It All Started By One Single Tear (Rantaro x reader x YandereMastermind Kokichi)

Chapter 5 Part 20: An Unsettling Confession

Your POV:

"Kokichi, were you the one who tried to kill Rantaro?"

    Those were the only words that left my mouth at that moment. I couldn't even control the words coming from my mouth. Despite the situation I was in...I found myself thinking back on everything I witnessed Kokichi do. Him being in the same room as Rantaro. His forced smile...some of his words hinting at slight malice towards Rantaro in the past...
    The only reason I would even be able to connect Kokichi with what almost happened with Rantaro was because of Rantaro's account. Finding out Kokichi's identity, seeing what he was truly capable of. It still felt like his nails were somehow digging into my skin from before he let me go. Despite how scared I was... I had to ask him that.
    In response to those words, Kokichi was silent for a moment. In his silence, I saw an evil smirk form on his face as if this was some sort of question that humored him slightly. I was nervous in how he'd respond because, if I was thinking this situation through... it couldn't be anyone but him...
    "You ask pretty big questions for a hostage," Kokichi told me with a slight hum in his voice, "I wonder what happened for you to be able to ask me if *I* was the one who tried to end his life. Maybe if you tell me that, I'll feel more inclined to tell you the truth~"
    I was conflicted in response to Kokichi's words. There had to be some sort of way for him to keep track of everyone and what they were doing, but there was a chance that the device Miu gave me made him unable to see or hear the moments I've had that device turned on.
    When Rantaro and I had that discussion, the device was turned on, so there was a huge chance that Kokichi had no idea what Rantaro told me after what happened. I didn't want to tell him, but the situation I was in made this a very conflicting matter for me. Even though Rantaro and I weren't in a good  standing right now, I still didn't want to tell Kokichi how I found out.
    Kokichi looked like he was waiting for me to speak, but my silence was all he got. He had that evil smile of his plastered on his face as he waited. I didn't want to say anything, but if I didn't... I wouldn't know. I knew Kaede was innocent, so the only other person who could've planned this was Kokichi.
    "Instead of being silent, I think you should tell me why you think I was the one who tried to kill Rantaro," Kokichi stated.
    As Kokichi said that, he got closer to me once more. His arm shot forward, his hand clasping around my right arm... I winced from the grip as his hand grasped the cut areas of my arm in a harsh way. He yanked me up somehow, causing me to be pulled up by him. His free hand made itself a home around my waist. My heart rate was once again accelerated as he pressed his body against mine... however, the hand that was formerly wrapped around my arm was now grabbing my face with both harsh and somehow soft intent.
    He was staring (up/down) at me with that same smile. For someone who was 5'1 in height, he was pretty strong, and that was scary to me. Not to mention, I was also shocked from the sudden movement he forced from my body. I was trembling as he somehow kept me stationed up against him.
    "I hope you know that I can do things to make him suffer," Kokichi told me, "I can do whatever I want to Rantaro and to everyone. If you don't want them to be hurt for the time being, you should start talking. I can stand to be patient with you for now, but I won't be patient with you forever... if you want to spare the lives of your friends for a bit longer, then I'd start talking."
As Kokichi spoke, my eyes widened when he told me that he could do things to make *him* suffer. It was most likely that he was talking about Rantaro. He told me that he could do whatever he wanted to everyone. His tone changed as he held the safety and lives of my friends above my head. His tone sounded more malicious and angry, but that wasn't the only thing that concerned me. As Kokichi was speaking, he was caressing my face, causing me to flinch in response to it.
If I wanted the lives of my friends to be spared *for now* by Kokichi's words....I needed to start talking. The words that got to me were *for now* though. I was horrified of the words that came out of his mouth. Was he just saying that I needed to talk if I wanted to save their lives for who knows how long? I couldn't do that. No matter how scared I was, I needed to ensure that everyone would be saved.
With all of the courage I could muster up, I sent the harshest glare I could towards Kokichi. My eyes narrowed as I looked at him directly in the eyes. In response to my look, Kokichi looked slightly puzzled.
"I-If I'm going to tell you anything, *you* need to promise me that you'll spare everyone," I told him, somehow not losing the glare, "if you don't spare anyone, then I won't tell you anything, even if you decide to kill me."
Kokichi had a slightly shocked look on his face, but before I could say anything, his expression turned into a twisted smile. It was like he was enjoying my resistance, but I needed to ensure the safety of everyone else. I had to... if it was me that he was after, I needed to do everything I could to keep him from hurting anyone else.
    "Nee-heehee...Well would you look at that," Kokichi laughed, "I never thought you'd have the guts to speak up like that despite your situation. I guess it does make sense though. You *don't* care about what happens to you as long as your friends are safe, so... I guess I'll spare them, but who knows if I'm telling the truth about that or not."
    "You need to swear to me that you're telling the truth," I told him with the same glare, "I won't tell you anything unless you are telling the truth."
    I knew I wasn't going to tell anything to Kokichi if he wasn't going to tell the truth. I knew like everyone else that Kokichi lied as if it were second nature to him like breathing, sleeping, and eating. I didn't exactly trust Kokichi because of his tendency to lie, but there was a chance that something bad would happen to me from my resistance.
