people think i'm just being edgy when i say i wanna cut myself, when i say i wanna die, hahaahhahaahah i'm not. i just don't do that shit cause 1. if someone catches me i don't wanna deal with the backlash 2. what if killing myself goes wrong, like what if all i manage to do is paralyze myself, i've done the research and seriously considered signing up for VAD (voluntary assisted dying) of course i'll need to wait awhile but like what reason do i have to keep going.
here are my reasons to keep living
1. oh shit move on to number 2
2. there's none
i get attached to people at seemingly random intervals, i'm clingy to those i like, i've only had 1 romantic attraction in the past 6 years (and who i must add she had a boyfriend), i can't hold a normal conversations with new people so it's virtually impossible to make new friends and meet new people, i can't just fit in, oh and to top that off i'm apart of the alphabet people jk jk (i'm asexual fyi). i'm broken, i just want to end this constant existential crisis. whatever it's not like i'd actually do anything i'm to much of a pussy to do shit.