Forget Me Not

9. PTSD

I woke up and got dressed, into high wasted jeans and my Mickey Mouse crop top with vans.

I walked downstairs my father was sitting in the kitchen on his computer "hey" I said I walked over to him, and saw what he was looking at, "why do you want to move to Hawaii" I asked "I'm not fond of beacon hills" he said "you've only been here for two days" I argued "and if I can judge a place in two days it must be bad" he said "why, give me a reason" I asked "beacon hills is a tiny town, and you've already made a bad reputation here, I think what's best is to pull you out of the town and say other kids pushed you into distress" my dad said "you pushed me into distress, this place is my safe haven away from your ass" I yelled "no ma'am, lower your voice who do you think you're talking to" he yelled back "I have friends, I love this place, let me stay" I said "I'll make the decision, as long as your under my roof and spending my money" he said, "dad I already told you how I feel about that" I said "Aubrey, I have a choice, to make you happy, or make the world happy, population rules" he said, it's the same thing he's told me for my whole life, "I thought I was your world" I said usually I'd walk away when he said that, this is the first time I've said this, all he did was look back to his computer, choosing the world.

Population rules.

I walked into school, with a smile, people passed me and waved, I saw darach waving at me, I pulled out my knife and ran towards her, she held my arm ass I was about to push the knife into her eye, "Aubrey" she yelled I blinked my eyes to see Lydia, my knife turned into a pencil "what are you doing" she asked "surprise, I'm giving you a brand new pencil" I covered up "well unless you've mistaken my face for a pencil sharpener, I think it's happening to you too" she said "what's happening" I asked.

We all got together in the hallway by Stiles locker, "so you guys have been having flashbacks, nightmares, and anxiety, that's ptsd" I said "it's different than ptsd, it's worse, I'm not sure if I can tell the difference between dreaming and real life" Stiles explained "I've just been hallucinating, I look back and my shadow isn't mine" Scott told us "I see Kate again" Allison said "who's Kate" I asked "her dead, psycho, werewolf hunting aunt who almost killed Scott" Stiles explained "Gerard brainwashed her" Allison defended her "who's Gerard" I asked "her dying, psycho, werewolf hunting grandpa, who almost killed Scott" Stiles explained "okay then" I said, the bell rang "let's talk at lunch" Lydia said.

I walked inside class there was a new teacher, I walked up to his desk "hi I'm Aubrey Cunningham" I introduced myself I stretched out my hand, he shook it strongly "I'm actually aware of who you are, your father sells overpriced oil to Japan" he said, oh great I'm being judged on who my father is, again, "not to slander his name, my apologies" he apologized, "no it's fine, he's an ass, luckily we share nothing in common but our surname" I stated, trying to clear the air, his eyebrows raised and I noticed o only polluted it "I just said ass in front of my teacher" I mumbled to myself "it's okay, you know if you ever have trouble finding friends my daughter Kira is the wonderful young woman in the back" he told me I turned around and waved at her, she looked a bit embarrassed "I have friends but I'd love to include her she looks sweet" I said "yeah she's always shy" he said, the second bell rang which meant class was starting I sat down in my seat as the teacher spoke to the class "mr. Yukimura".

We were sitting at lunch, Isaac was trying to convince them that it's nothing, and that they're going to get hallucinations, he should know because his father locked him in a freezer, "maybe you guys are paranoid" Lydia suggested said "but its getting worse" Stiles said "maybe we should just talk to Deaton" I said.

"hey im sorry, I heard what you guys were talking about, I wasn't listening I just heard but it sound like the buddist concept of bardo, its the state between life and death, so like demons get to contact you, and theres several states to it"  Kira came up to us "who are you" lydia asked "Kira" scott answered for her, letting Kira out into a smile, I know that smile, I've had that smile when talking to Derek "do you wanna finish lunch with us" I asked her "sure" she said sitting down, "so where are you from" I asked helping us engage in a normal teen conversation.