It All Started By One Single Tear (Rantaro x reader x YandereMastermind Kokichi)

Chapter 1 Part 6: Alone

Your POV:

    'Why do I feel so alone....' I thought, leaned against a bookshelf in the library.
Rantaro had just obviously left, giving me a warning not to help him end this so-called killing game. I wondered why he was so adamant about doing it himself. I wanted to help him. I really really did. But.... he rejected my offer almost instantly. I felt worthless to him. I felt worthless to everyone despite being very observant.
"I don't get anything anymore..." I muttered, "what do I have to do to regain everyone's trust?"
My eyes scanned the floor, and I noticed something pink on the floor. Upon closer inspection, it seemed to be a nailbrush, bright pink and dazzled with a shimmery glitter.
"What the heck is this doing on the floor...?" I asked myself, picking up the nailbrush, "I might as well keep it. Something good may happen if I do."
(Deeeeeeeefinatly not referencing the Rantaro nail event!)
I placed the nailbrush in my inventory and continued to wallow in self guilt.
This soon changed when I heard footsteps appear in the library.
"So what did you want to show me Shuichi?" Kaede's voice asked, echoing throughout the library.
"Just follow me Kaede, it's right over here," Shuichi's voice replied rather excitingly.
Shuichi and Kaede's footsteps got louder and louder to where I was located. The thought dawned upon me that they were headed to the back bookcase as well.
A few moments later, Shuichi and Kaede were in my line of sight, and I was in theirs.
"(y/n), what are you doing here?" Shuichi asked.
I was slightly surprised even though I knew that they were going to pop up here. I quickly got up, brushing myself off, considering how dusty it was in the library. I gave a light smile.
"I was hanging out with Rantaro in here. He ditched me not too long ago," I replied, "is there something you need?"
"Yes actually. I wanted to hang out with Kaede alone. Would you mind going somewhere else?" Shuichi asked.
"Sure. It's no problem," I replied," I hope you two have fun!"
I laughed slightly, but it was fake. It was suspicious that they wanted to be alone, but it was understandable. I knew that they didn't want me around. If I stuck around, I'd just be a nuisance as always. I waved at them before leaving them to do whatever they wanted to. It didn't really matter anymore.
"What do I have to do to feel happy about myself. It's funny right.... people tell me to be more positive about myself, yet I can't even say one good thing about myself...." I muttered.
I walked through the halls as if I were walking in slow motion, the halls seeming to move by, one frame at a time. My face was looking down at the floor, never looking up once to see if anyone was staring at me or following me.
I about five minutes later, I made my way to the dormitory, wondering if anyone was there. I checked my monopad, seeing that Rantaro was in his room. Nervously walking to his door, I rung the doorbell a few times. No one answered.
'I guess he has no business with me...' I thought.
I sighed lightly before walking to my own dormitory. I walked in and almost instantly went onto the bed. I had no idea what to do anymore. Rantaro wouldn't answer me... the one person who I trust the most in this situation. He was most likely upset with me for wanting to help. No one really wants someone's help like mine. I'd probably screw it up,

Like how I screwed with everyone's emotions...

Like how I screwed over everyone's lives.

"Kekeke, is it finally setting in yet? the voice in my head asked.

    "Leave me alone...." I replied to it.

"Why should I do that? Like I told you. I am you. You cannot get rid of me," the voice replied.

"Wh-What do you want from me?" I asked.

"To remind you about how useless you are. I don't get why you don't want to kill anyone. I mean you killed someone before. You should kill someone," the voice replied.

"No! Stop it! Please!" I exclaimed.