Heroes (A Carl Grimes fanfiction)

Chapter15-Where is she?

Elana's P.O.V.

I'm sitting on the road while everyone talks about how we find Sophia. Rick came back but she didn't. I'll be honest I'm so scared for her. "I think Elana should be able to go." I hear Carl say "no she could get hurt." Rick says "Think about it! The first person Sophia is gonna want isn't gonna be her mom, or my mom, or Daryl it'll be Elana! She isn't gonna get hurt I even know that because y'all are gonna protect her." Carl says and I stand up. "I don't care who goes just find Sophia!" I yell "She's my little sister i was the one who always protected her! Now she's out there alone we need to find her!" I yell and Daryl walks up to me. He kneels in front of me "I'm gonna find her trust me pumpkin." Daryl says and I nod. he hugs me and I hug him back. "Thank you for being so caring." I whisper and he nods. "I'm gonna go look for her now." Daryl says "I promise I'll find her for you.I love you" Daryl says and I nod."Love you too." I say and he smiles. Daryl, Shane, Glenn and Rick leave to find Sophia.I look at mama and see she's praying. Praying for Sophia to be okay, praying for me to be okay, praying for us to be okay. I felt someone wrap there arms around my waist and looked behind me to see Carl. "You okay?" Carl asks and I shrug. I honestly didn't want to talk to anyone but Sophia right now. "She'll be fine." Carl says and I nod. "Please talk to me. I don't want you to hurt yourself agin please tell me what your thinking." Carl begs. What was I thinking? Was that seriously a question from him? I was thinking how I can't live without my sister and if anything would happen to her.....i just couldn't stay here, but of course I couldn't tell Carl that well at least the whole couldn't stay here thing. "Nothing." I say and Carl rubs his hands up and down my arms. "It'll be okay." he says and I nod.

