"I don't know, I-I thought you might be umm avoiding me since the other night." I twiddling my thumbs looking down in embarrassment.
"No Ellie you didn't do anything wrong. I have been busy that's why I haven't been in school. But I would never avoid you." Declan say reassuringly. He wraps his arms around me and gives me a hug. I hug him back and put my head on his chest.
"S-sorry." I mumble into his chest.
"Don't be." He says into my hair.
Declan still has his arms around me and my head is still in his chest. His warm embrace was soft but strong at the same time. Right now I don't care that he's all sweaty, being in is arms makes me feel safe and protected from the world.
"Ella?" I hear Thomas call confused. "What are you doing?"
I unwrap my arms from around Declan and turn to see Thomas standing there staring. Olivia is still here a couple feet away from me watching to. I feel heat from under my skin rising to the surface. My face feels like it's in fire. I hate being the center of attention, and everybody's eyes are on me.
"I-i was umm saying g-good game." I stutter looking like a complete fool. But I feel the need to explain myself. "I was l-looking for you to tell you 'good game', but I couldn't find you."
I see a flash of confusion and I think anger swirl through Thomas's eyes.
"It doesn't look like you were looking for me." Thomas sounds irritated. But I could feel he wasn't mad at me, he was glaring at Declan not me. Even though he wasn't mad at me I can feel my anxiety rising. People are staring at me and my hands start to shake.
"I w-was but then I remembered you were in the l-locker room and d-de-decided to tell you later." I sounded like a complete idiot but this is what happens when I'm put on the spot. I can't think clearly and my words become jumbled.
My heart beats rapidly in my chest. Thomas is trying to say something but I can't concentrate. Everybody's watching me. I can feel my body start to shake. I try to take a deep breath but no air is entering my lungs. I try to take a step but can't move. My visions flickers in and out then slowly and increasingly goes black.
Strong arms pick me up gently bridal style. I don't know who it is but I snuggle my head into their chest. I hear a faint "Shh, I'm here, it's going to be alright." My hands are trembling against the strong chest. "Your safe lil' one, I got you." I know now that Declan's holding me, he's the only one who calls me lil' one. I can't see anything and my body is frozen. But I can hear people talking.
"What's happening? Is she going to be alright?" I hear Olivia say in panic.
"This is all my fault." I hear Thomas mumble to himself. His voice is off I can't tell what he's feeling.
Then I can't hear anything, it's just black. I can't see and I can't hear. It's like I'm awake but trapped in the dark. I try to open my eyes but they are glued shut. I'm scared because I have lost all control of my body. Maybe I'm dead. My thoughts drift off and I think I fall asleep even though I'm already passed out.
I am in a heavy black cloud of nothingness. I'm being weighed down by the heaviness. I feel like I'm cemented in place. I don't remember anything. I hear something but I can't place it. I take a minute to concentrate, it sounds like the slight buzzing of machines. Where am I? The sound of wet shoes squeaking reaches my ears. Slowly I try to pry my eyes open but they are stuck. I take a minute to relax and then try again. It's a struggle but I manage to squint them open a crack. A bright white light immediately blinds my eyes. I snap my eyes back shut.
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Her RockTeen Fiction
Ella, the shy girl who stutters. Declan, the boy who makes girls hearts flutter. To her he was the sun, to him she was the stars. Together they had a love like no other. She wasn't like him and he wasn't like her. They each got their own problems, b...