Persistence

Distance.

I may be being a bit extra but I mean I'm really shook. I don't remember a lot from that night but I do know that he helped me. It's just when I see him, I see the other person and it immediately has me scared.

One night on my...nineteenth birthday I threw a birthday bash at some hotel and it was rocking. We almost got kicked out and everything. Don (the guy in front of me) was invited and he brung a lot of his niggas with him or whatever. Party was ending and Don was outside smoking with most of the people he came with.

Flashback
"Girl you fucked up sit down!" Tiara laughed and pushed me down on the bed. "Girl I'm not even drunk." I attempted to roll my eyes. Everything in the room was blurred and my head was spinning like crazy. "Yeah okay. I'm about to head out, get some rest and call me in the morning." She tapped my leg before leaving. I had finally had the hotel room to myself and everyone was gone. My stomach is starting to hurt and I'm trying to focus on everything but throwing up. I could hear someone talking but I didn't know which direction it was coming from. Fuck. I need to sit up before I throw up and choke on it. I struggled to sit up but eventually I got it. Wooo! I laughed to myself. "Senia girl wassup?" Someone appeared from the bathroom. "Nothing...wait..where did you come from?" I held my finger up. He chuckled and next thing I know he was standing in front of me and I was laying on my back on the bed. I couldn't really focus on one thing but I could see his silhouette. "I been wanting you for awhile now...you be trying to act all funny and shit." I could feel something rubbing against my thigh and with each stroke, it came closer to my vagina. I tried to sit up because I don't know who this man is and I don't want it. Each time I would sit up, he would push me back down and on the last time, he pushed me backwards hard before climbing himself on top of me. I squealed and tried to push him off of me while attempting to yell "stop!" But his hand was covering my mouth and with his other hand, he was pulling his pants down. Tears started to slip from my eyes and run down the sides of my face. I never felt this helpless in my life and I don't like it. "Aye bruh the fuck are you doing!?" I heard a manly voice yell and the dude was off of me in the matter of two seconds. "No-Nothing man! She wa-wanted to fuck! Ouch! Get off of me?" I could slaps and kicks but I couldn't really see nothing. "Come on Senia." I was being picked up and carried outside of the room. My eyes were watery and I couldn't focus already. My arms, thighs, and legs are hurting bad and I'm hot. I felt my butt hit the grounds softly and the person had their arm around my back to keep me sitting up straight. "You good Senia..stop crying." The familiar voice spoke quietly and wiped my tears. I closed my eyes and took a couple deep breathes so I could at least get myself to focus. I opened my eyes and Don sat beside me with a look of sorrow on his face. "Th-thank you." I barely spoke above a whisper and wrapped my arms around myself. "No problem. I'm right here with you ma." He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into his chest.

"I kn-know I'm just..nevermind." I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. Relax Senia, relax. "I almost didn't realize you on stage. You've...matured a lot." He looked me up and down before looking me in the eyes and smiling. I mentally rolled my eyes but put on a small smile. "Thanks. I guess I can say you changed as well." I looked between him and his waistline. I could see a gun handle sticking up threw his shirt. He chuckled and put the bag out towards me. "Ain't nothing change with me baby. Same ole Don from way back. Here's your money bag. You ran off stage quick like you seen a ghost or something." I Reached out for it but he yanked it back quick. "Aht. Not getting it until I get my hug." He smirked. I stared at him for a couple seconds. He has me fucked up but ima just comply so I don't get into deeper shit. I walked closer to him and opened my arms. He walked into my arms and hugged me tightly. "I missed you..alot...all the things we used to do..." He dropped the bag on the floor and slid his hands down to my ass, gripping it aggressively. I was frozen by his actions and I couldn't even think straight. "The way I had you bent over damn near everyday...mm. Everything was all good when it was on the low." He smacked it before letting go of me and stepping back. I folded my arms across my chest and looked away from him.

Yeah we used to mess around but I never looked at him like a boyfriend or relationship material because he was kinda....what's the word......arrogant. He just thought because we did what we did, he could just do what he wanted to do. So I fucked up the flow and told a mutual about us on purpose so he could leave me alone. I just wasn't feeling he after awhile.

"Good things never last for long." I mumbled and turned back to my station, tossing the last of my things into my bag. "Speak up since you got some much to say." I looked up at him through the mirror and cleared my throat before speaking. "I said good things don't last long. Leave that shit in the past." He chuckled and smiled, shaking his head before walking up to me and roughly grabbing my neck, pulling me towards him. "You don't want to fuck with me ma. I been trying to be cordial with you but you really yanking my shit." His grip got tighter. I started coughing and trying to pry his hands off of me but it just wasn't working. "Le-le-t me go!" I tried spitting out but I couldn't. He let go my neck and I fell to the floor, trying to catch my breath. He kicked me in my stomach and turned the other way. "Watch ya back. See you around ma." He left the room. I wrapped my arms around my stomach and took deep breathes to calm myself down. I wanted to cry so bad but I also wanted to shoot this nigga in his face. I have to be careful and watch what the fuck I'm doing or else I'm going to end up dead somewhere.

Lesson learned.