*Few hours later*

Daryl, Shane, Glenn and Rick came back at sunset but with no Sophia. "Wh-Where is she?" I hear mama asks and Rick shakes his head. I shut my eyes close "God!" I yell in frustration "Why her? Why not me?She doesn't deserve this!"I yell.Carl tries to comfort me by hugging me but I push him away. "Stop just stop." I say softly and look at him. "You can't help me. I know you want to but you can't. No one can." I say and run to a empty car.I could hear them screaming my name not to go off by myself but honestly I didn't care. I sit down and cry. Why? Because my sisters gone. Shane hates me. I'm no good for Carl. I'm scared I'm gonna get Carl killed and lots and lots of more. I cry into my hands and until hear the car door open. "Finally!" I hear someone say. "I found her! Carl!" I hear the voice yell agin. It was Glenn. I heard people running over here. Glenn closed to car door and I now what they were doing trying to figure out what happened, why I came here, why I'm crying. "Shut Up Shane! No one wants your opinion!" I hear Carl yell. i put my feet up on the seat and cry into my knees. I hear the door open agin and then close. "Ey pumpkin what's wrong?" I hear Daryl yell and I automatically hug him. "Sophia's g-gone, Shane h-hates me, I'm scared I'm g-gonna get Carl killed, and it's j-just so hard!" I say and cry harder. "Hey it's okay." Daryl says and rubs my back with his big hand. "Sophia is gonna come back,fuck Shane, and you won't get Carl killed." Daryl says "I'm gonna go now okay?" Daryl says and I nod. He gets out of the car and closes the door. I can see him talking probably about what I just said. Then I hear him tell Shane's name. "This is your fault do you realize that?" I Hear Daryl yell. "She thinks she's gonna get Carl killed because of you!" Daryl yells. "I say we get rid of her! She's just one big mess we don't need!" I hear Shane yell and I cry even harder which was surprisingly possible. "If she goes I go! I love this girl and I'm not gonna just leave her behind!" I hear Carl yell. "You don't now anything about love!" I hear Shane yell. "And you do? I don't see you with a wife or a girlfriend!" Carl yells then opens the car door up. "Elana come see." Carl says and i shake my head. "Now!" he snaps "Fuck off!" I yell into my knees. "Elana! We do not use that type of language!" I hear momma yell. Carl grabs my arm and drags me out of the car. His grip was tight and he was hurting my arms"Carl stop!" I yell but he doesn't stop. "Stop let me go!" I scream at the top of my lungs and slap him straight across the face really hard. He lets go of me and looks at me. "Don't you dare ever touch me agin you filthy bastard!" I yell and walk away. "Elana!" I hear Carl say. "Mom what have I done?" I hear Carl ask and you could hear he was on the verge of tears. "You pissed the wrong girl off bitch and no longer have a girlfriend!Thats what you did Carl!" I yell and walk to a car way on the other side of them. I sit down on the hood of the car and wipe my tears away from my eyes. Carl was crying asking his mom what to do. He was loud I could hear him from all the way over here. Lori would just say 'this is your problem to fix.You should've let go when she said to.' Rick walked over to me. "I'm sorry about Carl." Rick says and I automatically fell my eyes water. "He shouldn't have had done that. He should've let go when you said to." Rick says and I can see Carl staring at me. "I'm so sorry." Carl mouths to me with tears streaming down his face. I just shake my head and look back at Rick. "He really is sorry. He doesn't know what to do. He just wanted to show you how much he loved you to Shane and was mad at Shane." Rick says "Well he no longer has to do that." I say and hop off the car. I walk past Carl and he stands up then grabs my arm but this time more softly. "I'm sorry okay! I'm so fucking sorry! I.." Carl says then looks down at the arm he was holding tightly on too before. It had his hand mark around my arm that had formed into a bruise. "I.... I did that to you?" Carl asks and I pull away from his grip. "I told you not to touch me!" I say and Carl looks at my arm then falls to his knees crying. "I'm sorry Elana! I love you so much! I'm so sorry!" he cries and knell down on one knee in front of him.I lift up his head "Savior this it'll be our last time doing it." I say and kiss Carl's lips. I pull away wiping my lips on my shirt. "You didn't even like it." Carl says and frowns "You completely hate me now." Carl says and I nod. "Yeah pretty much." I say "Now I'm leaving this group don't tell anyone." I whisper and stand up. "You can't leave!" Carl says and I shrug "No one needs me anymore! I don't have you anymore or Sophia so I'm just gonna go.I mean this world is just to stressful." I say and pull out a pocket knife that Carl found today. He had given it to me. He stands up and tries to grab the pocket knife. "Why would you care if I killed myself?" I ask and point the blade towards my stomach. "I mean you hurt me already. I mean it was emotionally but you know same thing." I say and walk away from him. "Tell everyone I got bit." I say and then feel Carl grab the pocket knife out of my hands. "I can't let you do this!" Carl says. "Why? Why can't you? Huh? Its not like we're together anymore so!" I yell and sit down. "Go inside." I say and look at Carl. "I'm sleeping out here
In a car I don't want you next to me so go inside." I say and stand up. I walk over to a car and hear Carl following me "What are you doing?" I ask. "I want to make sure your okay out here by yourself so you can sleep in the back and I'll sleep in the front." Carl says and I roll my eyes. "What ever." I say and get in the back. Carl got in the front. "I know your not gonna want to here this but I love you with all my heart and I'm so sorry baby girl. I'm gonna make it up to you. I swear." Carl says. "Carl please just stop." I say and Carl looks at me. "It's the truth. I.... I got us something for our one week anniversary." Carl says and pull out this beautiful necklace. "I uh got Glenn to get you something pretty for me." Carl says and hands me the beautiful necklace.It was a bronze colored heart with a key whole in the middle "And I have the key." Carl says and pus it out his pocket then frowns. "But you probably don't want me to have the key to your heart so I'm just gonna give it to you." Carl says and I shake my head."Carl... it's beautiful but I can't take this were no dating anymore." I say and Carl shrugs "Your the only girl I love so just take it I'm not gonna fall in love with any one else." Carl says and puts the key in my hand. "No. You did hold the key to my heart at once." I say and look at Carl. "So I want you to keep it." I say and Carl bids then smiles. "Oh and then watch this." Carl says and puts the key into the key whole. It opened up and inside of it was. A note. "Just read it." Carl says and closes the heart back then shoves
the key in his pocket. "Dear Elana words can not describe how much I love you and not matter what happens I will always be there for you. I can tell in your eyes your a girl who isn't good enough. In my eyes your a girl who is perfect. um... I'm really not good with these love notes so I guess ill end it here. I love you so much Elana Claire Pelletier. Your my cool, dorky, funny, sweet, beautiful, baby girl that I will always love. Love Carl." I read the note and I wanted to cry but I had no more tears left in my body. I wanted to forgive the lovely boy right then and there but new I couldn't maybe tomorrow but not tonight. I just need time to think. "I love you." Carl says as I slide the note into my pocket. "And I'll be honest I love you but I can't just say we're back together that easily." I say and Carl nods "I know that. Take as much time as you need baby girl." Carl says and I nod. "Can you come back here? It's cold." I say and Carl nods. He crawls over the seats in the front and comes to the back. He lays down besides me and I snuggle up into his chest. "Is that better? he asks and I nod. "Night baby girl." Carl says and I smile "Night Carl." I say and slowly drift asleep while listening to Carl's heart beat which was quite comforting.