ESCAPE

Chapter 33

VALENTINA

When Karen told me that I was once pregnant, at first I didn't feel anything.

I knew it was bound to happen one day because of those careless swine's, but knowing that it had become a reality felt like a blow to me.

'Are you alright?', asked Harry as we walked out.

I didn't give him any reply as I kept rewinding the thought again and again.

I was almost a mother, I was actually carrying a life inside of me and I never knew.

I never knew because I was too busy entertaining vile men and I never paid any attention to what was happening inside of me.

I was careless enough to let a child into this world, only for it to end up being killed.

I was a murderer.

I was the reason why a life was lost and I never even knew!

What kind of a monster was I?!

The tears came down as I loathed my existence and I couldn't bear Harry standing near to me, when he knew what I had done.

I refused his touch but he refused to let go.

He had been trying to talk me out of my darkness but I just couldn't let it go.

I was just coming to peace about the fact that my past was an irrelevant topic, but now that I knew what my past had made me become, it was far to difficult to just let it go.

And now, Harry has brought his stylist's baby to keep me company.

Why would he allow a monster like me to babysit a child?

I was incapable of knowing that I had a life inside of me, how on earth would I possibly know how to respond to a child in front of me?

'Hi', she said shyly and I mustered up a smile.

'Why are you crying?', she asked crawling up to me.

I wasn't sure if she could read yet so I fumbled around with my hands.

'Why don't you write it down?', she asked with a giggle and handed me my board which I accepted with a sheepish smile.

'I am sad'

'Why?', she asked with a frown.

'I lost something'

'I can help you find it!', she piped up excitedly.

'It's something that I lost forever'

'Oh', she said pouting and I gave her a small smile.

'Uncle Knobhead says laughing makes people happy', she said with a smile.

Who the heck was Uncle Knobhead?

I looked at her with a confused look.

'We can play dress up!', she exclaimed and pulled at my arm so that I could get out of bed.

I pouted at her, indicating that I didn't want to.

'You can't stay here! You're supposed to play with me!', she pouted and I rolled my eyes with a sigh.

'Fine'

Lux cheered and I let her know that I would be back in few minutes.

I went into the bathroom to wash my face and I sighed at my red puffy eyes.

I didn't really bother to dress myself up so I lazily pinned up my hair and splashed some water onto my face.

'Come on!', she called and rushed out of the room.