    The thing that really scared me was the fact that Kokichi told me that he wasn't going to kill me. Upon first hearing those words, relief would be felt, but that wasn't the case for me. Just because he wasn't going to kill me didn't mean he couldn't use other methods to make me talk. Kokichi could torture me to get me to talk. I had no idea what he was even capable of in terms of that, but a good part of me didn't want to find out. I was playing with fire right now, but I still wanted to ensure the safety of everyone.
    Kokichi still had his smile on his face as I thought about what Kokichi could do to me if I didn't speak. I could still feel his hand caressing my face, and it still provided weird feelings of discomfort in my being. How would he even respond to my words...?
    "O~kay!" Kokichi exclaimed, "I'll spare their lives if you talk. That's a promise. I wouldn't be lying to you if I told you that I am curious on what evidence you possess. So now that I've agreed to *spare* everyone, start talking."
    'That was easier than I thought it would be...' I thought nervously.
    It felt like this was easier than it should've been. In exchange for how I *knew* Kokichi tried to kill Rantaro, he agreed to spare everyone. I wouldn't be lying to myself if I didn't feel a bit anxious about this. I was in no position to say any more. Kokichi basically already knew everything about my ability, and that was probably why he used Kaito to capture me. I knew I had to talk or else Kokichi would blackmail me with the lives of everyone here again.
    "Alright, fine..." I muttered, "to put what happened in simpler terms, after the first trial, we went to the library to do research on what could've happened to bring him back. Rantaro and I had a discussion about what happened in the library with the device on. He told me that he saw a shot put ball fall from the library bookshelf. He was shocked for a moment before he mentioned that his vision went dark after that... that's why it couldn't be Kaede. From his account, he saw a shot put ball fall from the shelf... so after her plan failed, it must've been you who finished the job... you are the mastermind..."
Kokichi looked like he was thinking about what I just told him. His smile disappearing made that obvious to me. A few moments went by, and he didn't say any words.. I was nervously waiting for his response. If he wanted me to tell him what he wanted about the situation... I at least wanted him to admit to it. I needed to know what really happened and why it had to happen.
After the few moments went by, I saw Kokichi's grin return. He let out a small chuckle as he looked directly at me. It was like he confirmed what I said was true. I didn't think Rantaro would be the one to lie about that...
"Nee-heehee...so that's what happened," Kokichi laughed, "I see now. I guess you are saying that I sabotaged a murder plan to go successful while you sabotaged the crime scene by reviving everyone. Let's say that you are right about *me* attempting to kill Rantaro when Kaede's plan failed. Do you even know the reason why though?"
I was taken off guard from Kokichi's response. I was even more by surprise when he put my accusation in a more hypothetical sense. He soon asked me if I knew the reason why. If I had to choose one reason that he would do something like this... it would have to be...
To start up the killing game. That had to be why Kokichi did it. Even though it seemed pretty obvious to me, something felt off about it. It felt like there was something else I was missing...something just as obvious. Kokichi had to do this to try and start a murder... however this happened before I knew of my ability... before it first popped up.
"Y-You probably did it to start the killing game..." I muttered, "that has to be your motive..."
"I guess you're partially right," Kokichi said with his smile, "but there is another motive I would have. Does my beloved want to know this *motive*?"
When Kokichi told me I was partially right, I knew I was right. There was another motive he had, and his tone made it feel like he was mocking me. He was mocking me by asking if I wanted to know his motive... I-I had no idea if I even wanted to know that motive or not. My heart sunk from the constant pit feeling in my stomach. Why didn't I want to know why?
     Kokichi's face turned from his smile to an emotionless logo with a straight face. He used this same look when he was explaining how he used Kaito to get me where he wanted me. That didn't change how horrifying it was to me. I had no idea what he was going to say, but at the same time I felt like I knew...
"That look on your face tells me that you wouldn't want to know what that *motive* was and still is," Kokichi said blankly, "that's too bad for you. Since I have you where I want you, I can tell you what my motive would be, and *you* have to listen to me."
Kokichi's tone was just as blank, just as emotionless as I heard the first time. There was a change however. It was only the first sentence he spoke that was blank and plain sounding, but... with the same straight look on his face, his tone of voice changed into more of a mocking one. It felt slightly malicious but mocking as he told me that he had me where he wanted me... it was as if since he thought he won, he could mock me, and tell me more of the horrible truth, structuring the known fact that he was the mastermind. I would be forced to listen to him, and as he made that fact clear...
His hand that was once caressing my face booped me on the nose as he said the word *you* as if it was another way to mock me. After he did this, his hand went back to the place it was before. Cupping my cheek, beginning to caress once more causing my body to shudder in an uncomfortable way. I knew...
Even if I didn't want to know, it was obvious that he was going to tell me. The blank look in his face unmatched with his present tone of voice. It was like he was sending an evil smirk to me from the sheer tone of his voice. His eyes were starting to fill with swirls of malice and obsession. My body started to tremble as this happened. From the looks of it, I was about to endure the worst truth of them all...
