Zoe’s Pov
I could already feel the pull in my chest, the pull a wolf like myself would feel when they were away from their mate for a large period of time. The separate was never nice I had heard, and from the one rouge mated pair I had come across in my travels they had stated that unless you with them you could never feel whole. I didn’t like the feeling, though I would take it over having him break my heart again gladly.
It had only been three days but it felt like a life-time had passed, the way my wolf would howl and whimper at how we had been treated, yet even so she craved to be loved and accepted by the one we were meant to be destined for.
I sighed as I rubbed my face with my hands, I was sitting in the middle of my small apartment as I felt my breaths come out in short, sharp pants as I thought about the boy who invaded my thoughts constantly. I hadn’t even gotten a good look at him, only that his hazel eyes haunted my dreams and nightmares whether I was a awake or asleep.
I shook my head, never had I felt so weak and out of control and I cursed the bastard who made me feel this way. As if I wanted to be with him anyway, why would I want anything to do with a pack who got pleasure in bullying a young girl who was trying to keep to herself? It was disgusting and I couldn’t believe there alpha had allowed it, then again I knew he was a jerk.
Getting up I stormed into the shower, I had had enough time to lick my wounds and it was about time I went back to face my problems head-on. I would just ignore him, I could do that I thought as I put on a determined expression before getting ready for bed. I would just blank him out, as if he didn’t exist.
The following morning I reluctantly got ready for school, straightened my thick raven hair as I bit my lip nervously as I stared at my reflection. All my previous determination seemed to have run off somewhere last night when I slept, since I was feeling nothing but nervousness as thought of the day ahead of me.
I decided to dress simple today, slipping on grey pleaded skirt which hugged my hips and flared out mid-thigh. I matched it was a black tank-top and a loose cardigan, I wasn’t a slut, it was just wolves tended to run on a high heat meaning wearing thick or a lot of clothes could get extremely uncomfortable. The last thing I needed to add to my list of problems was having a heatstroke in the middle of the day, even if I thought of a few who would probably love to dance on my grave. I shivered at my depressing thought, lovely.
Snorting to myself I slipped on my battered converse before grabbing my bag and music, I had a horrible day ahead of me and I wasn’t exactly raring to go. Throwing some lunch into my bag, not wanting to have to suffer going to the canteen I grabbed my keys and phone before I made my way to the bus stop.
The journey was…irritating to say the least, the looks I got and the whispers was enough to already put a damper on my day. It wasn’t until my phone beeped that I frowned and fumbled to find it, my brows raising when I took note of the fact it was from my brother.
Hey Z, u cumin in 2day?
I huffed as I read it, I couldn’t believe I missed him yesterday. It was the only excuse to why he would be texting me, I mean he must have known that I was at his school now and I couldn’t help but shake my head as I realised how quickly news seemed to spread.
Surprisingly yes, c u there bro
Was my short reply before my put my phone away, the journey was almost over and I couldn’t help but feel my hands start to shake with my nerves as I tried to steady them. I hated how he had me affecting this way, I didn’t even know his name for fucks sake and here I was practically shaking as I tried to settle my nerves before anyone could see me acting weak.
As soon as the bus stopped I again waited until the other rouges got off, the humans on their practically fanning themselves as they stared outside at the male wolves walking around. It wasn’t a secret that we were a good looking race in general, though each of us still had our own unique look about us.
Getting off I breathed in as I scented the hair, feeling a frown forming on my lips as I picked up the scent of my so called mate. My wolf was purring in delight though I couldn’t deal with this so early so I quickly, subtly dashed into the school as I made sure to miss him as I made my way to my first class, god I felt like such a coward.
The first thing I noticed when I walked into English was the stares I got, it confused me some of the reactions I seemed to elicit from them. Some were looking at me with sympathy or pity, I hated pity, while others were looking at me in awe, confusion and jealously…ok what the hell?
I grunted, I know how lady-like, as I made my way to the back corner before dumping down my things, glaring at the teacher who seemed to stare at me nervously. What was it with everyone staring at me?
“Unless you want to feel something akin to breaking bones I suggest you look the fuck away” I snapped after suffering 10 minutes of it, pleased when they flinched and quickly diverted there gazes. I couldn’t help but smirk and roll my eyes, they didn’t even know I could shift and I was scaring the hell out of them. I would have thought them pathetic if I didn’t find it so damn amusing.
As everyone seemed to enter the room, thankfully keeping to themselves I couldn’t help but feel my back straighten as I subtly took in a familiar sent. I had smelt it before, I knew that but I couldn’t place it until my gaze looked with a pair of baby blues as they walked into the room.
