No Love Involved (COMPLETED)

Special Chapter

Special Chapter (10 Wishes)

 

Timeline: Five weeks after Zeph's accident.

Zeph.

 

"Are you sure you'll be okay here? Hindi na lang ako pupunta sa office." Said Jayson. His voice is full of worries and I can really sense that he doesn't want to leave me here in my unit alone.

Kaya lang alam kong kailangan niyang magpunta sa office niya ngayon. He's been on leave and Cecilia has been handling the company since I got into an accident. Indefinite naman ang leave niya pero ngayong araw na ito kailangan siya ni Cecilia to close a very important deal.

"I'll be fine here, two hours ka lang naman mawawala eh. At isa pa, Yen and Jim will be here anytime soon." I said and smiled to him.

He sighed and came closer to me to pull me in a hug. "Nag-alala lang naman ako. I don't want to feel scared like I'm going to lose you completely."

 

I tap his shoulder and gave him a peck on the lips. "No need to worry. Hindi ako mawawala sa'yo unless you say so."

 

"Baby..." He answered in a low voice and then he sighed heavily.

I assured him that I'll be fine and wished him good luck for the deal kaya naman kahit na punong-puno ng agam-agam ang puso niya ay umalis na rin siya.

"Uuwi ako agad." He said before opening the door.

"Opo. Pasalubong namin ni baby natin, ha?" I said while smiling and then I saw his eyes sparkle in delight. Lagi kong nakikita ang ganyang expression kapag binabanggit ko ang magiging anak namin.

Ibang-iba ang saya niya kapag ganoon and that alone makes me want to believe that it's not bad to enter marriage. Well, sa totoo lang gusto ko na. Kaya lang minsan ay nauunahan na naman ako ng takot.

Nang makaalis siya ay dahan-dahan akong naglakad-lakad sa buong bahay. I checked our rooms, the kitchen na ngayon ay punong-puno ng pagkain, and then I went back to the living room.

When I finally settled on the sofa ay inabot ko ang magazine sa center table. Hindi interesting ang topics sa magazine pero bored na ako. I started flipping the pages when I noticed a small note. Kung hindi mo titignan ng maigi ay hindi mo ito mapapansin kasi sobrang nipis din.

Kumunot ang noo ko dahil parang ngayon ko lang nakita ito. I opened the notebook at nagulat ako sa mga nakasulat dito. My heart started beating so fast and I when I'm done reading it, I just noticed that tears over tears have rolled down on my cheeks.

10 Wishes

 

1.       Eat a lot

I told her to eat a lot. I have two reasons for that. First, of course she needs to be healthy so she can be ready for pregnancy but actually there's a deeper reason for that. The world knows how sexy she is and that makes me jealous big time. Gusto ko siyang tumaba para wala ng titingin sa kanya. Para ako na lang ang titig sa kanya at para wala ng ibang magkakagusto sa kanya kundi ako lang. Ako lang.

2.       Endearment

Hindi ko inexpect na iyon ang maiisip niya na itatawag sa akin. I was surprised but I'm delighted. I've never felt this happy before and honestly kinikilig ako. May ganoon pala? Kinikilig din pala ang mga lalake and it fvcking feels good!

3.       Be my Secretary

This is a stupid wish. Gustong-gusto ko siyang gawing secretary para hindi siya nawawala sa paningin ko kaya lang may junior is like a teenager! Parang alam mo iyong ngayon lang siya makakahawak ng boobs ng babae?! As much as I want to keep her as my secretary ay hindi ko pwedeng gawin. Baka mamaya bumagsak ang company ng dahil sa akin.

4.       Trust every single word that I say

I know I'm stupid for wishing this. Para ko na siyang kinokontrol nito but I'm just freaking afraid. I want to keep her with me. Selfish kung selfish pero ngayon lang ako naging ganito kapossesive. Kung kailangan ko siyang kontrolin sa lahat ng aspeto gagawin ko. But I just can't help to hate myself too because I made her cry. Someday, I will turn those tears into laughter. I promise that.

5.       Stay with me all the time

And I'm being evil here. Para ko na siyang kinulong. Can anyone bring me back to my senses? I'm not like this before. Ito ba ang nagagawa ng LOVE? I'm so fvcking scared and it's driving the hell out of me!

6.       You're not allowed to use your phone

I know this is absurd. Pero masisisi mo ba ako kung natatakot ako nab aka may marinig siya sa iba na nagsasabing iwan niya na ako? O kaya ay paano kung ligawan siya ulit ng ex niya? A man who is in love is able to do even crazy actions para sa taong mahal niya. I know that because I'm like that now. I am crazy, crazily in love with this woman.

7.       Without make-up

Naiinis ako! Hindi ba pwedeng hilingin ko sa Panginoon na baguhin ang mukha niya? She's strikingly beautiful and it's annoying that all of my male employees admire her! I want her entire being all for me, for me alone! Wala naman akong pakialam kung tumaba siya o magkaroon siya ng maraming pimples. Maganda nga iyon eh. At least ako lang ang totoong makakaapreciate ng beauty niya, ng pagkatao niya.  

8.       Stop Dreaming

Because she doesn't need to dream about it. I'll make it real!

9.       Stop Waiting 

Because I didn't leave her. I'm still here at kung sakali man, babalik ako. I'll definitely be back for her

10.   Stop Hoping

Dahil kahit bumitaw na siya, ako ang patuloy na hahawak sa kanya. Even if the time comes that she doesn't want me anymore, I'll forever hold onto her. Hindi baleng ako ang magmahal at hindi mahalin pabalik, hindi baleng ako ang masaktan kakaasa, wala akong pakialam. I will love her and I will always protect her.

 

And now that I'm seeing her cry, tulad ng sinabi ko, I'll turn those tears into laughter. Kahit na masaktan ako. Kahit na wala ng matira sa akin. Basta okay siya, basta masaya siya.

 

——Jayson