A/N: Jenna x Reader
Don't be mad at me, okay? Just... Just don't be mad at me, 'kay?
Thank you, I love you all - mommy
Also, part of this is from another fanfic but I can't seem to find it, so, just so you know towards the end is part of a fanfic and not entirely my idea. Shout out to them <3
⚠️TW⚠️: Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Old Granny who needs to go away.
HERE WE GO! <3
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Jenna's POV:
I really can't believe it, I feel so euphoric. I can't believe Y/n loves me, I mean she really loves me— don't get me wrong, I love her. Of course, I love her. How could I not love her? But I didn't think that she would or could ever love me.
I'm at the office at the moment and I notice Y/n step outside, her hand is resting on her stomach as she begins to head to the bathroom. I feel my shoulders fall, she normally looks over at me even if it just to smile but she didn't do that.
I get up but as I do, I notice Becky looking at me with a smirk.
"Something's wrong, shut up." I say to her, quietly, making her chuckle softly as she continues to go back to work, I go into the bathroom and I see Y/n looking at herself in the mirror. She sighs but then looks at me through the mirror.
"Oh, hi darling." She greets me, turning to me. I notice her lean in, not caring if anyone sees. I smile and lean in, kissing her, she kisses me back and pulls after a moment. I can't get enough of her kisses, they are so addicting.
"What's wrong, love? You looked so upset walking here." I express to her, she sighs and rests her forehead against mines.
"My gran is pressuring me about the wedding between me and Tyler." Y/n informs me, I feel my shoulders fall and I immediately begin to feel guilty.
"Oh," I let out softly, she nods her head and rests her forehead on my shoulder, sighing. "I... What can I do to help?"
"I don't know, my love, I'm really scared." She confesses to me, I rub her back softly and kiss her head.
"I know." I reply, softly. "I know." I repeat, resting my hand on her back and rubbing her back to hopefully comfort her.
*****
It's my day off and I place a kiss on Y/n's lips as she gets ready to leave,
"I'm going to miss you." I hear Y/n say, kissing all over my face repeatedly which makes me smile widely. I accept the kisses, feeling loved.
"You're so cute, thank you." I thank her, placing a short kiss on her lips that she returns.
"Remember, call Mark if you need too and do whatever. I'll be home at 6." She informs me, I nod my head lightly and she begins to leave. I watch as the door opens and then shuts, the door being locked. I head upstairs and go for a shower first.
Time to have a relaxing day.
***
I'm on my laptop, going through my emails and answering a few just so I have less to work with over time and I see an email from my dad. It says,
"Dear Jenna,
I hope you don't mind but I found a really good job for you here in London, the pay is good and will really benefit you. I signed you up for it and I gave them your email! Hopefully you get it. I applied for you a few days ago, so, you should get a reply soon.
Good luck <3
From Dad."
You're kidding me...
I hear another alert go off and see it must be from the job— Oh my god, I got accepted... I read over what it is offering me and it's everything that I want and more. The pay really is good and what it's offering is something... amazing.
***
I hear the door unlock and open, I smile and sit up. Turning to see Y/n. I watch as her gran steps inside and she shuts the door, I immediately freeze. Feeling myself completely stuck in my position. She gasps, looking at me.
"Who the hell are you?" I hear her ask me, I freeze.
"H—H—Hi... Miss L/n." I greet her, nervously. She gasps, resting her hand over her heart.
"I know who you are." She states, sounding furious at me. I raise an eyebrow, confused.
"You... You do?" I ask, scared and panicked. My heart is beating a million miles per second, my legs are begin to shake and it's getting hard to hold myself up. My hands are shaking and I can't get them to stop.
"You're the girl that Tyler is cheating on Y/n with." She angrily says, nodding her head lightly. "I just know it." She adds, shaking her head. "Come with me, right now." She orders, beginning to turn right and over toward the dinner table. I follow after her, pulling out her chair for her yet she sits on another chair. I let my shoulders fall and sit in the chair I pulled out. "I can't believe it," I hear her say softly, shaking her head. "Tyler cheating on Y/n... and with you."
"I..." I try to think of what to say yet nothing comes to mind, she is looking at me expectantly, as if I should have an apology or something. "I... I am truly sorry, M—Miss L/n. I—I actually found out about—about they're relationship recently so I came over to, uh, to break it up with him." I confess to her, she raises an eyebrow,
"Is that so?" She asks, suspiciously. I nod my head.