"The reason I would try and finish something like this..." Kokichi trailed off, "it was because of you. To put it in simpler terms for your Otaku brain to understand, *you* were my motive."
"W-What...?"
That was the only thing I could force out of my mouth when Kokichi said it was because of me... *I* was his motive. My body started to tremble more, my teeth chattering... it was taking every inch of my being not to have a mental breakdown then and there. I was under way too much pressure... so many bad things happening all in the span of a few days, and to find out that it stemmed from me... the first case that almost killed Rantaro... me being the motive for that.
    "I mean what I said," Kokichi replied with that same blank look yet his tone was still mocking, "the reason I tried to get rid of Rantaro was because he was getting way to close to you. The reason I tried to kill him was because *you* decided that *you* were going to get close to him. It's your choices that led me to try and kill off that damn playboy, but I failed..."
    I was shocked, frozen in terror upon hearing what Kokichi was saying. The reason he tried to get rid of Rantaro was because of me. My will to keep myself from crying was depleting quickly. The feeling of sadness and guilt coursed through me... it was my choices that almost costed Rantaro his life... it was my fault that he almost died and it filled me with... it filled me with the feeling of despair.
    I was trying to process what I was hearing, I was trying to process the guilt I felt. My eyesight was getting blurred up from the tears that started to form. My will for trying to stay strong was falling. Against my will, against the strength I wanted to keep, the tears started to flow out of my eyes. Nothing came out of my mouth as wells of silent tears fell from my eyes. Kokichi's hand didn't even move an inch as this happened. All he was doing was staring into my eyes, observing the emotions I was showing...observing my expression.
    "Nee-heehee..." Kokichi laughed.
    Kokichi was snickering as a huge smirk formed on his face. He was staring into my tear filled eyes with a look of amusement. Kokichi's hand gripped my face with a constricting grasp. His hand forced my face closer to his. I didn't think I could get any closer to Kokichi, but I was wrong.
    "I love this expression you're wearing," Kokichi laughed, "it's a look of sadness, a look of guilt... nee-heehee... finding out Rantaro almost died because of you must make you preeeeeety sad, huh? That look on your face shows me that you are full of despair. Oh, I love it when despair evades everything hopeful. Why don't you show me this expression more often?"
    I couldn't even speak in response to what Kokichi was telling me. My mind was trying to process every little thing that has happened since the beginning, blaming every bad thing that happened on myself. Kokichi's mocking felt like white noise as tears continued to seep from my eyes. I was overwhelmed, and when that happened...
    "I'm guessing that you're too despair filled to even respond," Kokichi laughed, "that look on your face is a lot better than that playboy's when he found out something you did to yourself yesterday. I knew though. I know everything there is to know about everyone here... out of everyone here, you should feel lucky that you caught my attention. That doesn't mean nothing bad will happen though..."
Everything I was hearing felt muffled, but there was one part of what Kokichi said that I managed to hear with clarity. Rantaro having a similar look on his face as me... when he found out something I did to myself. I was so shocked that my expression couldn't even change. I couldn't stop the tears streaming down my face as Kokichi told me he told Rantaro what I did. Of course Kokichi would know about my relapse.
"Nee-heehee..." Kokichi laughed, "I can tell you all of this because I have you where I want you. I let you do what you wanted for a little while, but that won't happen anymore. Since I have you here, I can now really start things up, and do things that I've always wanted to do to you..."
My mind was dazed as Kokichi said those words. My brain was overloaded with information that put me through harsh despair. I couldn't keep the tears from flowing out in a constant stream. I could feel Kokichi's hand pushing away some of the tears that were forming in my eyes.
"You shouldn't be crying my beloved," Kokichi said as looked into my eyes, "you should be feeling honored. Out of everyone, I chose you. And now, you are mine. You belong to me, and you won't be able to ruin my killing game anymore."
Everything still sounded muffled to me. I could barely see through my tears as I saw Kokichi's face get closer. The words he told me sounded muffled, but I could make out the terms "you belong to me..." The only things I could feel was the hand of Kokichi's that was caressing my face and...the feeling of my tears rolling down my cheeks, and hitting the Exisal Bathroom floor.
    That was the only thing I felt for a moment. Through the haziness of my sight, trying to see through my tears, I felt something seemingly soft press up against my lips. This was odd to considering there was nothing there before. My eyesight was too blurry at that point to pinpoint exactly what was going on. It took me trying to blink away the tears as best as I could to find out what was happening... and once I was able to fully see what was going on, my body froze once more from the shock.
    The feeling of something against my lips wasn't my imagination. Kokichi...Kokichi was kissing me. I felt the urge to push him away. It was uncomfortable to me feeling his lips against mine... feeling his hand caressing my face. I was shocked, but I couldn't do anything but just stand there as Kokichi kissed me without a second thought. It didn't feel right. The type of attraction was more of an obsession... I realized right here that Kokichi could do whatever he wanted to do with me... and fighting back would either badly injure me or even perhaps kill me...