“Jack?” I shouted, not caring that I got funny looks or that the students near my flinched at my sudden tone.
I watched as he quickly scanned me over, the other lads who stood next to him doing the scam before quickly diverting their gaze, but it was hard to miss how their eyes widened with realisation. Idiots! I could tell they were most likely the jerks from the other day, my mates so-called mates. Just lovely.
“Z?” he asked stunned, as if I wasn’t sitting directing across the room from him.
“Obviously, how many other girls do you have shouting your name?” I teased causing him to blush, it had been so long since I had seen my bro again. If it hadn’t of been for the extremely familiar sent I remembered I would never had known it was him, how could I when I was kicked out so young.
“Whatever Z, so how you doing?” he asked as he made his way over, it didn’t go past me how the two boys followed his moves and sat on the table in front of us as they did so. I rolled my eyes, protective much.
“Fine, you know…” I answered dismissively with a wave of my hand, it didn’t seem to please him but he stayed quiet. “You?” I asked curiously, it was clear he was part of a pack.
“Oh I mated” he beamed happily, I kept my face blank expect for a slightly forced smile as I felt jealously burn in me. He seemed to noticed and guilt flashed across his face but I quickly answered, he had nothing to feel guilty for.
“Really, so tell me about her. It is a her right?” I asked seriously, trying to keep the mirth from my tone. I heard one of the two boys snort in front of me, rolling my eyes I smirked at Jacks stunned expression. It was strange how well we seemed to be getting on, since we had barely met.
“I’m not gay!” he shouted out a little louder then I think he expected, the class going silent as everyone turned to stare at him.
“Never said you where” I sang as I got out my notebook and pen, a smile on my lips as he flushed at my comment.
“Whatever, anyway her names Chloe and…” he trailed off, my grin never leaving my face as he explained and talked animatedly about how they met. She seemed like a nice girl and I quickly took him up on his offer to meet her at lunch, she may be a rouge but he was still her brother and she was curious about his life.
“Zoe…” Jack stated carefully, looking at me with a look which I knew meant whatever he was going to say I wasn’t going to like it. I narrowed my eyes at him, the use of my full name also adding to my suspicions that I had to brace myself for the worst.
“What?” I asked bluntly, keeping my tone flat as I kept my emotions detached. I knew, I just knew it was going to be about my jerk of a mate and when he opened his mouth my train of thought was confirmed…
“Look just give him a chance Zoe, he is a really nice guy when you get to know him” Jack pleaded, truthfully I knew he just wanted his so called alpha off his back.
“If you think he’s so nice then you date him” I sneered as I looked to the front, I couldn’t believe he was bringing that piece of shit up. My wolf was pleading with me to listen, to find and track down my mate and submit to him. I scoffed at my thoughts, like I would do that. He may have hurt me deeply, but other than that I was trying to keep my emotions locked away. I had been successful in doing so over the years, but even thinking about his deep hazel eyes made me want to both want melt or punch something.
I heard the two in front of me scoff, the fact they weren’t even trying to hide the fact that they were eavesdropping only infuriating me further. I closed my eyes; the last thing I wanted was for anyone to catch a glimpse of my eyes flashing dangerously.
“Please Zoe, he’s not been himself” Jack mumbled, trying to keep his voice down as he registered the fact he had upset me with his comment. I felt my hands clench and unclench under the table, deep breaths Zoe, you can’t lose it here….
“I do not care how the twat feels” I hissed out though gritted teeth, opening my now clear eyes as I connected on the desk table before I jumped slightly when a set of fists smashed down on my desk.
Looking up I was met with a blazing pair of blue eyes, my face remaining blank as whoever it was glared in my direction. I sneered, it was nothing to do with him so why was he getting involved.
“Josh leave it” I heard Jack warn, it was meant to be low enough for me not to hear, but hey they still didn’t know I was a shifter so I kept my face blank as if I hadn’t even seen their lips move.
“Why should I? She may be your sister but she’s a selfish bitch” he hissed angrily, I got the impression that he didn’t get along with rouges well. I tilted my head to the side, I doubt he realised he had raised his voice and some of the closer students looking in his direction. I could see they were shocked, I sighed.
“Great going idiot, now it will be around the whole school” I glared, hearing the bell ring I quickly gathered my things and legged it out of class before I done something that would give me away. It was hard enough to hide my scent constantly with me being angry as well. I left scowling, seeing my jerk of a mate in my line of sight as my anger and annoyance continued to consume me….what had i done to deserve this kind of bad luck?