"Yes, Miss. Yes, it—it is. I am truly and very deeply sorry for the pain that your daughter is going to be in. I didn't realise that he was simply taken and—" The door opens and I immediately panic even more,
"Hey, I'm home." I hear Y/n shout to me, "Baby, where are you—?" She pauses, glancing up from her phone and then up at me, her face unsettling when she sees her grandmother. "Gran?" I hear her ask,
"'Baby'?" Her grandmother asks, angrily. Her eyes practically filling with rage. She looks at me and my head falls down, I look at my thighs and don't meet her eyes.
***
"You! Practically my daughter! You are unfaithful! I knew that something was going on, I should've done something. I should've known that this happened!" Her grandmother shouts at both me and Y/n, glancing between us with much anger before her eyes land on me and her eyes fill with rage, "And you! What is wrong with you?! Sleeping with a married woman?"
"I'm not married, grandmother—"
"—Oh, hush! You practically are!" She argues, Y/n stays silent and sighs. She looks at her then at me, I look into her eyes and I notice her begin to stand up, she runs her hand through her hair and I'm on the other end of the table now.
It's me and Y/n on one side, Y/n now in the middle, running her hand through her hair and adjusting her glasses that look so attractive on her, and her grandmother on the other end.
"Grandmother, I love this woman, okay? She has made me so happy and I don't want to marry Tyler and he doesn't want to marry me! It wouldn't be fair—" Her grandmother begins to shake her head, "Shake your head if you want, I know that you don't approve of us and fine! If that's what you really want then maybe you should leave." She shouts at her, her grandmother raises her eyebrow and looks at her disapprovingly.
"I'm sorry?"
"Yes, you should be! You should be sorry because you made me incapable of being able to express my emotions or even feel any emotions and the person who helped me regain being able to do that was that beautiful, amazing, talented, hardworking, and dedicated woman behind me. So, please, for the love of god, will you just accept the fact that I am gay and I am happy?" She angrily expresses to her, her grandmother stands up and slaps her, the slap echoes around the room and Y/n clenches her jaw, not saying anything.
"How dare you disrespect me? After everything— everything!" She shouts, loudly. Her voice echoing louder than the slap which makes Y/n flinch. "I did for you, you decide to disrespect me?! Your own grandmother—?!" She gasps, resting her hand over her heart, her hand immediately resting on the back of a chair, Y/n turns to her, tears running down her cheeks.
"Wh—?" Her gran falls to the floor and she gasps, quickly scurrying to try and hear her heartbeat. "Gran? Gran, wake up! Gran, wake up— shit, Jenna call an ambulance!" She pleads, I stand there in panic, "Je—Jenna, help me! Help me, please, oh my god." She lets out a small sob and rests her head on her chest, before removing her hand, "Oh—Oh, fuck, fuck, fuck!" She progressively screams through heavy breaths, "Shit." I hear her say, sobbing and trying to resuscitate her. I call an ambulance and tell them everything, Y/n sobbing and trying to get her heartbeat back. The paramedics soon come and they take her away, Y/n going with her.
***
I arrive at the hospital along with Y/n's friends and my family, they all immediately bombard me with questions, panicking, worrying.
"Woah, woah, I... I can't understand what everyone's saying." I express to everyone, "One—One at a time." I plead, I see Y/n walk down the hall toward all of us.
"Y/n, there you are." I hear Maeve say softly, resting her hand on her back.
"Are you okay?"
"What happened?"
"Do you need something?"
"I'm so sorry, Miss L/n." I hear my dad apologise, Y/n lightly grabs my wrist and directs me away from everyone else, her standing outside. She goes over to the nearest bin and throws up, I hold her hair back and rub her back.
"Shit, are you okay? What's wrong, love?" I ask her, speaking softly and rubbing her back. She holds her chest and lets out a small sob, turning to me and clinging onto me. I rub her back and try to comfort her. "Shh, it's okay. Everything's gonna be okay, I'm here. I'm always here for you." I express to her,
"She... She's in surgery— heart... heart surgery. She's had heart problems and she didn't tell me." She says through a sob, I feel my heart ache for her and immediately feel bad that all of this is happening to her.
"How can I make this better for you, my love?" I ask her, rubbing her back and comforting her as she sobs.
"I don't... I don't know." She answers, letting out a choked sob and clinging onto me. I continue to hold her and rub her back, letting her know that I'm always here for you.
***
Y/n's POV:
They finally let me go see her as she's out of surgery and I'm in the room, I'm holding her hand and when I look up at her, I see her beginning to wake up. I sit up, excitedly.
"Gran? Gran, are you okay?" I ask her, sitting on the bed and still holding her hand. I watch as her eyes flutter open and she smiles softly,
"Y/n, my dear..." She lets out softly, holding onto my hand with a weak grip. "I need to say something to you."