Rantaro's POV:

    Somehow, I was able to wake up the next day, the images of what happened the previous flooding my mind. It was all I could think about. (y/n)'s dangling form... her ability being exposed... what she did to herself.
    I had to act like I was going to be okay. It was the only way I could be stronger. I had done so much to (y/n) in the span of a short while...I wanted to make it up to her. The only way I could even think to do that would be to save her.
    I was worried about what Kokichi could even be doing to (y/n). The unnerving part of it was the fact that I didn't know. I as well as everyone else was none the wiser. Despite that, I had a feeling that everyone aside from Kiyo would want to do whatever they could to save her.
    I took a shower to try and freshen myself up. As the hot water ran down my back, it made me realize how alone I made myself at this point. I tried to avoid everyone, but now... I felt like I should be honest with them. If only I had more faith in (y/n) and everyone else excluding Kokichi and Kiyo.
    I needed to have more faith in everyone. If I was going to try and patch things up with her and get her saved, I needed help. Even though I wanted to do nothing, I just couldn't. I had no right to sit here and do nothing. That was what went through my head as I got out of the shower.
    Looking at myself in the mirror as soon as I got out, I noticed the bags they formed themselves under my eyes. I looked both physically and mentally drained, which wasn't an understatement. I dried my hair and styled it the way I normally did. It was after that I decided to get dressed, fixing whatever fuzziness it would cause for my hair.
    I needed to get stronger for her... I couldn't let Kokichi do whatever he pleased with her. In my mind, it was only a matter of time before Kokichi would get tired of her and kill her. I was on a time limit to save her.
    Even though I was the Ultimate Survivor, someone who survived a precious killing game... it would be like old times I didn't remember. It was us against Kokichi. We needed to make sure we end this game. Even if there is nothing for us left behind for us after.
    I walked to the door that led towards the dormitory common area. It was up to me to make it up to (y/n). I had to save her no matter what, but this wasn't something I could do alone. I needed help, so I knew where I was going to look first. The dining hall. I was hoping that changing to trust more would lead us to save her.

Hey Kokichi Simps! I have another chapter for you because you all are were patiently waiting for Kokichi moments. Rise up! Y'all finally got kissed by Kokichi!

Spring break has been pretty relaxing for me so far. I go back to school tomorrow, so luckily I got this chapter done. I've been replaying Trigger Happy Havoc on my switch and I just got to the chapter 2 deadly life ;-;

I know last week's chapter was a disappointment in the length, but this one is my usual chapter length, and there's a few moments that'll make your hearts freeze or swoon. Depends XD. Also Rantaro is making a move. He isn't out of the story yet.

I hope you all are having an amazing spring break! I'll see you all next week, so don't miss me too much! Ciao for now!- yuki_no_fuyu