Go Through The Spark (Red String Series #1)

Chapter 20

Date

Kenji's

Koji quietly remained in his position. His eyes, trembling as he look at me directly.

"Talk to me." One step is not enough, but I stopped myself. "Please."

He swallowed and look away to avoid my gaze. "Para saan? Kailangan mo naman nang lumayo sa'kin."

My eyebrows knitted on what he just said. I stepped again. "What? What do you mean?"

He tightened his grip on the blanket that hugged his body. I know he was hesitant to answer because of the movement of his lips.

"Nililigawan mo si Yvonne? 'Di ba?"

Napakurap ako sa sinabi n'ya kasabay ng pagkunot ng noo ko. I knew it, he'll think about it that way.

Hindi ako bumibitaw ng tingin, at baka kapag nalingat ako, pagsarahan ako ng pinto.

Humakbang ako ulit. "Koji-"

"Kayo na ba ulit?" Singit n'ya at umatras.

"What? No!" Mabilis akong naglakad papalapit sakaniya at ramdam kong pagsasarahan n'ya talaga ako ng pinto.

"Bakit naman hindi?" Mariin ang pagkakasabi n'ya no'n habang nakangiti ng mapait, kaya nilamon na ako pagaalala. Umatras ulit s'ya papasok kaya tumigil ako sa may pinto, para lang makasiguradong hindi ako mapapagsarahan.

"Ba't hindi mo s'ya binalikan? Bagay kaya kayo." humangos s'ya habang hindi makatingin saakin.

My eyes narrowed at what he said, unable to believe what I was hearing. Or should I say... I couldn't handle what I was hearing. I'll admit it, I got angry because of what he said. Why was he pushing me towards that girl?

I swallowed hard, restraining myself. 'Cause I might startle him if I confess.

"Balikan mo na s'ya.."

"Can you stop pushing me to her!?" But I couldn't stop myself anymore.

"Bakit hindi?! Tinawagan mo nga s'ya, 'di ba?"

I was surprised when he also shouted at me. His eyes widened too in shock as he was taken aback by his own reaction.

Iniisip n'ya nga talaga 'yung nangyari. Ang masaklap pa, na-misinterpret n'ya na lahat. Pero alam mo naman na kasalanan ko rin.

"It's a dare.." I slightly lowered my head and swallowed before taking a step closer again. To appease him.

I don't care about what Math said earlier anymore. Respecting his personal space? Fuck that. I was ready to confess, no matter how painful the outcome may be.

But that was also the reason he took a step back until he was near the bed.

"Pero may nililigawan ka. S'ya ba?" Marahan n'yang tanong dahilan para bumagsak ang balikat ko at nanghihina pumikit ng sandali.

"No," marahan kong sagot. "that's not how you think it is-"

"Then what!?" He confronted me with that question, and as I opened my eyes, he was already looking straight at me. His teary eyes were red, and his feet couldn't stay still.

Damn, is he about to cry? No Koji, please don't cry.

"I'm sorry, Koji." I softly said instead of explaining already. I don't want to him to cry again.

He shook his head slightly. "Bakit ba ang bait bait mo? Bakit ka humihingi ng tawad sa'kin?"

My eyes welled up as I saw the tears flow down his flushed cheeks. The blanket fell from his body. Each word carried the pain within, each word pushing me further to confess. And those words...