"What is it?" I ask, softly. Hoping that it's her changing her mind. Hoping that she wants me to be happy and let's me be with Jenna, openly.
"I am..." She lets out a soft breath, "I am not getting any younger," She confesses, "and I made the mistake of having a baby at 15 and I didn't want you or your mother to go through that but she did, and I want you to have a good life. Unlike your mothers." She continues onto express to me, "I've always wanted to do right by you, you've always listened to me— you've... you've always been the rational one." She continues onto say, my eyes glance between eyes.
"Gran—"
"—Please, do this for me, my love." She pleads with me, my mouth falls open in shock and I can't believe what I'm hearing. She still wants me to go through with it...
"Gran, I... I really like her. Like so much. She has brought me so much happiness and I can't believe that I ever got so lucky to find her," I confess, letting out a small breath of shock. "she makes me think that I can love her someday and... and I want you to be on board with that. I really do." I continue onto confess, hearing the heartbeat machine begin to pick up. Her breath hitching and I begin to panic. I glance around and see Jenna, waiting for me. I turn back to my gran and see her looking at me, pleadingly. "But if you want me to marry him... if you'll still love and accept me... I... I will marry Tyler." I comply, seeing her eyes soften and her heartbeat go back to normal, she squeezes my hand and smiles softly.
"T... Thank you, my dear." I hear her thank me, I send her a small untruthful smile.
"No... No problem." I reply softly, we begin to discuss it and she is already making me email people and call people to set it up a week next month. "I, uh, I've been wearing the same clothes for a long time, I'm gonna go home and change— I'll be right back." I assure her, she nods her head lightly.
"Hurry back, deary." She tells me, I nod my head and get up, leaving the room. I open the door and immediately begin to leave, heading home.
***
Jenna's POV:
I hear a door open and as I remove the suitcase off of the bed, I hear my name being called. I let my shoulders fall and sigh, I didn't think that I had to deal with her. I really didn't. I thought that I could escape and it would be easy, but it isn't. I don't want to hurt her but it's quite clear what she wants. What she can't do just yet.
"Jenna, where are you?" I hear Y/n call on me, sounding panicked. I open the door and the suitcase rolls behind me, I walk down the corridor and she looks up at me from the bottom of the stairs. "Wh...?" She lowers a step, onto the ground. "Where're you going?" I hear her ask me, sheepishly.
"I think it's best if I go, Y/n." I express to her, noticing her shoulders sink for a moment.
"But... Why? What happened?" She asks me, beginning to walk up the stairs. "What happened, my love? Let me fix it—"
"—No—"
"—I can, let me fix it, I'm gonna make sure that everything will be okay for us—"
"—Y/n, my love—"
"—No, I promise. Give me one more day—"
"—Y/n." I state, softly, feeling my heart break in two. "We can't." I deny, shaking my head. "People still don't allow two women to get married, so, what's the point?"
"Marriage is just a piece of paper, it doesn't mean anything—"
"—It means something to me." I correct, seeing her step back for a moment. "It means commitment, commitment to that person and that person only. To not bail, to not cheat, to not lie, and to make mistakes together, to trust one another, to love and take care of one another." I express to her, seeing her begin to walk up to me, stepping closer.
"So, then let me. Let me do that. I will take care of you, I will do all that you ask for. Just..." She sighs, softly. "Don't leave me, please, Jenna." I hear her plead, softly. I don't want to do this but I have too, it hurts too much for her to leave me and it hurts too much for me to watch her marry someone else, even if it is fake. I can't take it. I wouldn't be able to handle it. "Jenna?" I hear her ask softly, I clench my jaw, letting my head drop, she holds my face in her hands and lifts my head up. "Look at me, my love." She pleads with me to do, I look into her eyes. Those expressive eyes that I love so much. "Let me fix it," I hear her say, her bottom lip quivering for a moment and a tiny tear fall down her left cheek, "please." She pleads with me,
"It's not a good idea." I state, softly. Wiping my tears away and removing my head from her hands. She looks at me, hurt and I can practically see her beginning to break at any moment. "I think we need to break up." I confess to her, her eyes soften and she immediately begins to shake her head.
"No. I... No. No, that's... that's not going to happen. What about our plans? We haven't..." She shakes her head and lets out a soft breath, her breath hitching afterwards. "We haven't gotten to do everything we wanted too." She tells me, resting her forehead against mines, I rest my hands on her cheeks, feeling my heart-beating fast as if I'm about to pass out. I'm so stressed, so scared— terrified, even. But she made her choice so, I'm choosing mine.
