?" Colby asked as I cleaned the table.
"Well...how was your trip?" I asked and sat down, looking up at him. "What does that have to do with my question?" He asked as I chuckled.
"It might piss me off again." I said with a shrug. "You want to have make up sex again?" He asked as I giggled.
"Maayyyybeeee." I sang as he chuckled and sat across from me.
"Well. The guys came here and we got the nicest hotel room money can buy." He said as I rolled my eyes. "Remember neither of us have jobs right now." I said blandly.
"You have a job. You just almost died in the first week." He reminded. "Yeah, I should call them and tell them I'm ready to come back. I might have been fired though." I said then folded my hands under my chin.
