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Finland x Depressed! Reader: Best I can (Songfic)

Been thinking about
All of those lies that you heard me say
I can't make them go away
Been thinking about
All the mistakes you've seen me make

  (Y/n)'s P.O.V

     I let out a sigh while I lightly dragged my finger across the blade of my knife. I've told so many lies and made so many mistakes. Just today I lied to my boyfriend, Tino, I had told him I was sick and couldn't go on the date we'd planned. He had offered to come over and take care of me, but I told him that (F/n) had come over to take care of me. Now that doesn't seem that bad, but I'm constantly lying to not only Tino, but everyone. I'm not even sick, I'm just feeling more depressed then usual. I let out another sigh as I positioned my blade on my wrist. Nobody knows about my depression, and no one can ever know.

When I can barely hold on
You promise you won't let me go
And I want you to know I don't live a perfect life
But God knows I'm trying the best I can
And I have wasted so much time
Pretending I'm not lying about who I am
But now I'm living the best I can

     I jumped when my bedroom door slammed open, there stood Tino. When he saw the blade on my skin his eyes widened. He ran over and carefully took the knife from my hands, before I could drag the knife across my skin, and threw it into some dark corner of my room. I looked up into his violet eyes, they held so much sadness. "Why (Y/n)?" He asked, his voice cracking and tears coming to his eyes. "B-Because I deserve it. I've lied to so many people." I said looking down at my lap. "(Y/n) look at me. You don't deserve that. A-Are you battling depression?" Tino asked as he lifted my face up. I nodded my head and looked to the side, I didn't want anyone to ever find out. That's why I always hide it. I especially didn't want Tino finding out about my depression. "(Y/n) promise me you'll try to battle depression and take the medication the doctor prescribed to you. I'll even help you with this." Tino asked. That's right I'm clinically depressed, and the doctors have put me on antidepressant medication. Just how did Tino know about the medication? "Okay, I-I'll try the best I can." I said, and a smile found its way onto Tino's face.

Been thinking about
It's so hard to see what you see in me
Would you lay it out for me?

     "I don't get it what do you see in me?" I asked while I was crying into Tino's chest. Today has been one of those particularly bad days. "Well I see a beautiful, smart, kind, creative woman. She's just trapped and is fighting to be freed right now." Tino said softly while rubbing my back.

Been thinking about
This isn't the way I thought I would be

      This is most definitely not the way I thought I would be when I grew up. I had always thought I would be a happy woman. A wife, a mother, with a good job, or maybe a stay at home mother. But someone who is so depressed just the thought of going outside on a sunny day makes them even sadder than before? Definitely not.

When I can barely hold on
You promise you won't let me go
And I want you to know I don't live a perfect life
But God knows I'm trying the best I can
And I have wasted so much time
Pretending I'm not lying about who I am
But now I'm living the best I can

     Things have been getting better, but I don't think that's the medication's doing. Tino has been with me every step of the way. I've found myself smiling more often and frowning a lot less. And on those nights when things are particularly bad Tino is there for me. I laughed as I danced around in my kitchen, when I was supposed to be sweeping, to a song called Bailamos.

I'm breaking down
And now I've found
A reason to make it
This time around
No matter where I go
I want you to know
I know that I'm never alone

     I slid to the floor crying, a few months ago (F/n) got in a car accident. She may be alive, but she's in a coma. I feel like it's all my fault I had been in the car with her, but I made it out with at the worst just a very minor concussion. I don't like this, I'm falling back into the deep, dark pit of depression and I can't really do anything about it. I looked at the picture I had put on the refrigerator with a magnet. It was of me and Tino we were at the beach and we were sitting making a sandcastle and had the biggest of grins on our faces. That day I wasn't acting, it had been one of the few days I had actually been happy before Tino started helping me. Tino. Right there's my reason to climb back out of the pit. It may be difficult with the pit trying to pull me back in, but I have to try. I have to give it my best shot. I grabbed my phone and called somebody over, someone who has literally been there since day one for me. That's right my mother, I'm going to go out and try my best to have a fun day with her. This would be the first time I'm leaving the house on my own will these past few months. I wiped the tears from my eyes and dialed her phone number.

I want you to know I don't live a perfect life
But God knows I'm trying the best I can
And I have wasted so much time
Pretending I'm not lying about who I am
But now I'm living the best I can

No matter where I go

I want you to know
I'm living the best I can

     I laughed as I splashed water back at Tino, who then sent a tidal wave of water at me. When the waves died down Tino was no where to be seen. "Tino? Tino where'd you go??" I asked while looking around. I let out a shriek as I was lifted up and out of the water, into Tino's arms. "There you are!" I laughed while wrapping my arms around his neck.

     As you can guess we're at the beach right now, things have gotten a lot better. I hardly ever feel depressed now, and I'm not even on the medication anymore. (F/n) woke up a few weeks ago and got out of the hospital a few days ago. She's at the beach right now with her son and husband. I swear her little boy is absolutely adorable, he has her skin tone and eyes and he has his father's hair. Right now (F/n) is building a sandcastle with her son, her husband helping out.

     Along with Tino and I came Berwald, Emil, Lukas, and Matthias, oh and we also brought Hanatamago. Matthias had made the mistake of falling asleep and Lukas buried him with sand up to his neck, the thing is Lukas buried Matthias standing up. That's a lot of digging. Now Lukas is pestering Emil about calling him big brother, and Emil is telling him to go away as he is trying to play volley ball with Berwald. Erland and Peter are splashing at each other, the paint on Erland's face washing off. Erland and Peter are orphans from the orphanage, Tino and I want to adopt the twin brothers once we're married. Oh did I forget to tell you, Tino proposed a few months ago, not too long after I decided to fight the depression after (F/n) fell into the coma. We're supposed to get married next month on July 6th. Yeah things have gotten a lot better.

And I have wasted so much time
Pretending I'm not lying about who I am
Now I'm living the best I can

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     Yay! I got another oneshot done! And it was another songfic and my first Finland x reader! Nähdään! Minä rakastan sinua! -Rosa (Amestris)

Nähdään! Minä rakastan sinua!: See you! I love you!