"I think we need to break up." I announce to her, noticing her shoulders deflate even more,
"But... But why?" She lets out, softly. "We didn't do anything wrong." She adds, her voice delicate and light.
"Y/n—" I begin, resting my hand on her forearm, my fingers stroking her forearm.
"—No, why? Why... Why should we?" Y/n asks me, stepping close to me, I back away from her. Letting go of the suitcase.
"You know why," I state, softly. "you can't betray your grandmother. I know that." I say to her, understandingly. "And I'm not mad at you for that, I'm really not. But Y/n..." I begin, noticing tears begin to form in her eyes. "I can't watch you go marry someone else— I can't." I deny, shaking my head.
"Please— No, Jenna, please. We... We can make this work." I hear her plead, resting her forehead against mine, holding me close to her. I wrap my arms around her and lean into her, my eyes glancing between hers.
"We can't." I say, softly.
"Why not? I promise, I... I'll do anything, I swear, please just... let's just talk this out." She attempts to plead with me, I shake my head softly.
"I can't," I deny, my voice breaking. "I got a job offer in London and... and I've been meaning to talk to you about it—"
"—What?" I hear her ask, removing her forehead against mines. "What do—? What do you mean?" She asks me, tilting her head softly.
"I have a job offer in London, I... I've been waiting for the right moment to discuss it with you but I... I suppose it's already been made." I express to her, she shakes her head, multiple tears falling down her cheeks.
"But... But we can work this out, Jenna, please. Let's just talk—"
"—I will always love you, Y/n. But I can't do it." I express to her, seeing her step back a moment, her eyes fall and she moves out of my way. "I can't do long distance." I inform her, shaking my head.
"But... But what about me? I can't... I can't leave my gran like this and I can't leave my business, Tyler would have to take over and he doesn't know half the stuff I do." She explains, panicking. I place a kiss on her head and glance between her eyes.
"Then... I think life has made our choices for us. What we're supposed to do." I express to her, she goes to deny it but I shake my head, speaking over her. "I... I'm sorry, Y/n." I apologise to her, sincerely.
"I just..." She sighs, letting out a soft exhale. "I hurt... so much." She confesses to me, letting multiple tears fall down her cheeks, she sniffles, wiping them away. "This was the first thing I've felt is real in a while and... and I... I messed that up as well." She says, I feel my heart begin to yearn for her. I don't want to leave her but I can't watch her marry someone else. I can't do it, and I don't want to make her choose between me and someone she's care for her entire life. I don't want to make her choose.
I step close to her and rest my hand on her cheek, wiping away her tears. I move my hand down to under her chin and lift her head up, I place one last kiss on her lips. Putting everything I have into the kiss, her kissing me back. Leaning into me and I feel myself stumble against the banister, softly. Y/n's hands on either side of me, her body against mines. Kissing me so intently, passionately, lovingly. The kiss is everything that I could want from her. Yet, I know that when the time comes, it will be her gran. It will always be her gran.
I pull away from the kiss, immediately turning my head in case she tries to kiss me again which I know she would try to attempt. After a moment, I turn back to her and send her my best smile that I can muster up.
"I better go." I say, my voice hoarse and coming out in a whisper. I move her hand and grab my suitcase, walking downstairs and leaving. I glance back and see her crying on the steps. My heart drops and I leave, beginning to go to the nearest bus stop. I call my mom and ask her to pick me up.
*****
It's been a week and I miss Y/n so much, she's been trying to text me as well as Dina, Shay and Maeve. They've all been trying to contact me, Y/n even showed up at my house and my parents talked to her for a few moments but I didn't leave my room. I couldn't do it. I really couldn't. I want Y/n, I want her so bad. I really do. But I can't fully have her. She'll still legally be Tyler's and I can't deal with that. It's selfish I know. Plus, I don't even know why I told her about the internship, it's two months away and even then, I can't handle long-distance relationships. It hurts too much.
I hear a knock on my door and then a voice, one that I want to hear always. One that always comforts me.
"Jenna, it's... it's me." I hear Y/n say, softly. "Please, can I just come in? I really need to see you." She expresses softly, I don't move as I feel completely and utterly frozen. I don't know what to do, and I don't know what I'm going to do. I hear the door open and I can feel Y/n's eyes pierce into mines. "I know that you've given up on us, and I get it. I do, I understand it all but please, can we at least try to talk it out?" I hear her ask me, I manage to muster up the energy to turn around and I bring my pillow with me, hugging into it. I notice her sigh softly, I feel so small compared to her. Not in a bad way, in a way of how much she takes care of me. She shuts the door behind herself and sits down on my bed, "Can we please talk?" She asks me, I nod my head lightly.
