Shawn Mendes Imagines

I Need You

I walked into my last hour. I sat down and looked around. Everyone was talking to each other and I sat alone again.

It was like this everyday, nothing ever changes. I just sit here alone thinking about what I did for this to happen.

I used to have a lot of friends, I would at least have someone to talk to in every class. The only person I have is Shawn, but he's been out of high school for two years now, practically four though because of tour.

It's my senior year. It's supposed to be the best year of my high school career, but right now it's looking like the worst year yet.

The bell rang signaling school was over. I took a big sigh of relief and walked out of class. I went to my locker and quickly packed my backpack with everything I needed and headed down the stairs.

I looked around the bland hallways seeing everyone with their boyfriends, girlfriends, and best friends. Everyone looked so happy.

I wonder if they ever wonder what it feels like not to have that. I wonder if they take it for granted like I did.

I bet you it feels great to go to school and not have to worry about what everyone thinks about you because you have that reassurance of always having someone to talk to.

I started my car and drove home. It took about five minutes to arrive at my house. I put the key in the lock and unlocked the door. I set my bag down and called out for my parents, but of course all I got in response was deafening silence.

I felt the tears brimming my eyes as I walked the empty hallway leading to my room.

I sat down on the bed and scrolled through Instagram hoping to get my mind off things, but the horrible thoughts kept flooded my mind again and again.

It's like no matter what I do I'm always reminded of how lonely I truly am.

I didn't realize the tears that had fell from my eyes and that were now running down my cheeks. I wiped them away and took a deep breath in trying to calm myself, but I broke into a fit of sobs.

I couldn't contain it anymore, there was no hiding the true pain I felt inside.

I'm sad but I still have my senses. I know that I can't be alone in this state anymore. I need someone to talk to.

I took out my phone and texted the one person who is always there for me.

To Shawn:
Hey, are you busy?

From Shawn:
No, I just got done unpacking from Cali. Why?

To Shawn:
I need you. Please...just come.

From Shawn:
I'm on my way now. Love you.

To Shawn:
Love you too.

Soon I heard a knock on my bedroom door.

"Come in." I called him. He opened the door, his eyes softening when he saw me.

"What happened Y/n?" He asked as he grabbed my hand, interlacing our fingers together. I shook my head.

"I'm just tired of feeling so alone in every crowded room. (A/N: hmm I wonder where I got that from 🤔😂) And Shawn it hurts so bad. I'm so tired of it. Everyone where I go I see people with their friends and it makes me wonder what that's like, to have someone who will be by your side making you feel secure. I wonder if people realize what they have, and I'm afraid they won't realize it until it's gone.

All of this makes me wonder what kind of world we live in to let someone be alone, to let someone feel the way I do." I paused and saw the guilt in his eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry I can't be with you all the time, but please know that it'll all be okay. Stay strong for me. I need you." I nodded.

"Shawn don't feel guilty. I'm not mad at you for not being here. In fact, I'm so proud of you. So don't you ever feel guilty for not being here." He smiled.

"I know you're proud of me. I just wish I could be here for you all the time."

"You being my best friend is all I need Shawn. I love you so much." I said, embracing him in a hug.

He placed his arms around me, securing me tightly in his embrace.

"Please don't ever let it get to this point again. Call me anytime you need. I don't care if you think I'm busy. I would drop everything to make sure you're okay." He said grabbing my hand once more.

"I will Shawn. I will call you anytime I need you."

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A/N: Thank you so much for 7k 💓. I'm so sorry for being inactive lately, I've just been really busy with school. But I hope you liked it. Love you ❤️