Once In An Existence

Chapter 18: Between this two, what?

"Bukas." Tomorrow? Oh no. This could not be happening.

No please no! Bakit naman bukas pa? Sa dinamidami ng araw, why tomorrow?! 

"Sige, salamat. I shall go. Please, Katy. This is your chance." Plead ng teacher ko. He's making it harder for me. TT___TT

"Ano Katy? Ano pipiliin mo?" Tanong ni tita while we were on the road on the way home. 

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko pa alam kung ano ang pipiliin ko eh. Masyado pang magulo ang lahat. Ewan ko. Fame between friends. Ang laki ng pagkakaiba diba? Bakit naman nila ako papipiliin sa dalawa. 

"Anong oras po ba yung performance bukas?" tanong ko.

"Same as the dance competition." Min answered. Ethan's still holding my hand. Ayaw ko bitawan. Kapag hawak ko ang kamay niya feeling ko nababawasan ang proproblemahin ko. I just nodded kay Min. 

"Ethan..." Tumingin siya sakin. "I need help."

"Ano ba yun?" 

"Hindi ko talaga alam kung ano ang pipiliin ko." Maiiyak na ako sa kakaisip kung ano ang pipiliin! Back then, I was always so sure that being famous is my main goal. But right now, it's hard to choose.

"Alam mo, piliin mo nga kasi yung kung ano ang nagpapasaya sa'yo. Okay?" He put his arm around me at pinatong ang ulo ko sa may shoulder niya. Hindi ko alam what this relationship between Ethan and I is called but I know I want something more. I feel butterflies. I love this guy.

We got home early than expected. 

"So ano, dongsaeng. Nakapili ka na ba?" kulit ni Min as soon as we sat down sa sofa. Napatingin ako kay Ethan, he just smiled. I know what he means.

"Okay... I choose...

Ballet." I tried to smile. Tumingin ako kay Min and she looked calm. Si tita naman is just at the kitchen about to cook dinner. I looked at Ethan and I feel sudden awkwardness between us. Why? Is there something wrong?

"B-bakit ang t-tahimik nyo?" tanong ko.

"Bakit naman yung pinili mo, Katy?" Min

"Kasi ballet is important. I want this. My parents will be proud of me if I get in. And it's a one way ticket to stardom." Sabi ko.

Min stood up and was about to enter the room, "Nakakainis ka, Katy. Kailangan ka namin dun."

Huh? 

"Naiintindihan naman kita, Katy. Yan naman talaga gusto mo noon pa diba? Yang talent mo nga na yan ang naging rason kung bakit kita napansin diba? Go for what makes you happy."