"I guess." I let out softly, she nods her head softly. Sighing. She glances around before looking at me, again.
"Come on, my love, please come home." She pleads with me, beginning to rest her head in front of mines. She moves a strand behind my ear, "We can figure it out. If you really want to go to London, I will visit all the time—"
"—No." I reply, shaking my head. "I don't want visits all the time." I deny,
"It's the best I can do—"
"—Please, just..." I sigh, shaking my head, wanting to turn around but I feel Y/n cuddle into me from behind.
"Please, Jenna." I hear her plead softly with me, she kisses my shoulder. "I can't do this without you." She tells me, I feel myself begin to break. I clench my jaw and don't say anything. She soon removes her arms from mine and I pretend to be asleep, tears falling down my cheek but I dig my head into the pillow to try hide my tears from her. I begin to hug myself, feeling myself being cold. I hear some shuffling and something being tucked around me, I immediately know it's a hoodie of hers. My god, my love, please just go, my heart can't take it. My heart is so full of you that it scares me, I have to leave. "I—I... I love you." I hear her say, through heavy breaths then a small sob, the door opens then closes and I immediately begin to quietly sob. Hearing her leave my house a few minutes later.
My heart can't take this.
*****
I blocked her, I couldn't deal with the messages and I also blocked her on social media. I don't want to see anything and I don't want to see any of her messages. It'll hurt way too much for me and I can't deal with that. I get a call and look to see that it's from Dina, I sigh, answering.
"Hello—?"
"—Jenna, we need to talk." I hear Dina say, "I'll send you the address but it's important." she says to me, I sit up.
"What? What's wrong?"
"Come quick." I hear her say, the call drops and I immediately put my shoes on and put Y/n's hoodie on, I leave and my mom drives me to the address. It's a restaurant and I glance around and see Shay.
"There you are, are you okay?" I hear Shay ask me, immediately hugging me. I hug her back and sigh softly. Shaking my head.
"No," I deny, softly. Shaking my head and wanting to cry. "I just... I can't believe it all happened. I didn't think... I didn't think she would want to go through with getting married to Tyler." I express to her, hearing Shay sigh softly and rub my back.
"I'm so sorry." I hear Shay apologise to me, I shake my head lightly and she removes her arms from me and directs me to the table, I see Dina and Maeve. Both immediately hugging me. Shay joining in again.
"We're so sorry."
"I'm sorry that our dumb friend did this." I hear Maeve apologise to me, I shake my head lightly and once they pull away, we all sit down.
"It's my fault too. I... I got a job offer in London and obviously my dad is there, so... I'm thinking of taking it." I confess to them all, seeing them glance at one another.
"What?"
"What do you mean 'job offer'?" Dina asks me, her shoulders deflating.
"My dad, he mentioned a job offer and he applied for me, I didn't ask him too. He was... trying to do something nice, I suppose. I got in though and I was going to talk to Y/n about it, but..." I hesitate to continue and I feel Shay's hand rub my back, "but then everything else happened and... and I guess I'm going to London in over a month." I explain to them, hoping for them to be somewhat excited.
"Oh," I hear Maeve let out softly. "when... wait, you're going in a month?" She asks, shocked. I nod my head, lightly.
"I have to go."
"Jenna, we—we love you and we'll support you but..." Dina begins, continuously glancing at everyone else then back at me, "but are you sure you want to leave?"
"I can't see her marry someone else. It's ingenuine and it'll hurt me too much." I express to them, intently. "It won't be right and I... I don't think that I can hide my love for her. Plus, the rule, remember?"
"It's a dumb rule." Shay says, with distaste. "Even she didn't like the rule but she created it anyway. Plus, I think we all know that this isn't some dumb rule, Jenna. Seriously." Shay continues onto say, I look at her, knowing that she's right. "Is it about her grandmother?" She asks, I hesitate but nod my head. "What're you so afraid off?"
"Y/n's had her grandmother with her through every step of her life, I waltzed into her life a couple of months ago. I don't want to make her pick. It would be rude of me to ask her to choose me over her gran who has been with her through so much." I express to them, glancing between all of them then looking at the table. "I can't do that to her." I add, shaking my head and clinging onto her hoodie. Sighing softly.
I miss her, so much...
*****
Y/n's POV:
I... I can't believe it. I've given up, I'm giving up. I can't do it anymore, my heartbreaks too much whenever I see her or hear about her from my friends. I seriously can't handle it, every single time that I hear her name, it makes my heart skip a beat and it makes me panic. I have so much anxiety about her name. I don't want to see her, I know that if I do, I won't go through with the marriage and this is what this is all about.
If she doesn't want to be in this relationship anymore, if she's given up on this relationship now... I... I have to accept it. I have to allow myself to accept it. I just need to heal first. I'm at dinner with my grandmother and Tyler is across from me, it's a long table so she is at the very end and me and Tyler are on the other end of the table.
"This is a very good steak, isn't it, Y/n?" I hear my grandmother ask me, I ignore however, not answering. I'm simply just playing with my food, not wanting to eat. "Y/n?" I hear her call on me,
"Love?" I hear Tyler call on me, softly. I look over at him and he glances at my grandmother then at me, I wipe my mouth with a cloth and then set it on the table,
"I'm very tired, I've worked hard today. I'm going to go home." I inform everyone, grabbing my keys and feeling very dizzy as soon as I stand up, I feel so sick and it's because I'm stressed. I know this as whenever I get overly stressed or overwhelmed, it makes me physically ill.
"Here, let me at least direct you to the car." I hear my grandmother say, I begin to pick up my speed in walking.
"It's fine, I'll see you tomorrow." I inform her, quickly opening and shutting the door behind me. I walk toward my car and get in, I put the keys in the engine and pull out of her driveway, I begin to drive— no, fuck it, I'm not going home. I'm not going to Jenna's, she quite clearly doesn't want to see me, I'm just going to drive and drive till I want to go home.
Gosh, my mind is a mess...
*****
It's been two weeks and apparently Jenna has been trying to get in contact with me as she's finally ready but I'm not ready anymore, I can't face her and I definitely don't want too. Plus, today, me and Tyler are going to be doing a pre-wedding photoshoot. Him in his suit and me in a dress. It's not my wedding dress but it's a dress, nonetheless. So, it still counts.
I'm getting my make up done and my grandmother is talking my ear off about things that we need to do, I'm really not looking forward to the stress of any of this. The only excitement I have is getting away from my grandmother for two weeks for our 'honeymoon' but even then, my excitement's drained as I was going to fly Tyler's boyfriend out and Jenna out, yet Tyler's boyfriend's still coming and I have no one.
I hate how things have gone back to usual.
"I am just going to go to the bathroom, really quickly." I hear my grandmother inform me, I don't say anything to her in reply, simply stare at myself in the mirror. I feel her hand rest on my shoulder and I flinch, thankfully, it didn't cause too much stress for the artists but my grandmother immediately removed her hand and I can tell she was upset by movement. I hear my phone begin to ring and I see it's a call from Dina, I answer,
"Hello?" I answer the call,
"Hey, you. How're you today?" I hear Dina ask me, calmly. I sigh softly.
"Exhausted, tired, drained, I want to hide under my covers for the rest of my life." I confess, truthfully to Dina. I can tell it means a lot to her though as she doesn't say anything for a moment before beginning to say,
"I'm sorry you feel like that, if I can assure you in anyway, I know that Jenna is doing the same thing." Dina tries to sympathise with me yet my heart only races faster, I feel like I'm going to pass out at any moment because of how fast my heart is beating. "She wants to see you, you know." I hear her say, I take a sharp inhale in.
"I have to go." I announce to her, removing my phone near my ear and I hang up. Setting it on my lap and bringing my feet to a pole nearby, having my knees close to my chest.
"Y/n, sit properly." I hear my grandmother tell me off, yet I ignore her demand. She sighs and shakes her head, sitting beside me. "Can I have a moment alone—?"
"—No, I need to get this done. Me and Tyler need to get the photos done." I answer in reply, "Continue." I say, bluntly. I haven't looked my grandmother in the eyes since she manipulated me.
Wanna know how she manipulated me? I found out that she took extra medication that will damage her heart, she fucking staged it. She staged it all. The panic, the surgery, everything. She did all of that just to make sure that I would marry Tyler. I can't believe her. I seriously can't fucking believe her.
Jenna's POV:
I sigh when hearing the line drop, I look at Dina, Shay, and Maeve.
"This is hopeless, she isn't going to see me or ever talk to me again." I complain, letting my shoulders fall and my heart immediately stop. "What am I going to do?" I ask them, beginning to sob.
"Aw, honey."
"Aw, I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry, love." I hear them all say over one another and begin to comfort me,
What do I do?
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I got a text from Dina, Maeve, and Shay to meet her at a specific food place and I'm nearby so I make my way there, it looks really nice. I hear that it has a beautiful garden, maybe we can go into the garden. That'll be fun. I glance around and see Dina, Maeve, and Shay sitting down at a table outside, they beckon me over, shushing me as well. I glance around and walk over, sitting down at the empty chair.
"What's going on, guys?" I ask them all, I feel Shay pull me closer to her and she points over in a certain direction, I look at where she's looking and I see Tyler and Y/n. Tyler is in a beautiful black suit that really makes him look so handsome while Y/n is in a beautiful white dress, beautiful curly layered hair and I can't help but fall immediately in love with her all over again.
She looks so beautiful.
"You have to go see her." Dina tells me, I glance over at her and she sends me a small nod.
"If you don't, it could all end bad for everybody, Jenna. Come on, you have to go see her." Maeve tells me, speaking with sincerity and conviction. I look at Shay and she sends me a smile, resting her hand on my cheek.
"You've got this, little butterfly. Go fly." She cheers me on, I sigh and nod my head.
"Thanks for telling me everyone." I thank them all,
"No problem, love." Maeve replies, sending me a comforting smile.
"No problem, honey." I hear Dina reply, quietly.
"Knock 'em dead, butterfly." I hear Shay say to me, making me smile. The smile might've only lasted a few seconds but it was a real, genuine smile. Something that I haven't been able to do for the last 3 weeks since everything went down. I stand up and I head over, going to step onto the bridge but I watch the moment her eyes glance away from the camera and to me.
Her eyes soften, her eyes blink repeatedly and I notice her arm fall from Tyler's waist. I watch her every movement, watching her stunningly beautiful body as she walks toward me, saying something to both Tyler and the photographer. She steps onto the bridge and I step onto it after her, meeting her in the middle. I can't help but smile and my eyes admire every single thing about her, it's like I take a mental picture in my brain. I look into her eyes and tilt my head softly, smiling.
"You look... divine." I compliment her, she stares into my eyes and glances between both my pupils.
"What're you doing here, Jenna?" She asks me, speaking softly. Her voice is hoarse and I notice that she looks a lot thinner than usual. Has she been eating?
"I... Well, uh... you—you wouldn't believe it. Your friends, they told me to come here." I inform her, glancing back in their direction and seeing them lower their heads, trying to hide. I hear Y/n chuckle softly and when I turn back to her, she is shaking her head yet a tiny smile is on her face.
"They are such idiots." She says, continuing to shake her head for another few seconds before she stops. "I'm... an idiot too." She expresses to me, I shake my head, stepping closer to her.
"No, no, you're not. I should've told you about it." I express to her, sincerely.
"No, I'm..." She takes a deep breath in, stepping back from me. "You were right, it was never going to work out." She agrees, looking down at the floor and I can tell she doesn't mean it. Everyone has a tell and her tell is, looking down at the floor and then adjusting her hair by either running her hand through it or fixing a strand of her hair. Her now running her hand through her hair and clearing her throat. "So, are you still doing the London thing?" She asks me, I nod my head lightly.
"Yeah. Yeah, still doing the London thing." I answer in reply, "I leave in 2 weeks, tomorrow." I inform her, stepping closer to her and notice her take in the sudden closeness that we now have, "You can still change your mind, Y/n. I promise, just say it." I express to her, pleadingly and speaking quietly. I notice her eyes glance between mines then her look down at her engagement ring, she sighs, letting her shoulders fall. She swallows the lump in her throat.
"I..." She stutters, looking up at me and a tear falling down her cheek. "I'm really scared, Jenna." She confesses to me, I feel my shoulders fall.
"Oh, darling," I let out softly, resting my right hand on her right cheek and wiping away the tear, "why?" I ask her,
"Because you're leaving me." She answers in reply, "I have always been left, in one way or another. My parents? Dead. My oldest sister, ran away. My middle sister, dead. I am... I'm scared and I thought that with you things would be different but..." She hesitates to continue on and I rest my forehead against hers, stroking her cheekbone. "I'm sorry, my love." She apologises, sincerely, hesitating to continue before she says, "But I think this is for the best." She adds, I shake my head and feel my body melt against hers.
"Please, don't do this." I plead with her, she removes her forehead against mines and steps away from me.
"I have too," She tells me, "she is my family. I have to make her proud of me." She adds on, I feel my heart completely break at her words. Oh, my love, you have it all wrong. You don't have to make her proud of you, she should already be proud of you. She steps away from me and turns around, she goes to move but I wrap my arms around her waist, holding her contently.
"You don't have to make anyone proud of you, my love." I whisper into her ear, softly. "Me? I will always be proud of you no matter what you do. Your grandmother should feel the same, no matter what you do, what you choose, what you want, and what you decide." I explain to her, her not even turning her head to look at me but I feel her body melt more into mines. "Continue to shine bright, my love. I will go back to admiring you from afar." I inform her, feeling her shoulders tense and I place a small kiss on her shoulder then drag my hands from her stomach to her waist, then letting go of her one last time. I step away and turn around, walking away. I glance back, seeing her begin to sob and Tyler rushes over to her, hugging her.
I'm sorry, my love. But you wanted this, you are choosing this and I can no longer fight for you.
I hear an alert on my phone and look down at the screen to see an email from a company that looks familiar— What the fuck?
I read over the email, it's a job offer and I have to be honest. It's pretty much the same offer but a little less money. When I say less, I'm talking about a dollar more in London, the only thing that is different is that I would have to move to London and for the job offer here, it's... well, here.
I read the company name and repeatedly read it before realising. It's one of Dina's companies, I knew she was up to something...
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Y/n's POV:
I'm staring at my watch and I can tell that Jenna is on her way to the airport, I can't believe it. I can't believe it. I can't believe that she is leaving. She's going to London, she really is going. I should at least say goodbye, right—? Fuck it, I'm saying goodbye.
I immediately run over to my key hanger, grabbing my car keys. I unlock my door and open it, aggressively. I step outside, slamming it shut and quickly locking it. I rush to get in my car and quickly pull out of my driveway, speeding down the road and out of my street then putting my seatbelt on.
I know that Dina, Maeve, and Shay are driving Jenna to the airport. I have to try and reach them, try to let them know that I'm on my way. I press call and press the speaker, waiting for Shay to pick up the phone. Shay is the most reliable answer out of the three of them. I annoyingly can't call Jenna as she blocked me... or I blocked her... I actually think we blocked each other.
But it was a mistake, all of it has been a mistake.
After what feels like an hour of driving, I park nearby and rush inside the terminal that I know she will be at. I see Dina, Maeve, and Shay.
"Guys! Guys, there you are!" I call after them, I notice Maeve turn around and I immediately see her expression, I slow down and glance between them.
"Y/n—?"
"—What're you doing here—?"
"—What're you—?"
"—Jenna. Where is she?" I ask them, they all glance at one another, beginning to look upset for me. "Come on, where is she?" I ask them again,
"I..." Dina tries to speak, "She's gone." She informs me, I feel my shoulders fall and my heartbreaks.
I missed it. I missed... her...
Fuck! Fuck me, fuck my life, fuck! I fucking missed my chance.
10 YEARS LATER
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A/N: Nah, I'm kidding, I'll give you a little more.
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Jenna's POV:
I'm typing on my laptop and answering multiple emails, I hear my phone ringing and I glance at the phone and continue to type, wanting to finish this email very quickly. When you type for a long time, you learn to type really fast. I've managed to go from 40 words per minute to 72 words per minute. So, I'm really proud of myself.
Once I finish and send the email, I pick up the phone and answer,
"Hello, welcome to Marshbooks Writing, my name is Jenna, how can I help you?" I ask the other person on the line, waiting for a response.
"Well, if it isn't Jenna Marie Ortega." I hear Dina's voice say to me, I immediately begin to smile.
"Dina." I say, softly.
"Oh, you remember me? I thought you would've forgotten when you cut ties with us all." I hear her say, picking up on her bitter voice. I let out a small sigh, letting my shoulders fall.
"I'm sorry, Dina." I apologise, sincerely.
"I know you and Y/n broke up, but did you seriously have to break up with me, Maeve, and Shay?" She asks me, sounding hurt. I immediately feel guilt wash over me.
"I'm sincerely sorry, Dina. I thought the best way to forget that place was to cut ties from everyone." I express to her, "However, that didn't work. I really miss you all, I want to come home to visit soon. I could maybe set something up? We can all meet up if you're not too busy?" I ask her, hoping that she will at least accept my request.
"You seriously have no idea what's going on, do you?" I hear Dina ask me, I begin to look curious and confused. I know she can't see me but still, I feel really confused.
"No, what's going on?" I ask, confused.
"Jenna, Tyler died." I hear Dina say those three words and immediately feel guilt wash over me. My heart drops and I immediately begin to worry for Y/n. Is she okay? Is she going to be okay? Should I go see her?
"I'm coming home." I state, sternly. Immediately hanging up and looking at flights. I can't let her be alone in a moment of grief, I just can't.
I have to see her...
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Now, the chapter is done ahaha, I hope you all enjoyed <3